Its 4.39am

yea I know, Eliza Tan is well known for her Sleep-Alot-Freak, who goes cuckoo if she doesnt get enough sleep. But what am I doing at this hour?? Thanks to the nap I had at 7p.m. just now, I only get to be awake at 1a.m.. What was I thinking huh? Its supposed to be a nap, which means a forty winks. But in the context of Eliza's dictionary,

a extreme short nap = 1 hour

a short nap = 2 hours

a happy nap = 3 hours

a satisfying nap = 4 hours

So a 5 hours sleep, left me brightly awake at this hour. And you know, silenced night like this, oops its silenced morning like this, its the best time use internet in Malaysia!! Say Cheers!! *high five*

I'm hungry. Seriously I'm very hungry now. Thanks to the act-like-a-dustin day yesterday, i had diarrhoe for this beautiful sunday. I had to even ffk songleader for not being his pianist. Look at my menu:

Soup + shells

twisties chip + choc + black sesame snack

char kueh tiow

french fries + strawberry milk shake

yea thats all I have for a day, but its totally a disaster for me the next day.

Its a non stop snapping night for me whenever I hang out with my babes!

Patty posing for me

Irene with her apparatus

her "beer"

angie unwilling to pose for the camera

serious face

oops!!!!!

nah! a decent 1.

posing for patty

don't you think we looks alike??

"beer" and "beer"

 alright this is another night.

ready and pose!

they looks like they wanna fight any moment!

finally a pic with angie.

cheryl posing while i act like so pro.

her eyes are popping out!!

tada!! plaits are so nice!!

i also did mine!

 hahahahaaha... next..... you can just skip or else you gonna puke!!!

give you a nice one first

gold fish face

smirk face

sneer face

 lastly... the paling menyampar one.......

act innocent

 alright thats all ciaoz!!!

 

Quietness

In the middle of night, I thought of you more often that any one else. I'm deeply burdened by the sight of you. It could not be any worst than now. First time in my life, I see emptiness in you.

This is my Prayer for you.

Oh Lord, thank you for being the guide in our lives,

thank you for leading us,

thank you for opening doors for our future,

thank you for being our provider of

love, care, food, even safety day in and out,

I pray O lord,

give us wisdom,

so that we can speak wisely,

so that we can make decision according to your will,

so that we can choose the right way,

give us a humble heart,

so that we will come to your feet and surrender

so that we will be your humble servant

so that we will serve you whole heartedly

give us patience,

so that anger do not grow

so that we can tolerate each other's fault

so that we can teach each other

give us love,

so that we see each other as family

so that we forgive those who had hurt us

so that we will unite as one

Lord I pray,

You are the almighty God,

that had lead us without fail,

even at this critical time,

Lord You had not abandon us.

Lord You be our sherpard,

lead the lost ones back to your arm,

teach the arrogant to be humble

heal the heart of the hurt ones

Lord give them the burden

to light up for you

to be revived in you

to grow in you.

in Jesus name I pray,

Amen.

To be frank, I say, I cant hear you.

I knew it aint fair to say this now, but this is my equal share and right at least to grumble to my own tiny little teddy bear.. all right its not that tiny, its small...perhaps medium..

The urge to seek for excitement is killing me day and night. I must be crazy to demand such ridicuous request from you honey. Thank goodness we are mutual and convenient. Hee. Its love yet its not right. Ah I'm in it again. Requirements fulfiled and perfect match. Too bad not the time yet. Random at the same time it is comforting to know that you had my back. I know we are at the best state that we can, Chinese proverb quoted, In thy time, perfect condition, flawless support. I think time is the biggest hindrance. But worst of all, the sparks din't go off as I thought it would. So thats it honey.

Such intense emotion that overwhelmed me as I try to dig my way through the bushes. Oh my.... I think thats called young people. Seriously I'm at lost. Oh God, please give me the wisdom. One hand cant clap and makes sounds. So true. One sided story is the killer. I say, cant you just be more mature? I guess it takes time to grow. I wish I can just leave you all alone. You know what? perhaps I should do that, and let you guys to solve it. Maybe i'm had interfered too much and you had not grow.

Anyway its nice to see you all again. Again we gathered but this is a cheek lifting event. Ah its gonna flood. Dilemma as i ponder on the choice to go or just stay hidden, both caught me in the middle. Delightful reunions lighten up my heart, gave me the warm that I longed for since then. Hey, its nice spending time with you all, you blew my sadness away and pop the bubbles of emoness like the balloons burst.

I love myself. thats a spoonful of self-confidence and a scoop of high self esteem.

Blue, Red, Green, Yellow.........

Colours are in the air
Feeling monotone day in and out
Smiles vanish as Pout takes its place
This is emoness.

我说，how can this be??
The place you found in my heart
I thought the root went as deep as it can
Oh, its just fibrous root.

那天，I thought it will rain heavily
All I did was just being glum.
No fluid ran through my face
Life goes on.

无奈, it happens now and then
she said, 卡在那里
不能向前，也不能退后
 I think I agreed.

Silenced,  best solution
Its gave me strength
Just as light shone in
As calm as the pond water

Alternatives, choose one only
Gaining the losing of matter
You know Simultaneous Equation?
Happens all night long.

You are my obsession of possession.