Jingle Bells.. its CHRISTMAS again..

wow wow wow!!! its christmas time!! fuiyo i love every every single minute i have ever since finish stpm!! as usual if you know me well, my holidays are definitely busier then my schooling days. from 10th of dec till now i haven got a day break, goodness i'm tired actually, but plans just came without much warnings. i went to melacca a dozen of times thanks to my fren to watch movie and eat of course. movies were great.. AVATAR 3D is really good. erhem.. please do not bet with anybody if you are as scatterbrain as me, and never agree to terms like "you do whatever i say"... damn.. no further comments on what happen next..

my bro kindly invited me to his house for a few days stay which was splendid, we went shopping non stop while he waited patiently, we went for crabs, and other delicious food.. haha.. i hope he enjoys his trip to taiwan(he is right there while i'm blogging this).

by the way, i'm so happy that i received christmas present this year!! yahooo... my mom is kinda funny if you want to put it that way, whatever she bought for me, she consider it as christmas presents *sweat*, but thats kind of her. my bro brought me to do facial which was his christmas present for mom and i. lihui and patty got me something too. i got another new bear!! i just named it PAPU.. ok here is the picture of everything..

those few accessories are from mom including the perfume *is she hinting me that i have BO?* necklace is from patty, the shirt is from lihui!!! thanks to you guys cause i really love it very much!! anyway i kept papu on my bed.. love you papu!!

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i just cant believe it!!everything its over just like this!! OMG OMG OMG!!! one and a half year efforts, one year of preparations, half year of realisation, 4 months on acceleration, 3 months of full speed and 1 month of non-stop attempts.. phew... everything just crumpled down on the day i finish my first paper! "£$%^&*#@ biology paper 2!!!every subjects!!! i'm afraid i cant control myself later if i continue on the list!! DAMN!

haiz actually there is nothing i can do now but wait for my result. received JPA letter few days ago reminding me to maintain my result above 4B or CPGA3.00 or else i cant continue on with their scholarship.. haiz...anyway life still goes on and i'm really looking forward to my uni life!! haha..eliza jia you!!!

PAST.GONE.LET GO.

it is now considered a past, a piece of memory or just an experience which i can't do anything more about it. its useless even for me to cry now, to scream at you now or spending efforts to bring everything back to perfect. cracks are visible no matter what unless i'm a piece of metal which can be melted by high temperature and reform. but are you hot enough for that?? i didn't even cried after that because i just lost my way on that path and had left that sadness some way behind me. is that better then keeping those grieves in my heart? i had learnt to accept the truth and told myself that its not the end of the world. trees and flowers still bloom every spring even i cry. i'm letting go......