Holidays!

Frankly say, Holiday season is boiling in my blood now!! I need a holiday plan!! of course I need money at the same time.so freaking wtf.  So this means that the coming 4 months I still need to work to earn enough money for my new piano and holiday expenses!! Ya before I forget, my parents had gave me the green light to get a digital piano.. woo hoo! i'm seriously excited abut it and willing to work my ass off for it!

However, i'm dying to travel at this moment. Throughout last year, I only had been to a few places, Kuantan, Pulau Lang Tengah, Tasik Kenyir, Cameron and Singapore. Urgh.. and stupid Melacca... lol..Seriously there are so many places on my list which I really want to go, but yet haven been there since ages ago. Some of them, KL, Genting and P.Pinang.. Overseas plan would have to delay to next year sem break for now.

So babes, my dear expandables, are you girls still on?? all of you are the most troublesome friend to jio.. hahaha... paling susah la... semua orang ni orang sibuk.. takda free time... faster set a date!!

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when only I get to go???

我说, 你是不是应该。。。。。

还没写就upload照片，纯粹想要跟你讲，我是无辜的，跟照片里的那个家伙一样无故。本文章没有影射任何人，个人意见啦！个人意见啦！

就这样，事情越闹越烈，还常常看得到火花。身为旁观者，其实我应该静静看就好，这个post我其实也写了很久，就放着没有publish出来。有点忍不住了吧！很奇怪的人，奇怪得让我很想把他的头扒开，用针在他的脑里插上几针，看他的神经是不是真的都错乱了。。。

或许，你一直坚持的原则，对你来讲是没什么大不了，可是在他人眼中是有点愚昧。。。
一个人的不认同，或许是个性上的不同，而造成意见分支；
两个人到一组人的看不懂，或许是文化上的差异：
但是全体都排斥，明显的大概是你真的有问题了，要不然就只能怪命运，上辈子你可能是个连环强奸犯，都把他们的女儿强奸了。

生活上的小细节，如果你都已经感觉到明显的差异，你就只剩下两个选择:
第一个，继续犯贱，过自己的生活，不要理睬他人的眼光，或许你活过得挺愉快，因为那是你的本性。
第二个，定下来检讨一下你自己，你想融入人群，过着群体的生活，就需要所谓的adapt and apply吧，为什么你生活的rules不能让人感到舒服呢？多多反省吧。。

当你选择了前者，就要敢敢来。你看过punk文化的人，只剃掉一边的头发，把中间的一半梳了站起来，另外一半，斯斯文文的一个书呆头？？还是你全身都穿着名牌，却脚上顶着ahpek的人字拖？既然你不想放弃你的方式，又何必在人面前装在意？有很多可以写心情的地方，尤其facebook,但是又很公开，你就不要在那边写有的没的，博取人家的同情与注意，明明就不想改变自己，何必post那些。人家看了，都dong buey diao你，又或者人家会很没给你面子，直接指出你不能令人接受的地方。说真的，如果你真的不懂，又哪会写出那种post。

开窍了，选了第二，就要把住机会。人不会残忍到哪里去，多少还是给你改过的机会。就要快快抓紧，不要当白痴。知道人家都有点不爽你了，是你想要跟人家好，就改一改自己，好去融入他们。（觉得没意思，就去选第一个吧！！你开心就好，不要有的没的，又来装可怜。）说实话，时间久了，人家真的会把你当透明了，不再给你机会，也不理你了。到时你想咸鱼翻生，也没办法，因为已经被人家当做调味，拿去炒nasi goreng ikan masin, 我的最爱！

女生之间，不能接受的东东西有很多，个性乔，只有男性爱你，女性会看不过去，尤其是出轨。毕竟你像个妓女酱，到处跟人家乱搞，爽的是你和另一半，有原配的就可怜；
男生之间，重色轻友，万万不能！！男人最在意义气这件事了。大概，男人的脑子里，女人还是配角，不然就是交配对象，不可因为女人而破坏感情！

当然如果你的无奈，跟他们一样可爱，我也没话讲，应该没有人会讨厌你了吧！

是我看不起你，还是我患了妄想症？

好我回来了！一阵子不博客，感觉挺逊的。。我会好好调整自己，展望未来。。怎么讲得怪怪的。。。
K la I prefer to use english actually, caused my chinese is deteriorating like nobody's business. Come on mates speak to me in chinese please!!
Finishing my 2nd sem soon in less then 1 month time, which means that final examination is around the corner in fact.
First year of my university life gone. Lets be silence for 3 minutes to grieve for its departure. *silence*
K lets talk again. Lol ya I'm mad. Yeah I apprecated my 1st year very much, pretty fun and plenty of stuff going on and on. And I gotta wait for another long 4 months break before i can get to this holy hell shit place.lol..
Speaking of coming sem break, its a freaking long break that I have totally no plan for it. I guessed it would be all about money again. I would love to have a relaxing holiday with my babes, seriously it had been a long long time since that I spend some decent time with them. Somehow I wondering when that dream of mine can be fulfilled when all of they are so freaking busy!
Part time job are nuisance, I need money but I'm lazy! urgh.. And I want to learn piano but working means I will no have time for it. Dilemma!! arhhh.....
Anyway I gotta be ready for final exam 1st. This sem I tried something crazy, which was I took my test without studying at all. All that I can say is I ain't genius!! FML..
Study mood is on and i needa ciaoz now...

p/s:我没看不起你，因为我也跟你一样，自甘堕落！

this is it.

hey guys I will stop blogging over here for the time being. Quit blogging till I'm done with it. byes.

我喜欢kam东西。

Errrrr听起来有点猥亵，但是我是个天真的姑娘，真的我只是单纯得喜欢把东西放进嘴里kam一下。就像汤匙，手指，就算是杯，我也喜欢kam。。就是看到还有一点也kam！好像今天泡milo酱，有点粉粘在包装上（应为粉遇到热气，湿掉了），我就kam一下，感觉挺好的。。还有吃东西用到手，我也喜欢kam一下。。不知道kfc要不要请我当代言人？？想钱想疯了。。讲到kfc不懂有没有人想要吃？我想很久了。。每次有机会吃的时候，就被朋友反对！你们常吃，我不常吃嘛。。但是减肥也不应该吃炸的。。

话说回来，开学了，新年新希望新期待新感觉！操，功课超多，又是我看不会的physical chem, 哎要用功了。errr organic 看起来也是很麻烦一下，变东变西的，CNNND。。大家看起来都很忙。。有camp有fac night，但是我都不去。自作孽！才来这里hiam当hiam赛。。complain生活没乐趣！没乐趣就学人家一天update几个post，还update status来flood我的newsfeed。。哈！我没有讲是你！别自己fit进来。。

还有，我每天都罢吃！就是所谓的hunger strike啦。。mogok mogok!!搞到西街小姐也学我搞mogok！害到颗粒小姐没人陪她吃饭。。人家没钱买新年衣。就要穿旧衣，可是好像肥了很多。。恐怕塞不进去谓。。但是我又不要买新衣！！浪费浪费！！只能过到初三，初四就回来了。。没乐趣！！

我发觉到我有点极端，看橱里的衣服都很dull。。不是黑就灰，不然就来个褐色。。鲜艳的好像没几件。但是在宿舍的就还好。。果然人真的不可judge他的外表，是可以变来变去的。。
跟我看到的人也是一样，变来变去，在这个人面前就变这样，在那个人面前就便那样，变到我看到头晕晕。。。重点受害者好像也会变。。还是他太傻。。 看不出人在变。。不过也不关我的事，就让他去吧。。

好哟
就说点最近八卦，我想闹分手！！那个禮蘭越来越不像话！！不讲了。。憋！

For you, my precious one.

Sorry dear for not listening to you, I know I must had disappointed you if you knew about what I had done last summer. I'm sorry. I choose to stay in my dreams even though I knew it isn't reality. But Hurts and Pains aint hot and sexayy anymore. I rather be numb by my own silly and irrationality for once. Thanks for being there and listened to my craps. I will get over it when I'm ready. Perhaps you might judge me and disapprove of my behaviour, but then again, I promised you I will get over it when the time is right. You might say this is running away and asked me stop being a coward, sorry dear, not now. I love you and you will always in my heart. I might had to leave you for some time but i swear nothing gonna change my love for you. And I wanna tell you that my world is wonderful with you.

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dear Dear,
                 I have decided to stop telling you that I miss you till I stop missing you. New year new resolution, thats part of it.

                                                                                                                   Love,
                                                                                                                   Heart of mine