甜甜的。会让嘴角上扬的。

其实想写blog的感觉几天前就有了，可是就像bowel motion酱，憋久了竟然会写不出，变成了bowel obstruction. 想写的东西，都忘光光了。
很忙。头脑很忙。我是那种如果得不到结论，就会一直去想它，想到我都傻了，像interlectually challenge的人，我都会一直想下去。
想多了，就会心烦意乱。所以我想说，我不想管你了。
最近，生活开始回到现实状况之中。慢慢上轨道，大家都出发了。那种虚拟的假期，只是瞬间orgasm， 过去了就只剩下回忆。
你懂吗？有一种男人我抗拒不了，就是眼睛TMD好看的男人。我曾经爱上的他，也有好看的眼睛。就是眼睛下方有皱纹， 像小钟哥，权相佑等。有些人讲，那是老化，可是他却吸引了我，可能是常笑的人吧。。

我心想说，如果你能逗我笑，而我开心了，我就会珍惜你这个人。
如果说，你的眼睛也有皱纹，我会跟你讲，我愿意一直让你笑下去。
看到你的笑容，我心满意足。
迷恋。

我要去躺躺，想想还没有结论的东西了。咦？说好的幸福呢？

You blew me away with your smile

Its just another begining of a semester.

The adrenaline rush caught me off my guard when I finally saw my nice single room.
Perhaps its kinda unfair to say this, but it took me quite awhile to get used to it. The emptiness and loneliness absolutely had drown me during the first day and night. Hostel life was one of the lovely thing which I look forward to every sem. After spending nearly 20 years of quite a lonely childhood, I enjoyed to the companion of friends more then anything else. I love the fact that I get to share my rooom with my roomie and she is nice. After being used to squeezing in a room, now I have the whole room to myself. It looks so freaking empty and of course quiet at the same time. Maybe I should get a sleeping bag.

There's plenty to look forward for this semester. Challenging and at the same time I need to buck up on my result. Same people same loud voices, its another year with them.

Cant kick off my addiction seems to get myself into the deep waters. Oh my, I need a tight slap each time when the urge is here.

Crush seems happens now and then. It doesnt matter but unfortunately things dosnt seems working in the right way.

Vainity works it's way through and it sweep under my feet making me falling into a deeper trap of indulgement. But I need to pay a price for it.

anyway, I need to stay cheerful isnt it??

And I miss badminton.....

And I miss u all.....

听说。

今天，陪了你一个下午。

我说，我懂了。

和你一起闲走，买日常用品和聊天。

那感觉很好，我喜欢。

累了，一起在cafe喝杯水休息，你玩你的电话，我上我的网。

虽然没聊得天花地乱，可是我就珍惜那个时光。

一起坐下来，吃一顿家常便饭，我期待每天跟你过这样的生活。

一年了，我们同居，我想说，我太开心了因为在我这辈子里遇见你。

我期待接下来和你在一起的日子。

因简单的你，我的生命变得很幸福。

西街小姐，虽然你肥了，可是我还是爱你。哈哈哈。。。

开什么玩笑，她的身材好得不得了，我天天看了都垂涎三尺！！

You are Orange and White

Sometimes It take time for things to happen. I mean, things don't just happen isn't it?
Things left unsaid, leaving a bigger gap between between you and me is better then a unpeaceful mind.
A sudden liking, that implusion, I understand it as well as you did because I felt it too.


花时间，陪朋友，感觉真的很好。要开学了，大家都变得很emo。Emo还不打紧，最讨厌就是看到人家在倒数，天啊根本就天天提醒我，要回去当宅女，不能每天喝茶、逛街、打羽球、要读书。。。。根本就是。。。。SHIT。。。。。
一个礼拜的时间，好像都不够用。从上个礼拜开始，就发了狂似地，几乎我都不在家，常常都在趴趴走。去买个东西都会买上好几个小时。而且，竟然我爱上逛guardian， watson这一类型的店，boutique和shopping不用讲啦！ 还有，我觉得精品店的东西，挺有趣的。闲人就是酱，时间多。
要回去读书了，零用钱变少，就连出门都要出钱租车，真无可奈何~ 还是在麻坡好，有车用，车油父母出，还可以每天趴趴走。
回去宿舍，我有点担心。要走才能买到吃的，在家里我都酱懒惰吃东西， 都是爸爸在准备，他没空我就不吃了，lolx。是不是都要天天instant oat来决解？
还有，我那个烦死人敏感，lecture hall 酱冷，岂不是要痒死我！


最近，好像受到损友得影响，购物欲和食欲特别强！怀孕了吗？
重点就是：我没减到肥，还是那么的胖！ 哇的发~

我很烦恼，我很烦恼。。
突然看到以前的照片。。lol。。我是怎样活过来的。。
为了娱乐大家，小女牺牲小我。。

一岁的我，现在我知道为somok我酱胖了，是天生的！！！！

六岁，八字眉开始出来了。呵呵。。

我应该是在日本读小学，不然我zomok将像小丸子。。。七岁。

移民到印尼，当起女佣了。很黑。十二岁了吧。那个头发，比helmet还要圆!

十三岁，被抓去读书，当书呆子，很不甘愿，因为TA欠我一百万。

被放出来了，十几岁的事我也不记得了。。。

十八岁，开始在马来西亚居住，当这里的公民。

十九岁，妈妈将要相亲，叫我拍照扮老成点儿。老到可以当你娘了吧？？

结婚不成，去读大学，大一freshman的时候，常常被人误会成3rd year senior.

二十一岁了，去了趟泰国，花了些钱，变得比较像人样了吧！！哈哈。。


 哈哈，我真疯了，把这些照片公开。。哈哈。。
下次，我再来post我五年来“整形”的过程吧~

Its just another day for you and me

I repeating myself, its just another day for you and me.
She told me, isn't nice to hold someone by your side and feel the warm of it?
So I did told her that day, you don't just simply hold anybody.
Nearly. I was inconsiderate and inappropriate.
I'm sorry but I guess its time to spit it out. Its not the time for dreams.
But I don't have the courage to tell you face to face.

When that day comes, truth will revealed itself.

天天想你，天天问自己，到什么时候才能告诉你？