Tuesday, May 27, 2008


tired...

why i cant decide on my own life...
why you must force me to this and that..
i am really sick of everything you want me to do..
and you just cant shut up for a moment!!
i hate it..
no matter how well i had done u never care..
all i did was wrong..
all that i had to do is follow your wishes hundred percent!!
just shut up la!!!!!!
i hate you when you are around me..
you are making everybody miserable..
you think you are clever, smart and whatever hell shit you do is right!!
all your decisions are perfect!!
whatever goes wrong then you will say "didn't i told you before"..
damn it!!
if you are so clever why don you just stop it before it happens!!
i am really tired this time..
really very tired..
please stop nagging at me!!
you know why i kept quiet everytime???
because i cant stand you!!
i am flaring up inside..
i know i must control my temper and you knows my temper better than anyone else..
please.. please let me off...
i scare..
i scare..
one day when i can't take it anymore..
i might do something i will regret for my whole life..
so please..
leave me alone...








ps.. whoever had read this post please don ask me who i am saying about.. none of your business..

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Miao.....

i was really piss off that day...
on monday morning, i had a date to play badminton wit my frens. before i left my house, i feed the stupid and idiotic cat, i even left the back door opened so that the stupid creature can go out and do her business in the sand pit. after 2 hours of game, i then came back..
and you know i saw in my kitchen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THATS RIGHT, IS SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the stupid and stupid and stupid cat actually did her business in the kitchen!!!!
i suspected she ate something wrong, because her shit were all watery and undigested cat biscuit.
but i was really very very angry because i did left the door opened for her go out!!!!!
WHY SHE MUST DO IT IN THE KITCHEN!!!!!!!!
further more she turned her drinking container over and the water spilled all over the floor!!!!
first thing i did was screamed!!!! AAAAARRRRGGGHHHHHHH!!!
and that day i was very very tired because i just had my birthday party on sunday night.. i was exhausted after the game....
DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!
I WAS FORCE TO CLEANED THE SHIT!!!!!

i had no choice there was no one around at home except me...
YWEIKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.............
its DISGUSTING!!!!!!!
FINE! I DID ANYWAY!!
(here comes the climax)
as i was washing, the stupid creature came in and played with the water..
first time the water was dirty, so i chased it away....
second time the water was very soapy, so i chased it away again...
THIRD TIME, i really lost my temper then!!!!
i chased after it and pick her her up.........
and.........................
GAVE HER A HARD SMACKING ON HER HEAD!!!!!!
I WAS REALLY VERY MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for the whole day, she hid in my brother's room and not willing to come out at all...
ok i admit that i felt a bit of guilt, after all she is just an animal, she do not think like humans do..
so i went to sayang sayang her..
but she was kinda terrified of me.. haha.. i was really fierce i think...
for the whole night she hid here and there... scared and afraid...
at last, her owner is back... my bro was back with my dad...
and finally.....................................
she is back to NORMAL again...
PHEW................................................




here some pic of miao...

she is eye-ing a dragonfly ..


looking at me...............

Friday, May 16, 2008

ROTTING AWAY......

can you imaging???? everyday going to school but do nothing at all!!
...................................SIENZZZZZ.......................................
first of all, registration day.. i thought we can go back right after we registered, mana tahu they wanted us sit down and listen to ucapan!!! (for all student in Malaysia- i guess you know how boring all ucapan were in schools), and we had 3 ucapan!!
then for the next 3 days, we went to school everyday, sat in hall and chat.. by the third day we already ran out of topic.. anyway i think in the hall we were nosiest, and most 38 students..

on this Sunday, i decided to throw a birthday party, i didn't invite many people, just those who were really closed friends.. just a small gathering in my house..but the actual purpose is to have a gathering with all my friends before we really part...

i decided to stay at dato now.. too much of procedures to transfer.. i think anywhere is the same as long i am willing to work hard right..
k la thats all... ciaoz...

Saturday, May 10, 2008

shopping!!

haha... a title which is catchy to all girls' eyes right????
sad case is i am doing the shopping for form six~~~~~!!!!
shoes... i don understand why black shoes doesn't look as nice as white ones..
white shirt... i try to look for the usual brand i bought last time, i found it but the quality had gone down.. economical problem again i think, save on the budget.. so i went to the shop next door and bought another brand..guess what?? the shirt smells like PAPAYA!! i quickly soaked and washed it immediately after i reached home..
skirt... gray color. super long..luckily that shop provide alter service..
socks..nothing much about that..
stationary... as usual..
i think i am done with school stuff.. i will get anything which i am lack of after i started my class.. i had totally no idea how form six will be..don't even know what books should i start preparing for classes..
should i transfer to high school?? is dato really not a good school?? why high school better??
but really very troublesome you know, to do the paperworks.. run here and there, see this principal and that...haizzzzzzz.... izit worth it???

Thursday, May 08, 2008

unusual guest.... guess who...

today someone was sent to my house... guess who...
is my bro's CAT..
is a SHE cat, black, pretty big, doesn't mew(weird huh..i only heard once she mewed)...
her name is MEW..haha.. i wonder is it because we keep calling her mew and now she doesn't even bother to mew already..
and the whole day 3 of us just kept mew mew mew mew.. come here.. come here..mew mew mew..
actually MEW is my bro's pet in kl.. but he had gone for holidays so he sent her back to muar..my bro is really an animal freak!! his cat is really very well groomed.. and another thing you sure cant believe it.. he actually spent his pocket money to do some surgery for that cat(so she doesn't get pregnant).. well i guess she get all the attention from us..
whole night we had been looking around for her and play with her.. i had to admit that she is really a very cute creature.. i used to hate cats a lot.. they are sort of ego animal who think that themselves are very great..walks haughtily and think that as if they are their master' master!! but MEW makes me changed my mind about cats.. she is very tame and quite clever also.. and by evening she already adopt herself to the new surrounding..great.. happy for her...
when i have time i will take a picture of MEW and post it here.. thats all..

Monday, May 05, 2008

FREEDOM!!!!

GOOD NEWS!!

happy happy happy.... i am in a very very very good mood today... plenty of good reason let me do so!!not even a bad news from kementerian pendidikan can damp my mood(which is i get DATO where i gotta do my form6 and lots of transferring work gotta do.. haiz..)

k...

happy reason no 1: i finish my last part time job yesterday!! which mean no need to work anymore!!! i hate all my job.. even the pay is pretty good but they were damn boring.. stand whole day
some more nothing to do ... now i can enjoy my life...

happy reason no 2: my dentist just told me that by next month i can take off my braces already!!!!!! thank lord!!! how i long for that news!
2nd of June, 4pm.. looking forward for that day.. hehe.. as if is my big day... oh ya.. don call me or msg me at that time because i will be unavailable!! oh ya, its also before my church's camp..means i can show off my nice set of teeth by then.. haha..

happy reason no 3: total in this year the money that i earned from part time job passed my expectation!! just a 17 days before CNY + 3days per week for 7 weeks =
NICE SUM of SALARY

happy reason no 4: i had finally decided to let go of something which i had been doing for the passed few months.. its a hard decision to do.. but what i had been doing causes me to fall in the spiritual walk with god.. and i guess(not a guess, is a definite) i had make the right decision to stop this..

still have plenty of reasons.. but that doesn't concern about me personally(is about my family members) so i would just stop here.. but praise the lord for all the good things!!

Sunday, May 04, 2008

finally i think... at least...

FINALLY!!!!!!
i mean i finally decided to create a blog... hmmm... wats makes me do that?? actually i'm not very sure also.. maybe pier pressure?? never thought pier pressure can works on this kinda stuff huh... actually i had 1 blogging site before this in friendster but its like an abandoned site.. poor thing.. only 3 posts i think.. kinda childish stuff also..and now i had created another blog.. what should i do about it???? give me some ideas.. leave a comment also can.. but i guess i gonna crap plenty in this blog.. and maybe grumble+complain+nag... scary huh!! haha.. just maybe... i think i will give plenty of my view instead...expressing myself.. sounds nice ya.. great.. settled then!!

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