我的华语没有几烂，只是觉得成全小我，牺牲大我，没有错。

忙了这阵子（也没他们忙啦），今天终于把event顺利的举办成功！
突然，觉得这段时间，我喜欢的东西都没去做，乐趣全没了。忙幼稚园的工作，忙event，忙朋友，却忘了忙自己。自己喜欢的那些玩意儿，都搁着。吉他都生灰尘了、钢琴完全没打开、那本书被遗忘，还有跑步的时间通通被占有！
我快乐吗？shopping的确令人振奋！和朋友聚会很开心！
空虚吗？有一点。毕竟没学习。

可是，我却经历了这一辈子好多好多的第一次！
第一次，帮小朋友梳头发。
第一次，用右手教小朋友写字（我是左撇子， 小朋友都是右撇子！）
第一次，把小孩抱在怀里。
第一次，喂小孩吃。
第一次，我发觉了小朋友的可爱。
我还实在适应当中，他们的吵与闹，还是会让我头疼，想把他们一个一个掐死，可是 I already got attached to them. 不舍得了。可以说，这一次的挑战，让我在第二个礼拜，就想give up了。为了责任，我死都撑下去，没想到，竟然被我overcome, 还让我依依不舍。应该下个月，我会很开心吧，有钱赚又有sense of accomplishment!还有，我忍不住开始捉弄小朋友们，太好笑了！他们很天真也~

第一次，写华语会议报告
第一次，出去跟商家筹钱。（以前我不是interact club的，那个是浪费父母的金钱）
第一次，开会开到晚上12点！
第一次，用到我的laptop的dvd writer。
第一次，email很active。
第一次，觉得华语TMD难，新闻稿都写不出！
我有很好的副秘书，对！我是秘书，不要笑！我真的做manderin speaking society的秘书。还好很多工，副秘书都帮我做了，太感激她！！有点被我欺负。我好像是monster酱，去到那里都有victim。

这群人很棒！真的很棒！boss很负责任，N.G. 变hyperactive，， XC越来越u mall（这也是她教我的)， cheer很可爱，joanne很开朗，ahfun不搞笑不行，xuanyet飘来飘去，arthur绯闻多，sky莫名其妙可是又有point，GANweekiat 干来干去，alex很废，还有aikchuan对八九敏感!!


好了不写了。我要去看书，chillax a bit, enjoy my cool afternnon inside the aircon room, perhaps with some durian.. awwww.... I think this moment is perfect.

Next month, August.
Happiness is with me. Happy things are going to happen and I'm part of it.

Oh, Its as pinkish as my cheek!

It had been so time ever since I started to ponder upon this issue, something keep makes me wondering, did I ever really grew up? I know it must be ridiculous to ask this but at times I really find myself kinda childish and even though I am already 21, I'm still a kid in a overgrown size body.

You know, I really got a thing for soft toys. Yea ranging from teddy bears to dogs. I cant leave them alone whenever I sees them. I will keep patting them, enjoying the soft fur. Oh my goodness! I just loves them!! Even today a 4 years old boy went to kinddie with his soft toy, I enjoy it as much as his does! Alright I even try told him not to play with it when teacher is teaching, and I will keep it for him! For what reason? Duh so that I can play with it too!!

its so cute isn't it??





Even in shopping centres, I love those shops that sells soft toys. so freaking cute and adorable!! I wish I can live in soft toy wonderland.
Other than that, I love toys too! See? I'm a kid! Till now I still keeps my toy from childhood, some of them. I remember, 2 years ago, when my mom gave away my toys without telling me, I cried like mad! I was so angry and pissed off!! I even demanded my parents to take back my toys! yea I was 19 and I was acting like a baby. And few weeks ago, a friend of mine gave me a present. Yea its McD's toy! I was over the clouds. Its a whole set of Kungfu Panda series..

Awww.. look at that, how can I not to be happy?

I cant believe it. Receiving toys at this age still makes me so thrilled and cant stop smilling. Cakes and Chocs make the wonders too!! Whenever somebody gave me choc out of nowhere, I enjoyed it. Its just fabulous!!

Another thing, I'm really scare of pain! Any type of pain. The thing that I hate most is somebody ticks me or pinch me! Urgh that pain is so annoying! That day i nearly lose my temper at a little kid who pinch me while holding my hand. ( see I was bullied by kids kay in kinddie). And I cry at the slightest pain, tears will just roll without any control. Argh its so embarassing huh. Lol guess what I will do if somebody causes me pain? I will bite back. Yes I bite without any hestitation. What a disgusting reaction. Again, I seriously thinks that i'm a kid.

Do you know kids will throw tantrum when they are sleepy or hungry? Me too!! Can never ever get rid of this bad behaviour even too this age! I will be so pissed off when anybody disturb my sleep. I guess my friends are kinda pity cause I'm a person who needs 8 hours sleep every night and will be irritated if I do not get enough sleep.

I wish I will grow up soon!! hahaha.. I really meant it!

懒懒散散。

女人，相信我，花钱买东西的感觉，跟拥有好皮肤是一样令人开心的。
憋了酱久，我终于放肆自己，出出力去买东西了。
可是本人购物还是仍然有自己的本则，就是一定要物有所值，还要是削价后的，然后最重要就是不看品牌，只看剪裁、布质与舒适度！
可是。。。可是。。。现在megasales！！ 根本每个地方都在拼命的削价！！！MNG的jeans只剩RM79，有不买的原因吗? 哈哈。。要不是我的卡一直出问题，有些店不能刷，害我得用现金，可能昨天会花更多！
买东西吃东西买东西吃东西！酱的假期最开心了！！
话说回来，我还是第一次跟枪小姐出门吧，有约会的感觉！可是问题是我们俩太爱讲话了，俩人一直讲，讲到口水干，还在讲。。。就一直讲。。讲了又讲。。。讲到回家。。。

全天就只拍到这一张合照，太顾着shopping了啦！！还我们回家的路途上，一直槌心肝，以自为没拍到照感到心疼！！不用紧，下次才拍！！

这是乘枪小姐在更衣的时候，我自己先来自拍一下。。 哈哈。。这套衣服是昨天买的，买了就现场穿！疯了！！剪掉牌子还钱就直接穿。。迫不期待，因为原先穿去的裙子太令人不舒服了！



可爱吧？？ 粉红色的太阳眼镜！！其实上次跟她们去的时候就看过了。。可是就没买，回家后一直一直的想念它。。枪小姐就买了下来送给我！太爱她了！！！谢谢你！！！

买了裤子衣服很开心~~

开心会让人看起来特别美丽吗？？因该是这样。。最近人变得开心了，就常常听到人家称赞我。。让我很开心。。哈哈哈。。。超级自恋的！ 就今天啊日，我在调吉他的时候，（我只是穿了牛仔裤加衬衫），就听到有两个aunty在讲话，一个是我的伯母。。那个aunty就讲，你的侄女每次回越变越漂亮。。哇，我在远远都听到，讲到酱大声。。。我听了超爽的！！哈哈哈。。然后那个aunty就跟我讲我很elegent。。哈哈哈。。爽吧。。。

好就这样。。再见！

来。看一下。我也在。

他说，我违反了游戏的规则。玩得太不像样了。
我跟他说，我背着你玩的，你大概还不知道吧。

心事重重，满腹地忧愁，那不是我。
我还希望现在生活能再有点味道，好像伤风，没味觉。
其实我可以，五彩缤纷的活着，但是懒惰。
要忙吗？好像很多东西都搁着了。

现在来写new year resolution会不会太迟了？
或许holiday resolution 还来得及吧？
写归写，行动还是要快。剩六个礼拜。
减肥好像还可以。对，我圆了。

想念你的美，想念你的味道，想念你的同在。
如果说，爱从眼睛开始，我的心已有你的位子。
你被取代，好像挺难的，看着你，我心虚了。
说我不动心，骗你。
忘了那个痛，可是你已不属于我。

我在自甘堕落。
但是，伤在复原，结疤。
下一个春天，我等你。