nothing better to do..

jz wanna drop in and say hello to myself...
i got pretty lousy results and still can't reali get over it. still have 4 months to go for STPM and i realised that i haven't prepare myself for that. too much to finish.... to much to do....
haiz...

bored

FORM SIX SUCKS!

i don't understand why i'm feeling so bored now.. tomorrow having open day. i feel so bad. haiz poor result really sucks!! spending all those hours doing maths ended up maths is the worst of all. things get worse when your parents doesn't understand it. they all care about A's and never even cross their minds that i really worked hard all this while. why should i get penalised for somebody's failure? doesn't mean that we come from the womb and we will be exactly the same and fail this and that. listen up! i am not him! don always compare and take things will ended up the same for me as for him! i'm fed up with all this.i know getting bad result its my own fault but understand the condition! things are not that easy. dont take it as if i can scored everything. if i'm that good, i could hav done better. give me some space!!! i need to breathe!! you all just don't get it, don't you?? wtf... i want to do well too! i want to go overseas and further my studies too! doesn't mean that i hav a boyfriend and i will lose my concentration. not everybody is like this!! i told you many times that i'm not him. you never learn to trust me.. i really hate you when you ask me those stupid question that showed that you doesn't trust me at all!!
and whats the problem with you?? you knew all this while i hate some topis that you mentioned.. can you just respect me?? i reali want you.. but it wouldn't work out right if things carry on like this. i admit i do things that you don't like and you always give in to me.. i'm really sorry but i'm trying my best, can you try your best too?

I'm ALIVE!!

when typing this title. reminds me of david cook.. he sang that during his competition.. but his recent performance in american idol reali touches many hearts.

ok fine back to myself. 5 days of my precious holiday had passed and guess wat? i didn't even yet touch a book. Great i actuallt planned to do some revision but i'm kinda "busy". yea busy going out with friends and stuff like this. since last friday till today is first day i'm at home didn't go out at all.
friday
i went to attend huiwoon sister's wedding buffet then we decided to catch a movie. we reached cinema late due to reenu had to fetch plenty of humans including me. we can only watched alien vs monster.i almost fell asleep at the end. typical hero movie, little mighty saving the universe. don know why newspaper gave them 3 star rating.. hmmmmm..
later we had a drink at a near by cafe. rachel , angie and i were kinda neglected cuz two of our friends were talking to their own bf.haiz sad sad sad....

saturday
i though of sleeping late. well i did but then i receied a msg from cheryl "hey gal, want to go gia gia??" well i immediately replied and next minute i'm out shopping with her. i managed to get a pants and a blouse for my mom.

sunday
i had tuition extra class and i slept whole day.

monday
i had my lunch with my buddy liwei and chatted for quite awhile.night i went to watch movie again with my parents. Night at the museum 2. well i sat between my parents, guess wat i caught both of them dozing off!!! haha.. unbelievable right?? comedy but they are dozing off! haha..hmmm interesting...

tuesday
badminton session with my gang and also adrian and that little kid. don reali know his name. it was fun cause adrian didn't torture me!:) he like to make me run. psycho.... but anyhow i was his partner that day. but still unluckily i became his shuttlecock's aim. he smashed and right it landed on me..haiz.. jz a blue black on my arm but i managed to make him feel guilty.. muahahahaha....

wednesday
nothing much going on except that my sweet sweet Mr Lim was quite kind that day. he jz critic my way of doing maths is nothing but just Rubbish~~ (with his hand doing the wave)..
i think i'm quite used to him dy so i dont feel anything... or shud i???
night my fren pick me up for limteh but turn up only both of us going so we decided to gave our friends a suprise visit after a drink at mamak stall.. stay out til 12 den went back with an unfulfiled heart..
haiz thought can meet my youth..

thursday
happy day!!!!
i went to melaka with my darlings and dears.adrian agreed to fetch us and poor thing he is. whole day nothing much to do except hanging around while we girls shop.i think his only happy hour is movie hours. yup i watch movie again. 17 Again. zac. they are crazy over him now. but i thought he looks abit weird.. suprisingly i didn't buy anything on this trip!!! yea i'm telling the truth. i didn't buy anything. believe me
well two new heroes were born yesterday. wildboarman and pigwoman.their identities are secrets and sorry i can't tell. haha.

friday
its friday again and its today...
whole day sitting in front of my pc on9-ing.. soon i will become like marcus if i continues like this....

my froggiest experience

for more details please refer to rachel's blog!!

hi angels!!! i'm jz passing by...

Ok here’s another post I promised to write for Edwin. Erm… sorry ya for the late post because I was super duper busy for the 1st week in school that I cant fork out some time for this.

4th of Jan
Last Sunday, I passed by the gates of heaven.
Well it started with my problem with rashes. Actually I have a very strange allergy. I’m allergy to temperature change. Means when it gets colder then I will have rashes. And it takes very long to heal. My 1st attack was in form3. This is my 2nd attack. When it started on 11th Dec when I notice I’m having some rashes. But that time I was so busy with my activities with friends and Christmas celebration, so I didn’t give much attention to it and I din even be bothered. I just went to see doctor and get some pills. The medicine is effective and when I took it, my rashes will be gone. But when I finish it, the rashes came back. This dragged on for about 3weeks and when it’s serious I will get an injection from doctor.
But the problem getting more and more serious. The rashes spreaded to every part of my body. On 3rd of Jan, when my parents saw that western medicine cant cure me, we decided to give try for Chinese medicine. I went to a Chinese sinseh and she prescribed some medicine for me. Well she told to me stay away from those “cold”, sour foods. And eat more of those “heaty” foods. So on Saturday night I have my 1st dose of medicine. Then my mom took out a bottle of Chinese health wine for me. Its “heaty”.
Sunday morning about 12pm I had my 2nd dose. My rashes were really bad that day. About 1 hour later I took some wine. I think some reaction between wine and the medicine occurred and I started to felt uncomfortable. I immediately called my dad to come back. Right after I called my dad, I felt like vomiting. I ran to the toilet and the veins behind my neck and head were popping very hard and I cant hear anything else. I thought it gonna break and I will have stroke. I somehow blackout in the toilet. I was so scared that I was calling “Jesus, saves me, saves me!!!” non stop. I managed to regained my conscious but I cant open my eyes. I squeezed open my eyelids, a small gap, and I realize I was sitting on the floor. Thank God I din hit anything when I blackout. Everything was in bright white light and black darkness. I fumbled my way back to my own room. I fell back on my bed and that time my dad was back. All this happened in less then 10minutes. I was perspiring non stop.
Immediately my dad sent me to the nearest clinic (Elizabeth), I blackout again in the clinic when the doctor was checking my blood pressure. He gave two bottles of drips. I don know why I always kena poked twice by the needle for drip. Last time when I was sent to hospital in the middle of night for bad food poisoning, I was poked twice too!!! And its really very annoying when u are feeling already like half dead, then kena poked twice by that needle. The diameter is quite big compared to the normal injection needle. Ok back to my story in the clinic, Even though I was half unconscious at that moment, I still can felt the pain when he poke at the vein (because he chose a vein quite side and its rather bony there compared to the middle one.).
About 3hours later, the doctor came back to check on me. Oh ya in between that, he gave me a jap. Kena poked again but this time on my arm.(Thank God). My blood pressure was still super low. Less then 90/60. the doctor says the fluid didn’t go in my bloodstream but all went to my tissues and under my skin due to my rashes. I was to stay in bed for 2 days and shouldn’t stand up or sit up for too long because I might faint anytime when my blood pressure goes too low.

The next day my blood pressure was still very low and my dad sent me to my family doctor. We had been seeing him ever since young. He was surprised at my super low pressure and paleness. He kept saying no wonder u will faint. He told me I’m having LBP and at the same time anaemic lack of blood.

“No wonder you are having fainting spells!!”

he gave me ovalmin (I’m not sure how it spells but its for anaemic). Well I was on mc for Monday but Tuesday I went back to school already because I really have a lot things to catch up if I’m absent again. But I’m quite tired out everyday. Thank god I’m recovering and now everything is almost back to normal. My BP is about 103/69.(just measured). My rashes still having a bit here and there. Oh ya I was told to stay away from all the food and environment that can cause allergy. I cannot eat chicken meat, eggs, seafood, nuts, chocolate, dust, “cold” food…….. etc.

haizzzzz…….

Keep me in your prayer and I believed God will heal me.
K la that’s all!!

Dato Sri Amar Diraja

It had been a long long week for me.. first of all I wanna say I’m so glad that

I’M BACK IN SCHOOL!!

YAHOO!!

Dato really rocks!!

Haha.. I remember I once told Rachel that Dato is my kindergarten, 6AE is my new playground, and Rachel is my favorites Barbie doll!!! Haha.. jz kidding.. Anyway I really enjoyed my lower6, and I’ve been looking forward to my new year in upper6.
Well I was been unable to attend the 1st day in school due to my health problem. I will write about that later. My sweet gang of friends (Rachel, Angie, Reenu & Joyce) came to visit me on Monday and brought some news from school. I really thank God because we get all the best teacher. Mr Tan for chem., Mr Foong for bio, Mr Teh (cha da ge) for Maths, Mrs Soh for muet and Pn Nik for pa2. Guess what, we combined class with 6AB(physics) for every subject except bio class of course. It’s kinda strange for the combination but anyway I don’t care so much as long I can be taught by those teachers I’d mentioned earlier. Well problems occurred when we had to decide whose class we should use for every subject. Btw its settled and I think we will live peacefully forever and ever. It’s nice to see Mr. Foong and Mrs Soh again. They are still as crazy as anything and crazier than ever. 1st class with Mr Teh was so stressed up and tensed. For those who was taught by him before in school will know that how serious he is. After a few classes with him, I found out actually he is not that bad and I really gotta say that his teaching is so much clearer and exam-oriented. I remember my lower6 Mr Toh, his class was easy and everything was simple but when its exam time, everything looks so different from what he taught. Haha. We have plenty of maths exercise every day and we practically stay back in school everyday after normal school hour to have group studies and discussions. I heard from teacher that we gonna have ELH(extended learning hours) after February, which means our schooling hour will be from 8am-4pm everyday!!! Gosh we will be exhausted when we finish our last paper for STPM. But another good news is that we gonna have lecture and tuitorial style carried out in our school too to prepared us for university life. Hope it really come true. Its just khabar angin for now because we still don have a lecturer hall big enough to accommodate all the students.
I cut down my tuitions also for this year. Since I’m taught by Mr Tan in school so no point I go for his tuition class also. Maths tuition as usual. Mr Lim Cheng Han is the most terrible horrible teacher around!!! I hope he doesn’t read my blog or else he sure will kena me kao kao. Anyway I gotta admit that his maths is so geng!! i changed my pa tuition teacher too.
Anyway I had decided to strive for the last baton in my study life. I hope I really really can score 4A for all the efforts I put in. I really gonna be a nerd this year. So if you notice that I’m abit off my usual kind, don worry, I’m just stress up and I’ll be fine soon. Haha. Ok that’s all for the update in my “sweet form6” life.

1st post in 2009

My New Year resolution

God
1. Get more involve in church activities (music band, youth)
2. Do my TAWG daily
3. Pray daily for all my love ones
4. Bring at least 3 person to know God
5. Be more passionate and responsible for God’s work

Family
1. Be nicer to my parents
2. Bring my bro back to church
3. Care for my family
4. Remember to do my house work

Marcus
1. This part I think I keep it as secret. Haha.

Studies
1. Scored at least 4 A- by mid year exam
2. Finish all my syllabus by trial
3. Don’t skip tuition or class due to laziness
4. Be a full time nerd
5. Strive my very best for my last chance STPM 4A

Physical appearance
1. Slim till at least 52kg
2. Longer hair, less hair loss
3. Better skin condition
4. Get rid of allergy!!!