我也要学你！

我要学你什么呢点？？你现在应该看得出了吧？哈哈哈。。对了！就是用华语写部落格！感觉有点很爽，不！应该说是非常非常的爽！我的华语程度曾经让patty很自豪地说：“你啊！没药可救了拉，我的华语都比你好！”无奈。。我也是千百个不愿意嘛。。人生万万个无奈，其中华语是我的一个小遗憾。一直到中五预考时，还有人不相信我拿了华文这一科，进去考试了， 他们才露出那惊人的表情。是我太对不起教育了我十一年的华语老师，还是我长得太像香蕉？？不过怎样我还是很光荣的告诉你我没有当掉我的华语这一科哦！还拿了个B3！真爽！

好了啦，念够了就该继续写我要写的东西。现在我的华语还是不是能很顺畅表达一切的感觉，表情等，但是就请你们多多忍耐，指点。。

在过几分钟，我即将踏入我的另一个十周年，是我妈妈最痛的一次，也是我第一次哇哇大哭的一次。回想自己真的好像长大了，尤其这几年，学会了人生一些些的道理，这个年龄也不该做出一些令人不满的事了吧？懂事好像跟年龄有点很大的关系，常有人说，“长大了，懂事了。”就是这个意思吧？我也不愿意当个不懂事的小孩（呃。。在我父母眼中还算小吧？），可是经常神经大条，精神恍惚，老人痴呆，搞不清状况，还是常常惹火周边的人，尤其是我的父母，辛苦他们了。。动不动就被骂，好像已成了每天必须经历的小冒险。啊！我也是千百个不愿意嘛！！！

二十岁了，要读大学了，是不是应该换一个心态来面对一切即将转变的事故？如何去面对呢？还是不能很好的去分析。。慢慢来吧！江宇禅师会说很多道理给我听。。以前的我很自大，自我，自以为是。。对不起！！让我好好去学习好嘛？

还有我现在真的很爱很爱我身边所有的朋友，包括了

patty,一想到她就要走了，眼泪就不听话的流下，跟她天天相处也快超过半年了吧，从考试已来到每天做工，我好珍惜你啊！

liwei啊，是我的好耳朵，天天第一个想要找人倾诉的时候一定想到她，她很成熟，很懂事。。

aheong是一个豪爽开朗的女生，她也要去美国了，有点不舍得。。

angie，好久没跟你聊天说地了，哈哈，路边的野草不要乱乱踏！！

chelchel，你还是一样的美丽，那么地吸引我，你的人真好，爱你永远。。

cheryl你的幽默常常让人开怀大笑，开到你就忍不住想笑，还是小笑小笑好，保持形象。。

liern你美美的样子有点动人，虽然平时你有点远，但时还好有msn，可以update update。。

leeching常常看不到你，你是我们当中最忙的啦。天天这边喝完茶又接摊，你啊，可说是那乐意助人的人，需要你帮忙时，你每次都能帮到。。

irene，最开朗的是你啦，最活泼，可是呀不要每天被男朋友欺负！有时要欺负回他！！

joyce哈哈你的神经最大条了，有时没头没脑的话让人难以释怀，不知该生你的气还是要一笑而过？

lihui你一想到她，你会想到什么呢？哈哈不用说你也懂。。就是那“伟大的胸怀”嘛。。她很好，常常被我欺负，还是对我很好，疼死她了！！！

好了我也写得很累了，好多汉语拼音不会，打得很慢。。累了。。

祝自己生日快乐，晚安。。。

Thoughts

Strands of thoughts runs through my mine as though they are the trains in Twopenny Tube, juggling with all sorts events. I'm still stuck in my lil burrows where only contents my own world. Love life, studies, friends, relationships... all are still so uncertain yet I cant lift my finger upon anything but continue to persuit the blinking star ahead.

Glad that I took the first move to pick it up again, I mean my piano, enjoying classes and new techniques that i'm learning, practices that i need to get up early to do it since i'm working, tonnes and tonnes of anticipation and expectation from my own being. Mistakes that had been repeated till it had became my practice had to be totally removed. Its one of those efforts which i find it hard to complete it. Went back to my old piano teacher, dont ask me why, just an instinct told me to do so. Never remember why I really left her, i always thought that it was because that i'm too disappointed with my examination result, till my mom told me that she had said something that had hurt my feelings when i'm just 10 years old. Recollection of old stories went all the way back, still remember how i was scolded by her after failing my grade 2. I did hang on awhile but finally her aggressive temper had verbalize venom which totally crash a young heart. She said this, might as well you bang yourself on the wall... I stop lesson totally without even giving a though of changing teacher. Lil fire of passion had burn out entirely. Efforts of persuading my parents to give me a piano when i turn 7 just diminished at that moment. Eventhough years later I tried to learnt it again but things doesnt turn out as I wanted it to be. Plenty of courage and assurance within myself had made up the decision of facing my old anxiety and concerns. Anyway, i'm enjoying myself now without any burden as it might just last until another chapter of my biography starts.

As for you, a lil gossip for readers out there, I want to tell you that my heart is attached but no story had really begin. Flower had not bloom and the earth is still in the mist. Complications and hindrances almost make me give up. Love is so sweet yet it can cause u diabetes and obesity when things get out of hands. One lesson from the past had make me dim-witted to the problems of love. Man are not perfect neither me. I lose as i gain. Innocent parties had been implicated make things worse then ever. Eagerness is wash-out and left my rationality functioning but its not making it's way out. I rather be insensible then feeling empty for once.