来。看一下。我也在。

他说，我违反了游戏的规则。玩得太不像样了。
我跟他说，我背着你玩的，你大概还不知道吧。

心事重重，满腹地忧愁，那不是我。
我还希望现在生活能再有点味道，好像伤风，没味觉。
其实我可以，五彩缤纷的活着，但是懒惰。
要忙吗？好像很多东西都搁着了。

现在来写new year resolution会不会太迟了？
或许holiday resolution 还来得及吧？
写归写，行动还是要快。剩六个礼拜。
减肥好像还可以。对，我圆了。

想念你的美，想念你的味道，想念你的同在。
如果说，爱从眼睛开始，我的心已有你的位子。
你被取代，好像挺难的，看着你，我心虚了。
说我不动心，骗你。
忘了那个痛，可是你已不属于我。

我在自甘堕落。
但是，伤在复原，结疤。
下一个春天，我等你。

Its 4.39am

yea I know, Eliza Tan is well known for her Sleep-Alot-Freak, who goes cuckoo if she doesnt get enough sleep. But what am I doing at this hour?? Thanks to the nap I had at 7p.m. just now, I only get to be awake at 1a.m.. What was I thinking huh? Its supposed to be a nap, which means a forty winks. But in the context of Eliza's dictionary,

a extreme short nap = 1 hour

a short nap = 2 hours

a happy nap = 3 hours

a satisfying nap = 4 hours

So a 5 hours sleep, left me brightly awake at this hour. And you know, silenced night like this, oops its silenced morning like this, its the best time use internet in Malaysia!! Say Cheers!! *high five*

I'm hungry. Seriously I'm very hungry now. Thanks to the act-like-a-dustin day yesterday, i had diarrhoe for this beautiful sunday. I had to even ffk songleader for not being his pianist. Look at my menu:

Soup + shells

twisties chip + choc + black sesame snack

char kueh tiow

french fries + strawberry milk shake

yea thats all I have for a day, but its totally a disaster for me the next day.

Its a non stop snapping night for me whenever I hang out with my babes!

Patty posing for me

Irene with her apparatus

her "beer"

angie unwilling to pose for the camera

serious face

oops!!!!!

nah! a decent 1.

posing for patty

don't you think we looks alike??

"beer" and "beer"

 alright this is another night.

ready and pose!

they looks like they wanna fight any moment!

finally a pic with angie.

cheryl posing while i act like so pro.

her eyes are popping out!!

tada!! plaits are so nice!!

i also did mine!

 hahahahaaha... next..... you can just skip or else you gonna puke!!!

give you a nice one first

gold fish face

smirk face

sneer face

 lastly... the paling menyampar one.......

act innocent

 alright thats all ciaoz!!!

 

Quietness

In the middle of night, I thought of you more often that any one else. I'm deeply burdened by the sight of you. It could not be any worst than now. First time in my life, I see emptiness in you.

This is my Prayer for you.

Oh Lord, thank you for being the guide in our lives,

thank you for leading us,

thank you for opening doors for our future,

thank you for being our provider of

love, care, food, even safety day in and out,

I pray O lord,

give us wisdom,

so that we can speak wisely,

so that we can make decision according to your will,

so that we can choose the right way,

give us a humble heart,

so that we will come to your feet and surrender

so that we will be your humble servant

so that we will serve you whole heartedly

give us patience,

so that anger do not grow

so that we can tolerate each other's fault

so that we can teach each other

give us love,

so that we see each other as family

so that we forgive those who had hurt us

so that we will unite as one

Lord I pray,

You are the almighty God,

that had lead us without fail,

even at this critical time,

Lord You had not abandon us.

Lord You be our sherpard,

lead the lost ones back to your arm,

teach the arrogant to be humble

heal the heart of the hurt ones

Lord give them the burden

to light up for you

to be revived in you

to grow in you.

in Jesus name I pray,

Amen.

To be frank, I say, I cant hear you.

I knew it aint fair to say this now, but this is my equal share and right at least to grumble to my own tiny little teddy bear.. all right its not that tiny, its small...perhaps medium..

The urge to seek for excitement is killing me day and night. I must be crazy to demand such ridicuous request from you honey. Thank goodness we are mutual and convenient. Hee. Its love yet its not right. Ah I'm in it again. Requirements fulfiled and perfect match. Too bad not the time yet. Random at the same time it is comforting to know that you had my back. I know we are at the best state that we can, Chinese proverb quoted, In thy time, perfect condition, flawless support. I think time is the biggest hindrance. But worst of all, the sparks din't go off as I thought it would. So thats it honey.

Such intense emotion that overwhelmed me as I try to dig my way through the bushes. Oh my.... I think thats called young people. Seriously I'm at lost. Oh God, please give me the wisdom. One hand cant clap and makes sounds. So true. One sided story is the killer. I say, cant you just be more mature? I guess it takes time to grow. I wish I can just leave you all alone. You know what? perhaps I should do that, and let you guys to solve it. Maybe i'm had interfered too much and you had not grow.

Anyway its nice to see you all again. Again we gathered but this is a cheek lifting event. Ah its gonna flood. Dilemma as i ponder on the choice to go or just stay hidden, both caught me in the middle. Delightful reunions lighten up my heart, gave me the warm that I longed for since then. Hey, its nice spending time with you all, you blew my sadness away and pop the bubbles of emoness like the balloons burst.

I love myself. thats a spoonful of self-confidence and a scoop of high self esteem.

Blue, Red, Green, Yellow.........

Colours are in the air
Feeling monotone day in and out
Smiles vanish as Pout takes its place
This is emoness.

我说，how can this be??
The place you found in my heart
I thought the root went as deep as it can
Oh, its just fibrous root.

那天，I thought it will rain heavily
All I did was just being glum.
No fluid ran through my face
Life goes on.

无奈, it happens now and then
she said, 卡在那里
不能向前，也不能退后
 I think I agreed.

Silenced,  best solution
Its gave me strength
Just as light shone in
As calm as the pond water

Alternatives, choose one only
Gaining the losing of matter
You know Simultaneous Equation?
Happens all night long.

You are my obsession of possession.

Baaaaahhhhh~~ thats its a sheep...

Its not a sheep.. its just a lazy bum yawn after been lazing on her bed for a few days watching korean drama. this is one of the recent one that I like very much.. OMG Kim Tae- Hee is so freaking cute, pretty gorgeous and irresistable!!!!!

look at her smile!! its just simply stunning!!!

smoky hot Kim Tae-Hee

so wild and spicy!!

so this is the korean drama I been watching. My Princess

Lee-Sul (Kim Tae-Hee) is a woman who enters college later than other girls. Like her peers, they dream of one day becoming a princess, but for Lee-Sul she actually becomes a real life princess ...

Hae-Young (Song Seung-Heon) is a 31-year-old diplomat. He is the sole successor of the Daehan Jonghap Group (the largest conglomerate in Korea). Hae-Young is also handsome and graduated from an Ivy League school. Agreeing to his grandfather`s creed, Park Hae-Young decides to give up his rights to the company and all of his assets. This is all for a young woman named Lee-Sul.

Lee-Sul is a 25-year-old college student, majoring in Art History. She doesn't think about the secrets surrounding her birth or her stepsister who teased her behind her back. Lee-Sul keeps a shabby appearance and works several part time jobs on top of her college career. She also has a crush on her professor Nam Jung-Woo (Ryu Su-Yeong). One day, Lee-Sul becomes a princess overnight. In order to make her a princess, the President of the Daehan Jonghap Group offers all of his assets. 50,000,000 people stamp their approvals for her and royal families from all over the world sends congratulatory telegrams. Lee-Sul accepts the role of Princess, but she is now locked up in her palace and forced to study from dawn to late at night. Even worse, Park Hae-Young is her only instructor and he is snooty.

Yoon-Joo (Park Ye-Jin) is a 30-year-old woman, who works as the director of Hae-Young Museum. Her father is the secretary for the President of the Daehan Jong Group. Yoon-Joo hopes to marry Park Hae-Young one day to gain control over the company. Her plans come to a halt when the Princess suddenly appears. For the Princess, the President of the Daehan Jonghap Group returns all of his property to the community. Even Hae-Youngs begins to have favorable feelings for Lee-Sul. Yoon-Joo can't forgive Lee-Sul for what she has caused. Yoon-Jo then makes a plan and if it succeeds Korea will lose their imperial family.

Jung-Woo (Ryu Su-Yeong) is a professor, archeologist and holds a PH.D in the Arts. He is also popular among the female students. Jung-Woo grew up in a poor family. Even now with his high status, his financial situation isn't so good. Because of this, Jung-Woo hasn't proposed to his girlfriend Yoon-Joo. One day, something strange happens. Jung-Woo's student Lee-Sul (who always submits papers late, but works hard at excavation sites) turns out to be a princess. Lee-Sul then asks Jung-Woo to become an advisor for the "Redemption Committee of Imperial Family Cultural Assets".

another stunning photo of her.. I just cant resist looking at her. look at her wonderful complexion.

wonderful pair. They should really get together. their babies will be wonderful.

awww....

he is............. is..........

so what korean man are MCP? as long as they are hot like this....

huhuhu..... *saliva dripping...*



就这样，就过了三年

没三年啦，三个礼拜而已。
其实就想总结自己的心情一下。我想再也没有人能快过我，回来麻坡的第二天就去见agent，第三点就上班。就是那种promoter的工，拜六礼拜才上班，剩的日子在家腐烂看连续剧，睡觉。钱好赚，但是工有点闷，成天站在那儿，看手表，等待时间过去！我说，叫一个大学生干这种活也太看小咱们的智商了吧（是你自己去找这份工的嘞，明明你不争气，还讲人！）

就这几天，当了饮品的promoter，见识了人类的种种。。

Case1：
客人1：小姐，这种XXX喝了不好的嘞，听说会中心脏病。。。
我：不会拉，喝少少不会的，是人家喝太多，好有其他因数的啦。。
客人1：是吗？不是还有肾病的可能性吗啊？
开始敷衍他。。。。。
我：来泡好了，尝一下，
客人1：哎哟，小姐放多一点嘛，酱那里有味道。。。
冒冷汗。。。。你不是讲会中心脏病肾病吗。。。。

Case2：
我：来尝一下。。
客人2：怎么没味道。。。
我：：会吗？
其实通常我只听到过人家讲有一点甜
客人2：你加了XXX都没味道，没特别香。。
不想理他了。。。。
我：平时有喝过XXX吗？
客人2: 有啊，我都是一杯放两包，水还要少一点，像你酱放，没味道的啦。。。我咖啡美禄都要放两包的。。
你最好啦，不要买还要hiam东hiam西。。。明明就你的饮食习惯偏重口味。。最好酱喝下去，等下不止饮品公司赚你的钱，医院寿板店都提早跟你收单！

Case3：
我在泡水，突然看到一个小孩的手，从counter旁边伸上来，偷偷拿了了一杯，就跑掉。。我来不及讲，还没加XXX，那杯东西会很苦嘞。。。。

Case4：
别的品牌的promoter：小姐你的倒来喝一下了。。
明明你自己也在买咖啡，干吗来喝我的。。。


其实就还很多奇怪的人类，有些人就一直跟我将它多厉害泡咖啡。。。天啊！！！我又不是举行泡咖啡比赛。。有些人就是想占便宜，免费的，不喝白不喝的道理。。。喝了还一副心虚的模样，偷笑偷笑地走开。。酱还好，够力一点的，当我是他家的女佣，小姐倒一杯给我，我走到渴了。。

可是做工的好处就是时间快过，有钱赚！！开心开心！！！而且工作的日子也是我微笑最多的一天。。脸都酸了。。但是被人称赞笑容甜美的时候，心里挺爽的。。（自恋病发作了）

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在家里，腐烂着。。。
天天我与电脑钢琴手机，电脑钢琴手机与我。。。
还好朋友都回来了，回去的也回去了。。。limteh是我唯一的乐趣。。。

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最进竟然都看到朋友在自己的blog征聘男友。。哈哈。。。
看来我因该开婚姻介绍所，搞联谊，媒人的那个玩意儿。。。
开什么玩笑，他们都是“钱”途一片光明的。。。一个是architech，另一个engineering...
难道说，女人赚越多钱，越难找男朋友吗？？话说回来，老处女都是怪怪的。。以前学校里的那些老处女老师。。。脾气都怪到不行。。。
男人，你们的好品种，都到哪里去了？？

本人也单身。。。有意者，联络我吧。。 lol。。。