Peek-At-Bomb

SO much more to GO

2012-01-06T11:55:00.001+08:00

You read me inside out, and understand me more profoundly than anybody else. I let you slip out of my control and oppress my wounded heart from seizure. That day, I had decided to put you down. Confessing my sin is the best heart treatment that I ever got since that day. My heart turns red again.
She was pretty like a doll, attracts attentions and even attracts love. He came and took her heart away merciless just before the year ends. Say goodbye to those unnecessary.
New year new resolutions, one of those list which manage to bug you until you are done with them. I couldn't find the last year's, must had left it in church. Wonder how ambitious I were, again this year, I gonna write a new one.
1. Walk with God til the end, get myself fit into a church, serve him.
2. Pay more attentions to my parents, stop making them worry.
3. Put in more efforts to keep in touch with those who are far from me, I know I'm the lansi one.
4. Contain it, nurture it, get ready for something I'm not good at but willing to love.
5. Yes, violin and french, both of you still making me nuts.
6. As usual, diet and slim down until I can wear a bikini, ~~and make guys nose bleed~~.
7. Save enough money for my trips and NZ.
8. Eat healthily and get rid of my annoying allergy.
9. Create a new shopping list ASAP.
Ya, I know the last one indeed is the highlight of the whole list.

Chinese New Year is coming and there is so much to look forward to this year because practically my sem break drops on this festive season and I've got the whole month off. Say hooray to it! Thinking of getting manicure but thoughts of so much of washing and cleaning need to be done before CNY put me off immediately because nothing would be left on my nails after Da Shao Chu. Oh ya, I need to have a pair of new shoe. Money money money, its the rich man's world..

I can look good in baju melayu too.

blink blink

2011-11-27T03:45:00.001+08:00

I must had mentioned it to you, otherwise how would you know what am I talking about all this while.
It came kinda too abrupt, but perhaps I should seen traces and premonitions about what is going to happen.
I welcome you with a chary soul, taking each step with deliberated pause, watching you crossing over the border of my heart. I had let you in with a blissful sentiment, rolling waves caught me off my guards.
Your care and attentions are puffy clouds that style the bright empty sky. I say, hey there, are you a cotton candy?

你要的爱。

2011-11-09T01:17:00.000+08:00

虽然不曾怀疑你，还是忐忑不定
谁是你的那个唯一，原谅我怀疑自己。

我明白，我要的爱，会把我宠坏，
像一个小孩，只能在你怀里坏。

你要的爱，不只是依赖，
像个大男孩，风吹又雨打，生活自由自在。

对不起，我好像给不了你要的爱，
它的出现，太远了，我不想去追。

开不了口，它跟我的喉结纠缠，
我看着你，惭愧了，心虚了。

我们放下吧。两年的时间很久，
我会好好的充实自己，成为很棒的那个人。

那天，我们再续，你我都会很完美的结合。
可是，别犹豫地去爱，你我都可以。

不想你了。我会狠下心不再这样，不一样的，想你。

昨天，我还有想到你。

2011-10-12T23:55:00.000+08:00

突然发现到，我旧的手机里竟然还有你的讯息，而且看了我心有五分钟情起伏不定。看到我对你说话的口气，我觉得我也有过去，一个我不太想去怀念的过去。虽然我们有快乐过，可是我觉我真的不听话，那个洞是我自己跳下去的，结果就是我感觉到疼了。你们说的对，那是我自找的，活该！

今天我想说，人看开一点，对人对事如果能好好去经营，或许结果会不一样。我向前迈进，有点孤单。我本来就是这样的人，你们把我约束的太紧了，如今我繃开你们的圈圈，有点撇下你们的感觉。可是我真的和你们的生活方式不太一样，我无法接受，曾经努力过配合你们，可是这样的生活无法满足我空虚的心灵。

我讨厌那样的我，黑黑的，像臭虫一样，会给人讨厌！还有那莫名其妙在我手上留下污质的虫，现在我手上留疤了！(就以前听过人家说有一种虫尿在皮肤上会留疤，我发现过后就拼命戳破皮肤，哪里知道它会退掉，另一处我磨破皮肤的就留疤了！）或许人家并不觉得那样得我很令人讨厌，可是我都不喜欢我自己，还会有更糟的事吗？

我自恋，我知道，你知道，他也知道。哈！好像大家都知道。上课都会自拍一下。

可是我觉得自我感觉良好，真的会让人多一份自信，做起事来也会快乐一点点。
努力去做自己喜欢的东西，那份喜悦，也会让你有自信。
可是你懂吗？喜欢的东西不一定是容易的，或许某些程度上的困难，让那东西更有挑战性。我跟男人一样，喜欢那种很难得到的感觉，越是艰难，越想得到它。
应该说，越漂亮的东西，肤浅的我越要占有它，彻底地征服。
它就是a-Lin。
之前朋友跟我讲，你不是应该给它取个名吗？想了几天，也决定好了，

它就是a-Lin.

还有，法文也快把我搞疯了。上完法文课，我都有飘飘的感觉。。

前阵子都有跟家人拍照，挺开心的，因为我好像没有全家福。

哥哥长得像妈妈，我却长得像谁呢？难道我就是传说中从垃圾桶抱来的孩子吗？哈哈。。

Just for you

2011-10-02T23:17:00.000+08:00

“看不懂，看不懂！”
你的心声。

Mystified Complexion

2011-10-02T15:24:00.000+08:00

You know what makes me smile just like the innocent child who was in the amusement park. That tangling smell of happiness is always there. You knew it all along isn't it?

Criminals leave traces here and there and that's how they got caught. A smart one would know that he need to wipe his ass clean before he leaves. I noticed and forecast. Perhaps I should not be in the picture in the first place. Things would not had end so soon. Please forgive my selfishness.

It had been days when I last thought of you. Perhaps time washes away those memories, those feeling I have for you, its going away bits by bits. You know what? I survived.

So I did, survived. But things had been different. You brand me into someone like yourself, which I detest it, but I chose to be like you.

Days passed, the moon still rises in the dark sky. Complications of entangled sensations, I'm showered by affections. I'm as obfuscated as before, passion and zeal caught me off my guard.

Please touch my heart, my Love. Make me whole.

You are absolutely stunning and beautiful. You ain't same with any others I had ever met. I'm falling head over heels for you. Adrenalin rush in my blood makes my yearning and desire even more desperate than ever. I need to make up my mind real soon.

Anticipation and Enthusiasm. Pure Orgasm.

甜甜的。会让嘴角上扬的。

2011-09-19T00:01:00.000+08:00

其实想写blog的感觉几天前就有了，可是就像bowel motion酱，憋久了竟然会写不出，变成了bowel obstruction. 想写的东西，都忘光光了。
很忙。头脑很忙。我是那种如果得不到结论，就会一直去想它，想到我都傻了，像interlectually challenge的人，我都会一直想下去。
想多了，就会心烦意乱。所以我想说，我不想管你了。
最近，生活开始回到现实状况之中。慢慢上轨道，大家都出发了。那种虚拟的假期，只是瞬间orgasm，过去了就只剩下回忆。
你懂吗？有一种男人我抗拒不了，就是眼睛TMD好看的男人。我曾经爱上的他，也有好看的眼睛。就是眼睛下方有皱纹，像小钟哥，权相佑等。有些人讲，那是老化，可是他却吸引了我，可能是常笑的人吧。。

我心想说，如果你能逗我笑，而我开心了，我就会珍惜你这个人。
如果说，你的眼睛也有皱纹，我会跟你讲，我愿意一直让你笑下去。
看到你的笑容，我心满意足。
迷恋。

我要去躺躺，想想还没有结论的东西了。咦？说好的幸福呢？

You blew me away with your smile

2011-09-12T14:28:00.001+08:00

Its just another begining of a semester.

The adrenaline rush caught me off my guard when I finally saw my nice single room.
Perhaps its kinda unfair to say this, but it took me quite awhile to get used to it. The emptiness and loneliness absolutely had drown me during the first day and night. Hostel life was one of the lovely thing which I look forward to every sem. After spending nearly 20 years of quite a lonely childhood, I enjoyed to the companion of friends more then anything else. I love the fact that I get to share my rooom with my roomie and she is nice. After being used to squeezing in a room, now I have the whole room to myself. It looks so freaking empty and of course quiet at the same time. Maybe I should get a sleeping bag.

There's plenty to look forward for this semester. Challenging and at the same time I need to buck up on my result. Same people same loud voices, its another year with them.

Cant kick off my addiction seems to get myself into the deep waters. Oh my, I need a tight slap each time when the urge is here.

Crush seems happens now and then. It doesnt matter but unfortunately things dosnt seems working in the right way.

Vainity works it's way through and it sweep under my feet making me falling into a deeper trap of indulgement. But I need to pay a price for it.

anyway, I need to stay cheerful isnt it??

And I miss badminton.....

And I miss u all.....

听说。

2011-09-07T19:33:00.000+08:00

今天，陪了你一个下午。

我说，我懂了。

和你一起闲走，买日常用品和聊天。

那感觉很好，我喜欢。

累了，一起在cafe喝杯水休息，你玩你的电话，我上我的网。

虽然没聊得天花地乱，可是我就珍惜那个时光。

一起坐下来，吃一顿家常便饭，我期待每天跟你过这样的生活。

一年了，我们同居，我想说，我太开心了因为在我这辈子里遇见你。

我期待接下来和你在一起的日子。

因简单的你，我的生命变得很幸福。

西街小姐，虽然你肥了，可是我还是爱你。哈哈哈。。。

开什么玩笑，她的身材好得不得了，我天天看了都垂涎三尺！！

You are Orange and White

2011-09-04T14:58:00.002+08:00

Sometimes It take time for things to happen. I mean, things don't just happen isn't it?
Things left unsaid, leaving a bigger gap between between you and me is better then a unpeaceful mind.
A sudden liking, that implusion, I understand it as well as you did because I felt it too.

花时间，陪朋友，感觉真的很好。要开学了，大家都变得很emo。Emo还不打紧，最讨厌就是看到人家在倒数，天啊根本就天天提醒我，要回去当宅女，不能每天喝茶、逛街、打羽球、要读书。。。。根本就是。。。。SHIT。。。。。
一个礼拜的时间，好像都不够用。从上个礼拜开始，~~就发了狂似地，几乎我都不在家~~，常常都在趴趴走。去买个东西都会买上好几个小时。而且，竟然我爱上逛guardian， watson这一类型的店，boutique和shopping不用讲啦！还有，我觉得精品店的东西，挺有趣的。~~闲人就是酱，时间多。~~
要回去读书了，零用钱变少，就连出门都要出钱租车，真无可奈何~ 还是在麻坡好，有车用，车油父母出，还可以每天趴趴走。
回去宿舍，我有点担心。要走才能买到吃的，在家里我都酱懒惰吃东西， ~~都是爸爸在准备，他没空我就不吃了，lolx。~~是不是都要天天instant oat来决解？
还有，我那个烦死人敏感，lecture hall 酱冷，岂不是要痒死我！

最近，好像受到损友得影响，购物欲和食欲特别强！~~怀孕了吗？~~
重点就是：我没减到肥，还是那么的胖！哇的发~

我很烦恼，我很烦恼。。
突然看到以前的照片。。lol。。我是怎样活过来的。。
为了娱乐大家，小女牺牲小我。。

一岁的我，现在我知道为somok我酱胖了，是天生的！！！！

六岁，八字眉开始出来了。呵呵。。

我应该是在日本读小学，不然我zomok将像小丸子。。。七岁。

移民到印尼，当起女佣了。很黑。十二岁了吧。那个头发，比helmet还要圆!

十三岁，被抓去读书，当书呆子，很不甘愿，因为TA欠我一百万。

被放出来了，十几岁的事我也不记得了。。。

十八岁，开始在马来西亚居住，当这里的公民。

十九岁，妈妈将要相亲，叫我拍照扮老成点儿。老到可以当你娘了吧？？

结婚不成，去读大学，大一freshman的时候，常常被人误会成3rd year senior.

二十一岁了，去了趟泰国，花了些钱，变得比较像人样了吧！！哈哈。。

哈哈，我真疯了，把这些照片公开。。哈哈。。
下次，我再来post我五年来“整形”的过程吧~

Its just another day for you and me

2011-09-01T21:02:00.001+08:00

I repeating myself, its just another day for you and me.
She told me, isn't nice to hold someone by your side and feel the warm of it?
So I did told her that day, you don't just simply hold anybody.
Nearly. I was inconsiderate and inappropriate.
I'm sorry but I guess its time to spit it out. Its not the time for dreams.
But I don't have the courage to tell you face to face.

When that day comes, truth will revealed itself.

天天想你，天天问自己，到什么时候才能告诉你？

Gia Gia~~

2011-08-25T14:37:00.000+08:00

And there it is. My lovely babe is waiting for me patiently for me to pick him up. I knew he is the perfect one for me eventhough he is just a normal looking fella. Many others stand out and personally, I might would have fallen for others if He is not there last week to catch my attention. Sorry but my heart belong to him ever since then.

My beloved back pack.

It had been a wise decision that I make to go Malacca on wed and a brilliant choice to shop again at DP even though last week I had just been there.
I just wanna say,
It was a beautiful day,

I'm feeling very very happy. A sense of satisfaction and pure joy.

How much struggle I went through ever since last week i saw that bag. Price was the only factor thats holding me back. At one point I almost give up because I told myself "It ok eli, dun be vain."
But my silly vain brain aint telling me the same thing. it was yelling at me that "You gotta get it cause its looks fabulous!!"

What a chance yesterday! STOCK CLEARANCE. It caught my attention from 100meter away and immediately my soul was drawn to it.
We barged into the shop, just kidding, I walked elegently on my heels into the shop and headed straight to the bag compartment. I had decided to sex-ed it as him since I love it so much, thinking of it day and night without stopping. I'm stunned at the price dropped( thank goodness I didn't buy it last week or else I would have been deadly heart ache).

The first reaction that I did was I showed my friend that bag and say I'm buying it. Four of us wanted the same back pack but too bad they only left with 2 more including the display item. Irene choosed another more standing out bag which I though it looks awesome! I would have bought that too if aint for this had occupied all the space in my heart. So two of us bought the exactly same bag and three of us were so happy.

Guess what, I cant stop smiling for it. I felt so freaking happy!!

An hour later, I was still smiling and they got so annoyed.

"Spending a day with friends, chicken rice ball, movie, chat time, shi lin, naan & tandoori."
This is what I call as the simplest form of joy which will make u smile all day long.

p/s: Another happy thing, Irene compliments me by saying that I'm a MEI NU and she almost cant recognise me when she came out of the toilet. I say, what else you can say when this come from a hot sexayy babe? lolx

你说·我说

2011-08-23T01:37:00.000+08:00

首先，现在此恭喜XC's最近点击率猛升！XC's 狼出名了是不一样的啦！加油~
XC's 是一个很有幽默感却墨水很深的一位艺术家。lol，艺术家好像有点怪怪的，可是TA是搞创意的呀！部落客比较好吧！还是要叫她牙套+学生妹？哈哈

就最近，发现到很多人爱讲福建话！ FB 都用福建comment， sms也是，重点，外国朋友也跟我讲福建话。
= =！！
很多人说福建话很粗鲁，其他的方言就连骂粗话也比我们斯文。可是我想说，我们很豪气，一点都不扭捏！骂你粗话就让你知道我在骂你，决不伪装！Gan！
来来，让我们把福建话发扬光大。

好啦，今天的重点，就是要跟大家分享一些甜言蜜语很有味道的一些话。
不是FB抄来的哦！

since I know u,

my days had been on a Merry-Go-Round

Giving me differents scenery at different altitude and degrees

記住我說的哦
只要我有機會，我就會追你，把你抱緊，讓你無法徘徊

而其实个性才是真真讨取男人欢心的财产
如果男生都注重女生的外表，那就太low class了

你倒不是漂亮吸引我，而是性格
性格太吸引我了

When I look down at my palms,
I knew that your fingers will fit into the gaps perfectly.

On rainy days like this, I misses the warm of your body.

想念你的美，想念你的味道，想念你的同在。
如果说，爱从眼睛开始，我的心已有你的位子

I have decided to stop telling you that I miss you till I stop missing you.

生病的时候，最想要得到的，是你的疼爱，你的注意力，还有你的嘘寒问暖。。
没了他们，真的有点寂寞。。。

爱他不是你的错，是我的心不听话。
相爱需要勇气，拒绝需要决心。

I love because you are lovable

I didn't cry because i had given you my heart

I didn't miss you because you are already in my mind

I didn't stay because you were not there

接下来，试一下我常鼓励我自己的话，非常的自恋！

情人眼中出西施
我学会爱我自己的那一刻
我就觉得我是漂亮的了

I love myself. thats a spoonful of self-confidence and a scoop of high self esteem.

因为我的不寻常，才显示他们的平凡无奇。

我也有王子，只是他还没找我。

照镜子，说，
我真是TMD美！

ok thats all for now.. ran out ideas badly...

p/s: 那个在追女朋友的，祝你成功！！

Hatyai, Thailand (2)

2011-08-19T23:40:00.000+08:00

Alright here comes the part 2
Before that, just wanna let you know Songklah is about 1hours plus journey away from hatyai town. Those tourist’s sites like temple, floating market, statues, most of them are in Songklah. So if you were to backpack there, you can hire a van, tutu car is too uncomfortable for such a long distance. If girls, go in a group because I heard one of the aunty said her relative’s wife was fetch away by a tutu car and till now is still missing. So just be careful and cautious.

Day 3

Pasar

this is the second pasar. the one that you can buy alot alot alot of stuff...

For me and Rachel, we combed all the three pasar thoroughly. It’s very big. They sell all sorts of things ranging from fashion to food and even utilities. Girls, this is your paradise. Branded imitations, shoes, clothes, and assessories!!!! You will keep on going

“OMG! It’s so cheap~~” “look at this, it’s so worth it!!”

But remember to bargain! Start off with the price lower than half of the price tag. If you are the first customer of the day, just offer any price, and they definitely have to sell it to you. They have this pantang larang where they must close deal with the first customer of the day or else they can’t get any business later anymore. But please do not bargain just for fun, you might get into trouble for that.

Guys, this pasar will be your hell. This place is so hot and crowded. You will be scratching your head and asking how can all this girls enjoying their shopping so much in a gigantic sauna?? So I recommend you to leave your girl friends alone and sit down for a coconut drink!

Coconut Drink RM3/RM3.50

The normal green coconut is RM3 and the Kelapa Bakar(Burned coconut) is for RM3.50. Personally I prefer Kelapa Bakar because it’s so much sweeter than the other. And it definitely taste better.

Lee Garden Plaza

A normal shopping complex with the only McDonald in that area. One of the attractions there is the flea market.they will spread carpet on the floor and sit down to do their business. Again assessories, clothes, souvenirs and even more! I think I should mentioned it here, there are sketching artists( portrait) around in Hatyai and they are very very good at it. Perhaps if u want to have one, prepare a space in that piece of drawing in your luggage. Or else it will be crumpled by the time you come back. Each sketching cost RM20 and takes around 20minute to finish it.

Mango Glutinous Rice RM5

Sweet mango with plain glutinous rice and some sweet sauce.. I have no idea what that sauce is but all that I can say is IT TASTE FABULOUS!!

Fried oyster RM10

The main difference between Muar’s Or Jian and the Or Jian there is the size of the oyster is bigger over there and they do not use tapioca flour in Hatyai.

So that’s it folks.
I think that’s all the information which I still remember about Hatyai, Thailand. If you are aiming for a low budget holiday, I think you should try out this town. The food and accomodations overall its cheaper and even shopping is so much cheaper! Look out for air tickets if you cant bear the long ride. But I dun mind at all because the bus that I took was very comfortable. Of course with the effect of Double dose of drowsiness, it spared me all the back ache and stiffness. But I find my knee getting stiff and painful after not stretching for few hours( maybe due to the coldness of the air con).

So I shall conclude that my second honeymoon trip with Rachel is a blissful and sweet one. Lol I sounds so wrong. I’m happy to have such a easy going partner to travel with.

Most important of all, local girls took picture with us just because we are tourist!!! ~~I think we are just too pretty!!~~

Love this trip to the max!

摇啊摇，摇啊摇。。

2011-08-17T17:50:00.000+08:00

我不是女人，
我更加不是男人，
我只是一个活在女人身体里面的男性化灵魂。

我曾经以为，
我这样过得很好，
我就是那么地过着，
也认为我也没不对经的地方。

原来，
我不会当女人。
我没那个女人味，
我也没有女人的逻辑。

你说，
男人跟你拍拖，
根本想跟男人交往，
也不是第一次听到了。

好好反省，
如果跟你讲我想学当女生了，
你应该又要对我说，
咦，你也会酱想啊？

或许，我就该等那个，
会接受这样的我的人，
出现。

或许，
是时候我来学当女人了。
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可是，想一下，
如果我是个不是女人的女人，
那么，
爱上我的男人是什么？
哈！

Hatyai, Thailand

2011-08-12T21:42:00.000+08:00

After around 12 hours ride from Muar Johor, finally I arrive in Hatyai, Thailand through Bukit Kayu Hitam kastam. In between there are so many stops for food and toilet but I'm too drowsy to remember them because I had double dose of drowsiness from motion sickness pills and running nose pills. Lol. I'm so drowsy till a point I remember at one of the stop, Rachel need to hold me when I stand up. Alright I’m not going to post all the photo here cause I had already posted them in Facebook. Click here for more.

Day 1

After arriving at Thailand, of course we have our breakfast which is chicken rice.

You definitely never thought of this kind of advertisement right?

I think pineapple, durian, mango and longan is the 4 most popular fruits currently in this season. And I think they taste so sweet and ripe till diabetes patients are not suitable for any of them.

While waiting for bus, we happened to witness the school level sports day parade. According to the tour guide, its Thailand’s district level sport event. Every club has a different theme. Some even came up with witchery costume. One of the biggest differences between Malaysian and Siamese parade is, Malaysian wearing long pants and shoe but Siamese are in HOT SHORT MINI SKIRT and they walk for miles in HIGH HEELS! Bear in mind they are just secondary school children. Salute!

After some visitation to temples, we finally get to check into hotel. I stayed at Kosit Hotel which cost around RM50 per night. It’s pretty decent and clean.

See their drinking water is not in plastic bottles but in glass bottles with the metal caps! Oh ya so is their Coca-Cola. Seriously I thought glass bottled Coca-Cola had extinct.

Btw look at their I-don’t- know-what-it-call-electric-something. Usually we have a box to put it in and we can replace it with a harder card instead of the key plate. But this hotel’s is put into the wall! And this is a magnetic starter so you can’t use any normal card.

Alright after exploring our room, we didn’t rest as scheduled, we put on our walking shoes and decided to explore the town on our own. Of course the first thing to do is to exchange currency. In Malaysia is RM1 to 9.90baht, but in Thailand you will get RM1 to 9.95baht.

Ok next I will just labeled everything with its price

Doi Chaang Coffee RM4.50 According to Rachel( cause I don’t drink coffee) its taste very thick and as good as Starbucks. They grind the coffee bean on the spot and you can smell the aroma way before you reach the stall.

Banana Cream Pie RM4.50
Yes that whole cream pie is only RM4.50! At first I thought it was per quarter. It doesn’t taste too sweet or too creamy, at the end you might still longed for more!

Ah Guah Show RM50
There is totally different with Muar’s half-done ahguah. They look so freaking pretty! Very sexy figure with thorough trans surgery. Yes they dun have a bulging bottom front and their boobs are perfectly round and firm! But wait till you hear them speak! That’s when the beautiful dream come crushing down. LOL. The biggest joke of the day was when the photographing session, I walk pass the ahgua. Guess what I heard?

“Boss, come~ Do you wan to see my pussy??”

wtf Rachel and I were laughing all the way back. Btw you need to give them tips. I gave RM2 per photo.

Day 2

Dim Sum and Bak Kut Teh
Each plate of dim sum cost RM1.40. One thing I must say is the pork taste better in Thailand! It doesn’t have the smelly pork taste and the meat is fresh! Bak kut teh is around RM9 per share. Btw, they are very generous with their ingredients. So no worries for big eaters with their pocket!

Next we headed off to Songklah. More temples to go.

Royal Pagoda RM3
Its RM3 per entrée. You need to take a lift to reach the middle hill. I think is kinda waste of time. But you get to see both the South china Sea and the beach.

Coconut ice-cream RM3
This can be found anywhere near tourist site. But if you are already here at Royal Pagoda, try it first! It has bread, coconut flesh, atap seed, jelly, coconut flavoured ice cream and some beans. It taste fabulous! It is a Must to try!

More photograhs on tourist sites. We went to to see the dragon, the cat and the mermaid. It’s the second statue of mermaid in the world.

Floating market
Every portion of the food here cost RM2. They have all kinds of kuih muih and drinks.

Look! The have this cute clay cup for drinks, Yes you can bring it back after you pay.

Highlight of the day is we finally got a chance to taste FRIED INSECTs! Frankly I think they taste good! Rachel say grasshopper not bad.
But I think that black beetle is too hard and has a weird taste.
We both thinks that cricket is the best and the worms are just normal.
You should see how other tourist went eeewww… yucks…… when we put them into our mouth. They taste salty and crunchy, that’s all. But when we offer them some, they make a big fuss while putting them into their mouth, but the next second when chewing them, they decided to get themselves another pack! LOL I told ya, it taste good!

*to be continued*

跟你讲。

2011-08-12T17:14:00.002+08:00

这篇是我要唠叨的post，所以你可以不用看。可是我只是针对一个人，别的不要自己对号入桌。

你说，我自己去快乐，没有跟你讲，我觉得我没有必要向你交代我的生活，我的父母是唯一我必须交代的对象。

你说，我说一套做一套，我两三个月没做工没钱，做工了支领了那份微不其道的薪水。那时做工，也不知道几时会辞职，也不能随便休假。所以跟你讲我没时间没钱是事实。

钱哪里来，没有必要跟你讲，我想要跟谁出门，也不须报告。对，就是说你不是我的谁。

你说，我跟朋友去了。我想说，我的生活，朋友名单里，你应该排得不是很高。我的好朋友是不少，可是我都很珍惜它们。我愿意抽空陪他们因为他们都有自己的生活了，只有假期我才能相见相聚。
你可能埋怨我，不想理解我，可是以前那件事我并没有恶意。我只是不能眼睁睁看你把我的朋友放在一个危险的状况。如果你计划的够好，我那几句话是锦上添花。只能说，你太白目。Planning没问题，大家一定on，对吗？

对，假期那时我是答应了你。可是时间上，我们都配合不到。我不想讲，可是是谁酱忙？我们都很忙啊！为什么你只怪我？

我想了一天，考虑了一天，觉得以后的日子还是得见到你，要我做一次planning是没问题的。好！就放下不生气，毕竟去快乐，就是要快乐！我就想办法plan了，因为我自己也想去。我也没对你说什么。

询问了，给你知道了plan的详情，问你想去吗？你说好啊~大家也在安排日子，你竟然才跟我讲钱不够用。天啊！这是世界上最便宜得了吧。。。应该一件 padini tshirt都是它的三倍！

现在这个情况算是我被耍了吧？

我觉得，如果朋友因为我去快乐，而不能替我快乐，我已经没策。。
如今如此，我想说，这是朋友吗？

你或许看了这篇文章，会觉得我这人有那个什么的，可是如果是你，应该你脸黑哭了吧。
我写了也不怕你知道，知道了就算，见面的时候我还是会不当一回事，跟你嘻嘻哈哈。因为日子要过的还很久，跟你相处的日子真的不少。纯粹想让你知道以后不要再这样对我，老娘是有脾气的。

我现在真的很无奈。

sorry but its time for me to say goodbye for the time being.

2011-08-03T15:58:00.000+08:00

Alright, this is not a emo post kay. I just wanna say goodbye to you guys because I'm going for HOLIDAY!!! yahoo~ finally after 3 months break, I'm so desperate to get out of my tiny squading cell, I signed up for a travelling trip to Hatyai, Thailand without much consideration on last friday and I'm leaving tonight!
My sweetie pie Rachel, again is with me, lol. seriously I'm telling you that I'm happy!! lets say, WEEEEEEEE~~~

That day I heard that senior pack for his back pack trip for 2 weeks using half an hour only, but today I found myself chap here chap there, 1 hours plus later only I'm done. Lol forgetful as usual. I'm still considering whether should bring my soft toy along anot. My doggy looks so lonely without me(in fact I think I feel more lonely without it).. awwwww..... *eyes watery now*

lol this is not my dog. my doggy doesnt have watery eyes~~

lol, my typical act innocent face. alright FINE. I know that pug is cuter........

Speaking of the trip, I'm so worry sick that I will stay awake the whole night in the freaking cold bus. I DONT want to stay awake staring at the dark night while Rachel snores and sleep like pig (every one knows she can just fall asleep anywhere anytime = = ) beside me! *OOps* I just told every one that she snores. LOL. Just kidding le. After having problem with sleeping for last week (not even with the help of sinus medication) I double the boost --> motion sickness pills + sinus pills!! I need to sleep kay!! I even told the pharmacist that I want the one which can cause drowsiness the most. *desperate*

Alright folks, Its gonna rain now. I need to take my clothes in. Ciaoz~

我的华语没有几烂，只是觉得成全小我，牺牲大我，没有错。

2011-07-31T19:14:00.003+08:00

忙了这阵子（也没他们忙啦），今天终于把event顺利的举办成功！
突然，觉得这段时间，我喜欢的东西都没去做，乐趣全没了。忙幼稚园的工作，忙event，忙朋友，却忘了忙自己。自己喜欢的那些玩意儿，都搁着。吉他都生灰尘了、钢琴完全没打开、那本书被遗忘，还有跑步的时间通通被占有！
我快乐吗？shopping的确令人振奋！和朋友聚会很开心！
空虚吗？有一点。毕竟没学习。

可是，我却经历了这一辈子好多好多的第一次！
第一次，帮小朋友梳头发。
第一次，用右手教小朋友写字（我是左撇子，小朋友都是右撇子！）
第一次，把小孩抱在怀里。
第一次，喂小孩吃。
第一次，我发觉了小朋友的可爱。
我还实在适应当中，他们的吵与闹，还是会让我头疼，想把他们一个一个掐死，可是 I already got attached to them. 不舍得了。可以说，这一次的挑战，让我在第二个礼拜，就想give up了。为了责任，我死都撑下去，没想到，竟然被我overcome, 还让我依依不舍。应该下个月，我会很开心吧，有钱赚又有sense of accomplishment!还有，我忍不住开始捉弄小朋友们，太好笑了！他们很天真也~

第一次，写华语会议报告
第一次，出去跟商家筹钱。（以前我不是interact club的，那个是浪费父母的金钱）
第一次，开会开到晚上12点！
第一次，用到我的laptop的dvd writer。
第一次，email很active。
第一次，觉得华语TMD难，新闻稿都写不出！
我有很好的副秘书，对！我是秘书，不要笑！我真的做manderin speaking society的秘书。还好很多工，副秘书都帮我做了，太感激她！！有点被我欺负。我好像是monster酱，去到那里都有victim。

这群人很棒！真的很棒！boss很负责任，N.G. 变hyperactive，， XC越来越u mall（这也是她教我的)， cheer很可爱，joanne很开朗，ahfun不搞笑不行，xuanyet飘来飘去，arthur绯闻多，sky莫名其妙可是又有point，GANweekiat 干来干去，alex很废，还有aikchuan对八九敏感!!

好了不写了。我要去看书，chillax a bit, enjoy my cool afternnon inside the aircon room, perhaps with some durian.. awwww.... I think this moment is perfect.

Next month, August.
Happiness is with me. Happy things are going to happen and I'm part of it.

Oh, Its as pinkish as my cheek!

2011-07-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

It had been so time ever since I started to ponder upon this issue, something keep makes me wondering, did I ever really grew up? I know it must be ridiculous to ask this but at times I really find myself kinda childish and even though I am already 21, I'm still a kid in a overgrown size body.

You know, I really got a thing for soft toys. Yea ranging from teddy bears to dogs. I cant leave them alone whenever I sees them. I will keep patting them, enjoying the soft fur. Oh my goodness! I just loves them!! Even today a 4 years old boy went to kinddie with his soft toy, I enjoy it as much as his does! Alright I even try told him not to play with it when teacher is teaching, and I will keep it for him! For what reason? Duh so that I can play with it too!!

its so cute isn't it??

Even in shopping centres, I love those shops that sells soft toys. so freaking cute and adorable!! I wish I can live in soft toy wonderland.
Other than that, I love toys too! See? I'm a kid! Till now I still keeps my toy from childhood, some of them. I remember, 2 years ago, when my mom gave away my toys without telling me, I cried like mad! I was so angry and pissed off!! I even demanded my parents to take back my toys! yea I was 19 and I was acting like a baby. And few weeks ago, a friend of mine gave me a present. Yea its McD's toy! I was over the clouds. Its a whole set of Kungfu Panda series..

Awww.. look at that, how can I not to be happy?

I cant believe it. Receiving toys at this age still makes me so thrilled and cant stop smilling. Cakes and Chocs make the wonders too!! Whenever somebody gave me choc out of nowhere, I enjoyed it. Its just fabulous!!

Another thing, I'm really scare of pain! Any type of pain. The thing that I hate most is somebody ticks me or pinch me! Urgh that pain is so annoying! That day i nearly lose my temper at a little kid who pinch me while holding my hand. ( see I was bullied by kids kay in kinddie). And I cry at the slightest pain, tears will just roll without any control. Argh its so embarassing huh. Lol guess what I will do if somebody causes me pain? I will bite back. Yes I bite without any hestitation. What a disgusting reaction. Again, I seriously thinks that i'm a kid.

Do you know kids will throw tantrum when they are sleepy or hungry? Me too!! Can never ever get rid of this bad behaviour even too this age! I will be so pissed off when anybody disturb my sleep. I guess my friends are kinda pity cause I'm a person who needs 8 hours sleep every night and will be irritated if I do not get enough sleep.

I wish I will grow up soon!! hahaha.. I really meant it!

懒懒散散。

2011-07-18T00:02:00.001+08:00

女人，相信我，花钱买东西的感觉，跟拥有好皮肤是一样令人开心的。
憋了酱久，我终于放肆自己，出出力去买东西了。
可是本人购物还是仍然有自己的本则，就是一定要物有所值，还要是削价后的，然后最重要就是不看品牌，只看剪裁、布质与舒适度！
可是。。。可是。。。现在megasales！！根本每个地方都在拼命的削价！！！MNG的jeans只剩RM79，有不买的原因吗? 哈哈。。要不是我的卡一直出问题，有些店不能刷，害我得用现金，可能昨天会花更多！
买东西吃东西买东西吃东西！酱的假期最开心了！！
话说回来，我还是第一次跟枪小姐出门吧，有约会的感觉！可是问题是我们俩太爱讲话了，俩人一直讲，讲到口水干，还在讲。。。就一直讲。。讲了又讲。。。讲到回家。。。

全天就只拍到这一张合照，太顾着shopping了啦！！还我们回家的路途上，一直槌心肝，以自为没拍到照感到心疼！！不用紧，下次才拍！！

这是乘枪小姐在更衣的时候，我自己先来自拍一下。。哈哈。。这套衣服是昨天买的，买了就现场穿！疯了！！剪掉牌子还钱就直接穿。。迫不期待，因为原先穿去的裙子太令人不舒服了！

可爱吧？？粉红色的太阳眼镜！！其实上次跟她们去的时候就看过了。。可是就没买，回家后一直一直的想念它。。枪小姐就买了下来送给我！太爱她了！！！谢谢你！！！

买了裤子衣服很开心~~

开心会让人看起来特别美丽吗？？因该是这样。。最近人变得开心了，就常常听到人家称赞我。。让我很开心。。哈哈哈。。。超级自恋的！就今天啊日，我在调吉他的时候，（我只是穿了牛仔裤加衬衫），就听到有两个aunty在讲话，一个是我的伯母。。那个aunty就讲，你的侄女每次回越变越漂亮。。哇，我在远远都听到，讲到酱大声。。。我听了超爽的！！哈哈哈。。然后那个aunty就跟我讲我很elegent。。哈哈哈。。爽吧。。。

好就这样。。再见！

来。看一下。我也在。

2011-07-15T20:13:00.000+08:00

他说，我违反了游戏的规则。玩得太不像样了。
我跟他说，我背着你玩的，你大概还不知道吧。

心事重重，满腹地忧愁，那不是我。
我还希望现在生活能再有点味道，好像伤风，没味觉。
其实我可以，五彩缤纷的活着，但是懒惰。
要忙吗？好像很多东西都搁着了。

现在来写new year resolution会不会太迟了？
或许holiday resolution 还来得及吧？
写归写，行动还是要快。剩六个礼拜。
减肥好像还可以。对，我圆了。

想念你的美，想念你的味道，想念你的同在。
如果说，爱从眼睛开始，我的心已有你的位子。
你被取代，好像挺难的，看着你，我心虚了。
说我不动心，骗你。
忘了那个痛，可是你已不属于我。

我在自甘堕落。
但是，伤在复原，结疤。
下一个春天，我等你。

Its 4.39am

2011-06-20T05:40:00.000+08:00

yea I know, Eliza Tan is well known for her Sleep-Alot-Freak, who goes cuckoo if she doesnt get enough sleep. But what am I doing at this hour?? Thanks to the nap I had at 7p.m. just now, I only get to be awake at 1a.m.. What was I thinking huh? Its supposed to be a nap, which means a forty winks. But in the context of Eliza's dictionary,

a extreme short nap = 1 hour

a short nap = 2 hours

a happy nap = 3 hours

a satisfying nap = 4 hours

So a 5 hours sleep, left me brightly awake at this hour. And you know, silenced night like this, oops its silenced morning like this, its the best time use internet in Malaysia!! Say Cheers!! *high five*

I'm hungry. Seriously I'm very hungry now. Thanks to the act-like-a-dustin day yesterday, i had diarrhoe for this beautiful sunday. I had to even ffk songleader for not being his pianist. Look at my menu:

Soup + shells

twisties chip + choc + black sesame snack

char kueh tiow

french fries + strawberry milk shake

yea thats all I have for a day, but its totally a disaster for me the next day.

Its a non stop snapping night for me whenever I hang out with my babes!

Patty posing for me

Irene with her apparatus

her "beer"

angie unwilling to pose for the camera

serious face

oops!!!!!

nah! a decent 1.

posing for patty

don't you think we looks alike??

"beer" and "beer"

alright this is another night.

ready and pose!

they looks like they wanna fight any moment!

finally a pic with angie.

cheryl posing while i act like so pro.

her eyes are popping out!!

tada!! plaits are so nice!!

i also did mine!

hahahahaaha... next..... you can just skip or else you gonna puke!!!

give you a nice one first

gold fish face

smirk face

sneer face

lastly... the paling menyampar one.......

act innocent

alright thats all ciaoz!!!

Quietness

2011-06-18T18:32:00.000+08:00

In the middle of night, I thought of you more often that any one else. I'm deeply burdened by the sight of you. It could not be any worst than now. First time in my life, I see emptiness in you.

This is my Prayer for you.

Oh Lord, thank you for being the guide in our lives,

thank you for leading us,

thank you for opening doors for our future,

thank you for being our provider of

love, care, food, even safety day in and out,

I pray O lord,

give us wisdom,

so that we can speak wisely,

so that we can make decision according to your will,

so that we can choose the right way,

give us a humble heart,

so that we will come to your feet and surrender

so that we will be your humble servant

so that we will serve you whole heartedly

give us patience,

so that anger do not grow

so that we can tolerate each other's fault

so that we can teach each other

give us love,

so that we see each other as family

so that we forgive those who had hurt us

so that we will unite as one

Lord I pray,

You are the almighty God,

that had lead us without fail,

even at this critical time,

Lord You had not abandon us.

Lord You be our sherpard,

lead the lost ones back to your arm,

teach the arrogant to be humble

heal the heart of the hurt ones

Lord give them the burden

to light up for you

to be revived in you

to grow in you.

in Jesus name I pray,

Amen.

To be frank, I say, I cant hear you.

2011-06-17T00:11:00.000+08:00

I knew it aint fair to say this now, but this is my equal share and right at least to grumble to my own tiny little teddy bear.. all right its not that tiny, its small...perhaps medium..

The urge to seek for excitement is killing me day and night. I must be crazy to demand such ridicuous request from you honey. Thank goodness we are mutual and convenient. Hee. Its love yet its not right. Ah I'm in it again. Requirements fulfiled and perfect match. Too bad not the time yet. Random at the same time it is comforting to know that you had my back. I know we are at the best state that we can, Chinese proverb quoted, In thy time, perfect condition, flawless support. I think time is the biggest hindrance. But worst of all, the sparks din't go off as I thought it would. So thats it honey.

Such intense emotion that overwhelmed me as I try to dig my way through the bushes. Oh my.... I think thats called young people. Seriously I'm at lost. Oh God, please give me the wisdom. One hand cant clap and makes sounds. So true. One sided story is the killer. I say, cant you just be more mature? I guess it takes time to grow. I wish I can just leave you all alone. You know what? perhaps I should do that, and let you guys to solve it. Maybe i'm had interfered too much and you had not grow.

Anyway its nice to see you all again. Again we gathered but this is a cheek lifting event. Ah its gonna flood. Dilemma as i ponder on the choice to go or just stay hidden, both caught me in the middle. Delightful reunions lighten up my heart, gave me the warm that I longed for since then. Hey, its nice spending time with you all, you blew my sadness away and pop the bubbles of emoness like the balloons burst.

I love myself. thats a spoonful of self-confidence and a scoop of high self esteem.

Blue, Red, Green, Yellow.........

2011-06-02T14:02:00.000+08:00

Colours are in the air
Feeling monotone day in and out
Smiles vanish as Pout takes its place
This is emoness.

我说，how can this be??
The place you found in my heart
I thought the root went as deep as it can
Oh, its just fibrous root.

那天，I thought it will rain heavily
All I did was just being glum.
No fluid ran through my face
Life goes on.

无奈, it happens now and then
she said, 卡在那里
不能向前，也不能退后
I think I agreed.

Silenced, best solution
Its gave me strength
Just as light shone in
As calm as the pond water

Alternatives, choose one only
Gaining the losing of matter
You know Simultaneous Equation?
Happens all night long.

You are my obsession of possession.

Baaaaahhhhh~~ thats its a sheep...

2011-05-28T22:37:00.000+08:00

Its not a sheep.. its just a lazy bum yawn after been lazing on her bed for a few days watching korean drama. this is one of the recent one that I like very much.. OMG Kim Tae- Hee is so freaking cute, pretty gorgeous and irresistable!!!!!

look at her smile!! its just simply stunning!!!

smoky hot Kim Tae-Hee

so wild and spicy!!

so this is the korean drama I been watching. My Princess

Lee-Sul (Kim Tae-Hee) is a woman who enters college later than other girls. Like her peers, they dream of one day becoming a princess, but for Lee-Sul she actually becomes a real life princess ...

Hae-Young (Song Seung-Heon) is a 31-year-old diplomat. He is the sole successor of the Daehan Jonghap Group (the largest conglomerate in Korea). Hae-Young is also handsome and graduated from an Ivy League school. Agreeing to his grandfather`s creed, Park Hae-Young decides to give up his rights to the company and all of his assets. This is all for a young woman named Lee-Sul.

Lee-Sul is a 25-year-old college student, majoring in Art History. She doesn't think about the secrets surrounding her birth or her stepsister who teased her behind her back. Lee-Sul keeps a shabby appearance and works several part time jobs on top of her college career. She also has a crush on her professor Nam Jung-Woo (Ryu Su-Yeong). One day, Lee-Sul becomes a princess overnight. In order to make her a princess, the President of the Daehan Jonghap Group offers all of his assets. 50,000,000 people stamp their approvals for her and royal families from all over the world sends congratulatory telegrams. Lee-Sul accepts the role of Princess, but she is now locked up in her palace and forced to study from dawn to late at night. Even worse, Park Hae-Young is her only instructor and he is snooty.

Yoon-Joo (Park Ye-Jin) is a 30-year-old woman, who works as the director of Hae-Young Museum. Her father is the secretary for the President of the Daehan Jong Group. Yoon-Joo hopes to marry Park Hae-Young one day to gain control over the company. Her plans come to a halt when the Princess suddenly appears. For the Princess, the President of the Daehan Jonghap Group returns all of his property to the community. Even Hae-Youngs begins to have favorable feelings for Lee-Sul. Yoon-Joo can't forgive Lee-Sul for what she has caused. Yoon-Jo then makes a plan and if it succeeds Korea will lose their imperial family.

Jung-Woo (Ryu Su-Yeong) is a professor, archeologist and holds a PH.D in the Arts. He is also popular among the female students. Jung-Woo grew up in a poor family. Even now with his high status, his financial situation isn't so good. Because of this, Jung-Woo hasn't proposed to his girlfriend Yoon-Joo. One day, something strange happens. Jung-Woo's student Lee-Sul (who always submits papers late, but works hard at excavation sites) turns out to be a princess. Lee-Sul then asks Jung-Woo to become an advisor for the "Redemption Committee of Imperial Family Cultural Assets".

another stunning photo of her.. I just cant resist looking at her. look at her wonderful complexion.

wonderful pair. They should really get together. their babies will be wonderful.

awww....

he is............. is..........

so what korean man are MCP? as long as they are hot like this....

huhuhu..... *saliva dripping...*

就这样，就过了三年

2011-05-27T18:44:00.000+08:00

没三年啦，三个礼拜而已。
其实就想总结自己的心情一下。我想再也没有人能快过我，回来麻坡的第二天就去见agent，第三点就上班。就是那种promoter的工，拜六礼拜才上班，剩的日子在家腐烂看连续剧，睡觉。钱好赚，但是工有点闷，成天站在那儿，看手表，等待时间过去！我说，叫一个大学生干这种活也太看小咱们的智商了吧（是你自己去找这份工的嘞，明明你不争气，还讲人！）

就这几天，当了饮品的promoter，见识了人类的种种。。

Case1：
客人1：小姐，这种XXX喝了不好的嘞，听说会中心脏病。。。
我：不会拉，喝少少不会的，是人家喝太多，好有其他因数的啦。。
客人1：是吗？不是还有肾病的可能性吗啊？
开始敷衍他。。。。。
我：来泡好了，尝一下，
客人1：哎哟，小姐放多一点嘛，酱那里有味道。。。
冒冷汗。。。。你不是讲会中心脏病肾病吗。。。。

Case2：
我：来尝一下。。
客人2：怎么没味道。。。
我：：会吗？
其实通常我只听到过人家讲有一点甜
客人2：你加了XXX都没味道，没特别香。。
不想理他了。。。。
我：平时有喝过XXX吗？
客人2: 有啊，我都是一杯放两包，水还要少一点，像你酱放，没味道的啦。。。我咖啡美禄都要放两包的。。
你最好啦，不要买还要hiam东hiam西。。。明明就你的饮食习惯偏重口味。。最好酱喝下去，等下不止饮品公司赚你的钱，医院寿板店都提早跟你收单！

Case3：
我在泡水，突然看到一个小孩的手，从counter旁边伸上来，偷偷拿了了一杯，就跑掉。。我来不及讲，还没加XXX，那杯东西会很苦嘞。。。。

Case4：
别的品牌的promoter：小姐你的倒来喝一下了。。
明明你自己也在买咖啡，干吗来喝我的。。。

其实就还很多奇怪的人类，有些人就一直跟我将它多厉害泡咖啡。。。天啊！！！我又不是举行泡咖啡比赛。。有些人就是想占便宜，免费的，不喝白不喝的道理。。。喝了还一副心虚的模样，偷笑偷笑地走开。。酱还好，够力一点的，当我是他家的女佣，小姐倒一杯给我，我走到渴了。。

可是做工的好处就是时间快过，有钱赚！！开心开心！！！而且工作的日子也是我微笑最多的一天。。脸都酸了。。但是被人称赞笑容甜美的时候，心里挺爽的。。（自恋病发作了）

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在家里，腐烂着。。。
天天我与电脑钢琴手机，电脑钢琴手机与我。。。
还好朋友都回来了，回去的也回去了。。。limteh是我唯一的乐趣。。。

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最进竟然都看到朋友在自己的blog征聘男友。。哈哈。。。
看来我因该开婚姻介绍所，搞联谊，媒人的那个玩意儿。。。
开什么玩笑，他们都是“钱”途一片光明的。。。一个是architech，另一个engineering...
难道说，女人赚越多钱，越难找男朋友吗？？话说回来，老处女都是怪怪的。。以前学校里的那些老处女老师。。。脾气都怪到不行。。。
男人，你们的好品种，都到哪里去了？？

本人也单身。。。有意者，联络我吧。。 lol。。。

来得太快去得也快，我不等你了。

2011-05-12T10:37:00.000+08:00

不懂想写些什么，有点无理取闹，想写就想写，可是一点概念都没有。有点像考试那样，出出力逼自己写，太不像话了。

麻坡下雨了，怎样？我现在就是很想炫耀。。麻坡下雨了。。哈哈哈哈。。真的觉得很爽，第一次这个月睡觉不必睡得满头大汗，起来时，外面的街道是湿湿的，花草树木看起来特别可爱，绿绿很有弹性的那种。。

写不出了。。。。。。宣告失败。。。。

Goodies Good Besties

2011-05-10T16:34:00.000+08:00

There today I gonna list down some of my freaking good friends since I can remember from childhood. these gonna include some childhood playmates, primary school friends and the list goes on till my current university life. Those I listed down really mean something to me or at least you are part of my memory. And if you are not in my list, sorry I blame my own lousy memory that I really too forgetful. Some I already stop contacting with them, lol I also dont know why. but you are always part of sweet memory.

The expandables: Angie, Patty, Cheryl, Leeching, Liern, Irene (crazy bunch of girls who like to shopping shopping shopping!!!! very cherished besties)

Secondary school friends:
XC (hmmm.... XC is XC la..)

Rachel (my barbie doll),

Joyce(nerdiest friend),

Chyun In( arhh you... those memories of having breakfast every morning together, baked beans and rice!),

lol this pic is really an antique now.. find so long and this is the only pic I found

Siufun( your blog...... memorable)

this pic, when i put it as my profile pic, most of the ppl stil thought is me! wth??? lol...

Mindy (lol.. bising banyak)

paiseh ya, cant find our pic, so took your pretty profile pic to show off..

Liwei (lol almost left her out)

besties! love her alot...

Jee lin (merely study together for a year, but i always remember her)

paiseh ar this 1 also steal from her fb..

actually the list for secondary school still goes on.. but I kinda lazy to recall back now..

so here it goes to my primary friend.

Teng heong (of course how can I not putting her first??)

Khoon Kwee ( a man with a girl inside him actually lol, thoughtful guy)

omg we never took picture together before!! so i steal this fella's pic from his profile pic too.. yan dao le...

Next up are friends from church
Jared (the most chidish fella who always be as chidish as me)

Caroline (crazy devil)

can I just list everybody down in church??? from Joash, Jacinth, Jemima, to Kevin, Lydia, Timothy, Joshua and Justin, not leaving out Lenora and Ening of course.. and that two fella Jason and Edwin!!

we were so freaking young..

Here is my childhood friend

Yi Chan, know him since we were still sucking from the milk bottle..

told ya we were really very young.. we both look so cute!!! haha.. look so glum too wonder why.. i bet it wasnt time for opening the xmas present yet?? lol..

Then this is Marcus (I think I dun have describe much, you know who he is, very annoying fella)

still good friend here, not forget to mention, he is very kaypo!! lol

k i'm tired to continue looking for pictures... lol...

Last to go my uni frens

Kelly CJ and nerdy Evan

I think we should call ourself the noisy 4.. lol...

and dear ssc chinese

k la k la.. thats all for now.. lazy to upload photo dy...

thanks for being my friend.

Grey Love

2011-05-01T10:29:00.000+08:00

As I took a glimpse of one of my pal's thoughts, I pondered upon my own heart beat and eavesdrop on it. It had been a while since I took a sip of lemonade and sunbasking under the summer sun. Literally I had been a Phantom living for Christine, praying that she will not abscond from my theater of opera. As much as a phantom, I breathe and stay anonymously in her teritory. The day had come and Repunzel decided to meet her prince behind her stepmother back. Ironically I was the one to get hurt. Oh Repunzel, I heart thou more then my soul.
As my pal pen down her own tweet, its just gave my heart a seizure and my brain went paralysed. She had move on eventhough it breaks her heart to do so. Please someone, tinker the bell in my mind. But not only tinker, a nuclear bomb was sent, yet I'm still a dog chasing my own tail. Circled without preseverance. O silly, thou shall not eat the apple in the first place.
It takes ages to heal a wound on my skin, as I have hyperactive immune system, they often went overboard in attacking those antigens. So do the engine of my flesh. It ain't about pride nor dignity since then, its just about the rythme of yours and mine. As it stop synchronizing, thats the end of my piece of melody.

Holidays!

2011-04-24T10:50:00.000+08:00

Frankly say, Holiday season is boiling in my blood now!! I need a holiday plan!! of course I need money at the same time.so freaking wtf. So this means that the coming 4 months I still need to work to earn enough money for my new piano and holiday expenses!! Ya before I forget, my parents had gave me the green light to get a digital piano.. woo hoo! i'm seriously excited abut it and willing to work my ass off for it!

However, i'm dying to travel at this moment. Throughout last year, I only had been to a few places, Kuantan, Pulau Lang Tengah, Tasik Kenyir, Cameron and Singapore. Urgh.. and stupid Melacca... lol..Seriously there are so many places on my list which I really want to go, but yet haven been there since ages ago. Some of them, KL, Genting and P.Pinang.. Overseas plan would have to delay to next year sem break for now.

So babes, my dear expandables, are you girls still on?? all of you are the most troublesome friend to jio.. hahaha... paling susah la... semua orang ni orang sibuk.. takda free time... faster set a date!!

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when only I get to go???

我说, 你是不是应该。。。。。

2011-04-19T14:41:00.002+08:00

还没写就upload照片，纯粹想要跟你讲，我是无辜的，跟照片里的那个家伙一样无故。本文章没有影射任何人，个人意见啦！个人意见啦！

就这样，事情越闹越烈，还常常看得到火花。身为旁观者，其实我应该静静看就好，这个post我其实也写了很久，就放着没有publish出来。有点忍不住了吧！很奇怪的人，奇怪得让我很想把他的头扒开，用针在他的脑里插上几针，看他的神经是不是真的都错乱了。。。

或许，你一直坚持的原则，对你来讲是没什么大不了，可是在他人眼中是有点愚昧。。。
一个人的不认同，或许是个性上的不同，而造成意见分支；
两个人到一组人的看不懂，或许是文化上的差异：
但是全体都排斥，明显的大概是你真的有问题了，要不然就只能怪命运，上辈子你可能是个连环强奸犯，都把他们的女儿强奸了。

生活上的小细节，如果你都已经感觉到明显的差异，你就只剩下两个选择:
第一个，继续犯贱，过自己的生活，不要理睬他人的眼光，或许你活过得挺愉快，因为那是你的本性。
第二个，定下来检讨一下你自己，你想融入人群，过着群体的生活，就需要所谓的adapt and apply吧，为什么你生活的rules不能让人感到舒服呢？多多反省吧。。

当你选择了前者，就要敢敢来。你看过punk文化的人，只剃掉一边的头发，把中间的一半梳了站起来，另外一半，斯斯文文的一个书呆头？？还是你全身都穿着名牌，却脚上顶着ahpek的人字拖？既然你不想放弃你的方式，又何必在人面前装在意？有很多可以写心情的地方，尤其facebook,但是又很公开，你就不要在那边写有的没的，博取人家的同情与注意，明明就不想改变自己，何必post那些。人家看了，都dong buey diao你，又或者人家会很没给你面子，直接指出你不能令人接受的地方。说真的，如果你真的不懂，又哪会写出那种post。

开窍了，选了第二，就要把住机会。人不会残忍到哪里去，多少还是给你改过的机会。就要快快抓紧，不要当白痴。知道人家都有点不爽你了，是你想要跟人家好，就改一改自己，好去融入他们。（觉得没意思，就去选第一个吧！！你开心就好，不要有的没的，又来装可怜。）说实话，时间久了，人家真的会把你当透明了，不再给你机会，也不理你了。到时你想咸鱼翻生，也没办法，因为已经被人家当做调味，拿去炒nasi goreng ikan masin, 我的最爱！

女生之间，不能接受的东东西有很多，个性乔，只有男性爱你，女性会看不过去，尤其是出轨。毕竟你像个妓女酱，到处跟人家乱搞，爽的是你和另一半，有原配的就可怜；
男生之间，重色轻友，万万不能！！男人最在意义气这件事了。大概，男人的脑子里，女人还是配角，不然就是交配对象，不可因为女人而破坏感情！

当然如果你的无奈，跟他们一样可爱，我也没话讲，应该没有人会讨厌你了吧！

是我看不起你，还是我患了妄想症？

2011-04-10T11:07:00.000+08:00

好我回来了！一阵子不博客，感觉挺逊的。。我会好好调整自己，展望未来。。怎么讲得怪怪的。。。
K la I prefer to use english actually, caused my chinese is deteriorating like nobody's business. Come on mates speak to me in chinese please!!
Finishing my 2nd sem soon in less then 1 month time, which means that final examination is around the corner in fact.
First year of my university life gone. Lets be silence for 3 minutes to grieve for its departure. *silence*
K lets talk again. Lol ya I'm mad. Yeah I apprecated my 1st year very much, pretty fun and plenty of stuff going on and on. And I gotta wait for another long 4 months break before i can get to this holy hell shit place.lol..
Speaking of coming sem break, its a freaking long break that I have totally no plan for it. I guessed it would be all about money again. I would love to have a relaxing holiday with my babes, seriously it had been a long long time since that I spend some decent time with them. Somehow I wondering when that dream of mine can be fulfilled when all of they are so freaking busy!
Part time job are nuisance, I need money but I'm lazy! urgh.. And I want to learn piano but working means I will no have time for it. Dilemma!! arhhh.....
Anyway I gotta be ready for final exam 1st. This sem I tried something crazy, which was I took my test without studying at all. All that I can say is I ain't genius!! FML..
Study mood is on and i needa ciaoz now...

p/s:我没看不起你，因为我也跟你一样，自甘堕落！

this is it.

2011-02-15T01:28:00.002+08:00

hey guys I will stop blogging over here for the time being. Quit blogging till I'm done with it. byes.

我喜欢kam东西。

2011-01-10T22:48:00.000+08:00

Errrrr听起来有点猥亵，但是我是个天真的姑娘，真的我只是单纯得喜欢把东西放进嘴里kam一下。就像汤匙，手指，就算是杯，我也喜欢kam。。就是看到还有一点也kam！好像今天泡milo酱，有点粉粘在包装上（应为粉遇到热气，湿掉了），我就kam一下，感觉挺好的。。还有吃东西用到手，我也喜欢kam一下。。不知道kfc要不要请我当代言人？？想钱想疯了。。讲到kfc不懂有没有人想要吃？我想很久了。。每次有机会吃的时候，就被朋友反对！你们常吃，我不常吃嘛。。但是减肥也不应该吃炸的。。

话说回来，开学了，新年新希望新期待新感觉！操，功课超多，又是我看不会的physical chem, 哎要用功了。errr organic 看起来也是很麻烦一下，变东变西的，CNNND。。大家看起来都很忙。。有camp有fac night，但是我都不去。自作孽！才来这里hiam当hiam赛。。complain生活没乐趣！没乐趣就学人家一天update几个post，还update status来flood我的newsfeed。。哈！我没有讲是你！别自己fit进来。。

还有，我每天都罢吃！就是所谓的hunger strike啦。。mogok mogok!!搞到西街小姐也学我搞mogok！害到颗粒小姐没人陪她吃饭。。人家没钱买新年衣。就要穿旧衣，可是好像肥了很多。。恐怕塞不进去谓。。但是我又不要买新衣！！浪费浪费！！只能过到初三，初四就回来了。。没乐趣！！

我发觉到我有点极端，看橱里的衣服都很dull。。不是黑就灰，不然就来个褐色。。鲜艳的好像没几件。但是在宿舍的就还好。。果然人真的不可judge他的外表，是可以变来变去的。。
跟我看到的人也是一样，变来变去，在这个人面前就变这样，在那个人面前就便那样，变到我看到头晕晕。。。重点受害者好像也会变。。还是他太傻。。看不出人在变。。不过也不关我的事，就让他去吧。。

好哟
就说点最近八卦，我想闹分手！！那个禮蘭越来越不像话！！不讲了。。憋！

For you, my precious one.

2011-01-04T13:12:00.001+08:00

Sorry dear for not listening to you, I know I must had disappointed you if you knew about what I had done last summer. I'm sorry. I choose to stay in my dreams even though I knew it isn't reality. But Hurts and Pains aint hot and sexayy anymore. I rather be numb by my own silly and irrationality for once. Thanks for being there and listened to my craps. I will get over it when I'm ready. Perhaps you might judge me and disapprove of my behaviour, but then again, I promised you I will get over it when the time is right. You might say this is running away and asked me stop being a coward, sorry dear, not now. I love you and you will always in my heart. I might had to leave you for some time but i swear nothing gonna change my love for you. And I wanna tell you that my world is wonderful with you.

Threads of thoughts

2011-01-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

dear Dear,
                 I have decided to stop telling you that I miss you till I stop missing you. New year new resolution, thats part of it.

                                                                                                                   Love,
                                                                                                                   Heart of mine

晴天

2010-12-29T13:15:00.001+08:00

我终不能一直在原地兜圈圈吧。。。
期待逛街，看电影，甚至是购物，就算是日常用品。。
熟悉的走廊，电影院，就连公共厕所。。
我不再兜圈圈了。。

Just an Unexpected Event

2010-12-28T02:28:00.000+08:00

A few hours ago, Jason gave me a buzz and off we went to melacca with jun haw. I still accepted his invitation even though that I'm going to melacca tomorrow morning. So we had our dinner and movie. Interestingly Jason brought us for a makan angin in melacca town! ~~Oh My freaking Holy Cow Shit!!~~ I was such a Superb Noob!! I always thought that Melacca town is all about Mahkota Parade and Dataran Pahlawan!! Mahkota Dataran Mahkota dataran mahkota dataran mahkota dataran mahkota dataran mahkota dataran... errr jonker perhaps but not my cup of tea.. oh ya.. and Aeon Jusco near the bus terminal..

He drove us to the other part of town ~~which is like a few streets away only,~~ and there I go

WOW~~WAH~~~LOOK AT THAT BUILDING~~ CAN WE STOP AND TAKE A PICTURE...

And Jason goes

JUN HAW LOOK AT YOUR SUA GU FRIEND BEHIND~~~

SHE HAVEN CLOSE HER JAWS YET~~

ok seriously I thinks that I'm a noob! For I have totally no idea about the awesome thing ~~just a few streets away from mahkota dataran~~. WTF..those very nice very nice old old building.. and those tiny Chinese superstitious cravings on the wall.. and those myth creatures!! And do you know why Chinese like to paint their roof red?? According to Jasonpedia, Chinese believes that (in the olden days they don't have that truck that goes EEEOOO EEEEOOOO, the fire engine) and fire wouldn't burn their house because red flames do not burn the same colour.wtf.

I'm a ABSOLUTELY OUTRAGES FREAKING NOOB!!

p/s: Now I have more reasons to go melacca.. *winks*

heyyo!!

2010-12-28T01:41:00.001+08:00

Ok now I had been telling myself that I shouldn't add anymore emo post to my collection, no more emo emo stuff that can make my readers felt depressed and worst making myself felt the same thing too.

So yesterday I tried to blog about life, sounds pretty ok to me myself. And today, while i staring at the screen looking for some inspiration to blog ~~oki admit that I'm just too free~~, I realised all the thoughts that I have is all so emo! oh wtf! So i don't care now! I gonna blog about my emo emo thing and you just shut up about. After all its my blog isnt in?? Memang blog is meant to be expressive and its normal for girls to be emo right, at least once a month.

You know what, recently I had discussed this topic with my friend, a girl of course, we reached to the conclusion that indeed girls do emo at least once a month, and sad to say, we experienced the same thing. SOBS!!!! I once doesn't believe in this and told myself that emotions can be control and affected by daily activities but not THE BIG M. And now sad to say, Yes Big M can affect my feeling too! GrrrrrRRRRRR back off k!! PMS is always bad for other people!

Back to my topic of emo-ness, i finding my life serious sucks for just beiing at home everyday. I cant stand loneliness man! I need activities to keep me busy. Yes busy! Yet I'm a noob that have a weak mind and body. urgh.. I hate it when i lost my determination and consistency of passion for stuff in my life.

seriously I think that i'm shallow at times when I'm bothered by what hairstyle I should have. Since we are at this topic, hehe.. any recommendation?
remeber once i still had my black hair?

its way way shorter then

then it became longer..

it took some time to grow..

then it became long and straight

then i went to perm it!! now its loose and wavy..

alright I know that pretty much of camwhoring. but my hair take ages to grow, its like 2-3 inches for half a year. wtf. so I'm thinking of going way back to short hair again now.. ok thats Vainity..

And shopping! I need some shopping to ease my heart. Shit i'm becoming those Typical Vain Pot! I want to shop! I want a new camera, mine was broken like 2 years ago. Saw my friend's ..errrr XC's.. its pretty cool with the dual view.

Samsung Dualview ST600 or ST100
The ST600 and ST100 both feature a 14.2 Megapixel sensor, dual image stabilization (optical + digital), ISO up to 3200, Smart Auto mode, Smart Face Recognition, Smart Gesture UI , One Touch Shooting, Beauty Shot and built-in image editing function. The ST600 comes with a 27mm wide angle lens with 5x optical zoom while the ST100 gets an internal lens with 5x optical zoom

Anyway I just want a camera.. I had stop taking pictures and now I cant take picture nicely anymore. errr you know lah angle lah lighting lah all counts for a nice picture!

So anybody wants to give me a late christmas present??? or even New Year pressie???

Speaking of shallowness.. I have almost quit the habit of reading recently.. so any book for recommendation???

Btw I'm sooooooo looking forward for a trip to melacca!! Tomorrow please come faster!!

Rotting Away

2010-12-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, i'm still here rotting off myself in Muar. Well eventhough my life was pretty busy but I guessed sleeping took half of my days in muar.
As I had recover from my Trinity of Flu(yeah thats what my friend called it, the Cough, Running nose and last but not least Fever)wtf.. There is this dizzy spells going on everyday. Its like having car sick all day long and feel like puking after you have your stomach full. This really sucks and the only way to get away from this dizzy thing is to sleep. so I spent day as usual, busy in and out for christmas in church, meeting up with freaking old friends like Mr Jason and Mr kevin, and of course my ex classmates.. hmmm.. I miss my monkey friend! lol.. then rest of the time I sleep. Yes I slept early every night and stil nap in the afternoon. I almost becoming a real pig. Thanks to this dizziness, I missed my caroling with the church team, I cant drive to Melacca to have fun, at least shopping huh.. I almost thought I'm pregnant, wtf, where I dont even have a boyfriend now. And worst, after the celebration in church, that night I woke up at 4am in the middle of night and vomited all my dinner out twice, and went back to sleep after brushing my teeth again. Next day nothing happen as though the incident was just dream. My body is getting out of my Control!! GRRRRRrrrrrrrrr.....

well I shall upload some pictures of us after celebration, we went to moli to have a drink.

thats Jared with me.. Yeah wonderful friend in youth..

Justin, craziest kiddo.. One thing good about him, is he always let me bully him..

Jie mui in church, my crazy partner!

ening is pretty quiet and decent, so i gonna leave her out on "crazy" this term!

this is the only christmas tree I saw on christmas, well of course since I only went to church and Moli

all of us I'm sure we had our blessed christmas, well not to forget actually is actually Jesus birthday!!

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday to Jesus

Happy birthday to You!!

I wondered how you spent your christmas instead??? I miss you dearly.. but as I had promised myself, I will stay happy all the time.. I just want happiness, love, joy for this season.

康复了！！

2010-12-20T14:41:00.000+08:00

其实也不算康复了啦，就是还有点咳嗽，但烧已退，也没流鼻涕了。。。

令人期待的是我终于可以冲凉洗头!!你也知道华人嘛。。。不管你生什么病，第一禁戒就是冲凉！大家也知道我的皮肤有多敏感，一没冲凉，脸就很痒，皮肤粗粗的。。恶心死啦！！

生完病就代表好事要来了！！对！我的亲爱们都回来了！！禮蘭回来我最开心了！！~~因为她和我的关系非比寻常，看我的fb的status就懂了吧。。（又把她未来的幸福毁了）。。~~她是唯一一个可以对我大孔大叫的人，常常被她骂，骂我丢她的脸。。也是唯一敢盖我的skype的人。。“我要读书了，你最好不要再做丢我脸的事”。。就这样她盖了我的call。。明天可以见到她，令我有点小兴奋！！哈哈。。~~顺便来个**。。~~哈哈。。果然是小兴奋！！
还有你们angie, patty,irene,cheryl,leeching快点出来喝茶啦。。你们太难约了啦！！回来了也将难约！

圣诞节也快到了。。好兴奋！！不懂有没有礼物拿。。禮蘭欠我一个哦！！能够拿到她那个已经很满足了。。。
我的教会也有举办圣诞晚会！快点click这个link去看个清楚吧！！

Time Saturday, December 25 · 6:30pm - 9:00pm
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Location No.48-31 , Jalan Sakeh Baru , Taman Sakeh Baru 84000 Muar , Johor (new shop lot near 99 badminton court)
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More Info Dear friends ,
We cordially invite you to a Thanksgiving Dinner with our loved ones , families and friends. There will be an enjoyable , meaningful events lined up for that evening.
AMAZING CHRISTMAS GIVES YOU..
-LOVE
-PEACE
-JOY
Dress code-strictly formal
TEL:06-953 2045

就是所谓的感恩晚餐。。你什么都不用带，带朋友来就好了。。记得啦，是在圣诞节当天，十二月二十五日！

还有好料，就是十二月三十日！！

‎2010年麻坡联合教会圣诞晚会

----- 爱聚香妃，圣诞蒙恩 -----

日期：30/12/2010 (星期四)
...时间：7:00PM
地点：麻坡培养小学礼堂。。

还有很多很多好料。。。click这个

Muar Christian FB 麻坡基督徒面子书。。

话说回来。。假期快玩完了。。少了点成就感。。。

Threads of Thoughts III

2010-12-18T13:09:00.000+08:00

生病的时候，最想要得到的，是你的疼爱，你的注意力，还有你的嘘寒问暖。。
没了他们，真的有点寂寞。。。

H.U.G.E. Camp 2010

2010-12-17T22:08:00.000+08:00

Everybody let's together say WOW~~

Hi guys I'm back from one of the most awesome event of the year 2010 before it ends!! Its HUGE camp 10'. First of all, if you don't have any idea about HUGE, please visit Youth Alive Malaysia to know more about them. There are few upcoming events such as YES (youth enrichment school) which will be held from 3-14 January at Bible College Malaysia, fees is RM350 (including accomodation, course materials, lunch and dinner), deadline is on 20th December 2010. Btw fyi i'm a YES graduate too!!If you want to know more about Christianity yet don't want to have boring lessons, then you should sign up for YES 2011!! I had spent my 2 fruitful weeks in BCM. Another event is APYAC (asia pacific youth alive conference) which i'm looking forward to!

Anyway, this year, When god gave me this burden to bring the youth to go for this camp, i took some actions, including fund raising and encouraged the youth to go. There are 16 of us make it this camp.

the backdrop of the camp!

some are MIA.. but Jem is there with us!!

one of those who are MIA, i don't understand why they can laugh non stop and watch the video over and over and over again!!

yeah Youth Idle 2010

Ps Danny and Ps Clement up to their tricks again

Lets put our hand together for Clement Lambert. ERhemm who say pastor is boring and serious??

look at this.. Ps Clement as Adam LAmbert bringing the song What Do You Want From Me.

he and his sexayyy moves.. lol.. and his eyeliner.. it really just makes all of us laugh non stop when he came out..

these are brothers and sisters from Africa!! oh my, I can tell u that no doubt they can sing and dance very well

the king of banana.. he can shakes non stop..

one of the contestant whose hair was bitten by a poodle!!

FYI i took all this pictures from celine's fb, thats why u seeing her in so many pictures.. that her and Christine..

that the youth coming to my room at 11.30pm!!legally k! the Security allows time together till 1am on the last night.

plenty of junks in our room!!

last minutes in the camp.. we were breaking camp.. look at the crowd!

horrible sleepy face!!

I guess I'm one of them who slept the most in this camp.. cause I'm always sleeping.. In the afternoon is my only time in heaven cause the rest of the girls will be away except Christine who always slept with me!! Urgh babysitting them is so horrible!!!!

Btw, who has the bigger belly?? lol

I believe God really work his way through this camp, and many of us were blessed. the theme was Vessel, vessel for God's work. Pastor's messages touched many hearts including mine, and all I can say is our god is an Awesome God!!

oh ya almost had forgottten to mention the worship band for the night conferences. Its Verse of the Day (VoD) from Indonesia!! erhemm.. the band is good!!! the songleader is the one on the most left. handsome wei.. *winks*

so thats all for the updates.. i'm sick now.. urghh.. i hate cough the most!!

Threads of Thoughts II

2010-12-09T01:56:00.000+08:00

What do you want for christmas?
love.

I can't give u that.
then Happiness will do.

Happiness comes with love.
peace?

How about something of the shelf?
dust of Joy.

Wei you very emo meh?
ya, I'm.
I just killed my happiness.

What happen?
I took a knife and stab it
Its in ICU now.
Dunno whether will it survive.

There is Doctor on call.
I want it to die.
But it hurts me as well,
Without happiness, sadness RULES....

爱他不是你的错，是我的心不听话。
相爱需要勇气，拒绝需要决心。
日久见爱心，但我心已死。
心想爱你，心烦意乱。
我爱他，却无奈。
学你，坚持。
爱，伤。

不写了。

2010-12-03T20:50:00.000+08:00

最近心情不好，不写了。写来写去也是那两句。。乌云密布。。等有点感觉了才回来吧。。

Exclaimation Mark!

2010-11-30T19:18:00.000+08:00

I guess i must had been reading too much chinese blog and speaking too much chinese nowadays. I had totally lost interest in blogging in english. First of all, you need very good command of english vocab to crack a joke( at least you wouldn't sound so cheaplak, secondly blogging in chinese you can just add in all kinds of language and every mother tongue and it still sounds as good as ever.wtf. But interestingly I noticed my chinese had improved tremendously. Ahhh Patty don't laugh, I'm serious about this, I can speak much better now.
Imagine now I start to blog in broken english, I bet you gonna stop reading soon.
For trial, I gonna try it for once, just for the sake of fun.

Yesterdaylah I really very happy leh, exam finish already! actually we already plan where to go before exam you know, really cannot tahan ady mah.. 4 papers nia but need 4 weeks to exam, so much free time, of course will simply think lah.. not only simply think hor.. we really got think properly where to go and how to go hor since we no car.. finally after weeks of discussion, we decided to go singapore with Yen Yen. After last paper then straight away go liao. I bet nobody more kiasu then us one. but jinkaolat,when we want to go out, rain very heavily, and that ccy super slow lor! waited so long you know, the driver sure very dl..

urgh no mood to continue writing for now..
In fact I saved this post as draft and went hanging out with friends. To cut the story short, we went to bugis and shopped there. Its something like Times Square in KL, all for 10dollars but no trying sort of thgs. Not really my type of shopping, but i enjoyed very much. Just now went out again to spend the last day with Evan, Kelly and CJ. We had fabulous korean food for lunch and spent almost 3 hours walking in JBI. Kinda boring but no choice since Kelly and Cj need to catch their bus back at 6pm. Now i'm alone in hostel as Evan also had left to catch her flight. oooo... Boring sial...

2010-11-20T15:29:00.000+08:00

So what can I say to you
I saw you dancing in the Rain

如果。恨。

2010-11-19T14:51:00.000+08:00

如果我懂得这个“恨”

或许我会过得好一点

不会在你伤害了我后

还是一样就原谅了你

没有了这个“恨”字

是，我是少了怨气吧

可是我也少了一些些

所谓你的激情和冲动

就是因为少了这“恨”

就算你再一次来伤我

看来我也是束手无策

以笑脸迎接你的残忍

如果我有了这点“恨”

或许我会拒绝你的坏

就不必再为你掉眼泪

心不会再碎多一次吧

看来是时候我得学乖

懂得保护自己没有错

可是几时我才学得会

几时我才会转身就走

Threads of Feelings I

2010-11-19T00:13:00.000+08:00

I love because you are lovable

I didn't cry because i had given you my heart

I didn't miss you because you are already in my mind

I didn't stay because you were not there

everything you do, makes my heart leap and missed a beat..
so you better keep your distance, so that I will not die of heart attack..

everything you do, makes my heart leap and missed a beat..
so you better keep your distance, so that I can concentrate in my life..

Diet Plan No.1- Cabbage Soup

2010-11-15T16:21:00.000+08:00

This is what I googled and found..

If you have a special occasion coming up, or you simply need to lose weight fast, the Cabbage Soup Diet may be just what you're looking for.
Although not suitable for long-term weight loss, the Cabbage Soup Diet is a low-fat, high-fiber diet that will help you get into shape fast before you embark on a more moderate long-term eating plan.

Pros and Cons of the Cabbage Soup Diet

Pros: You'll lose weight fast, and can get as much of the foods listed in the program as you want. Although the diet is only for seven days (and shouldn't be adhered to for longer), it provides a great "kick-start" for a more moderate diet.

Cons: Some people find the soup bland. Some people have reported feeling light-headed, weak, and have suffered from decreased concentration (although some who have been affected in this way felt it was well worth it, since it was only for a week and they had lost considerable weight).

What the Cabbage Soup Diet is NOT

The cabbage soup diet is sometimes referred to as the "Mayo Clinic Diet", and the "Sacred Heart Hospital Diet". Interestingly, this diet has nothing to do with either the Mayo Clinic, nor any Sacred Heart Hospital we know about.

The Problem With Most "Mainstream" Diets

Most diets - especially "mainstream" diets, and those recommended by major medical institutions - work slowly but surely, resulting in around 1 pound of weight loss per week.
This "slow and steady" way to lose weight is certainly healthy, but suffers from one significant drawback : most people get discouraged and quit whatever diet they are on if they don't see results quickly.

Seven Keys to Success

Follow the diet religiously.
Drink at least 4 glasses of water per day
Keep in mind that it's only seven days
Complement the diet with a good multivitamin tablet
Print the information on this site so you can refer to it daily
Eat plenty of soup - as much as you want! Do not try to starve yourself or you'll probably cheat and break the diet
Try different spices to liven up the soup and add variety

Cabbage Soup Recipe

6 large green onions
2 green peppers
1 or 2 cans of tomatoes (diced or whole)
3 Carrots
1 Container (10 oz. or so) Mushrooms
1 bunch of celery
half a head of cabbage
1 package Lipton soup mix
1 or 2 cubes of bouillon (optional)
1 48oz can V8 juice (optional)
Season to taste with salt, pepper, parsley, curry, garlic powder, etc.

Directions:
Slice green onions, put in a pot and start to saute with cooking spray.
Cut green pepper stem end off and cut in half, take the seeds and membrane out. Cut the green-pepper into bite size pieces and add to pot.
Take the outer leafs layers off the cabbage, cut into bite size pieces, add to pot.
Clean carrots, cut into bite size pieces, and add to pot.
Slice mushrooms into thick slices, add to pot.
If you would like a spicy soup, add a small amount of curry or cayenne pepper now.
You can use beef or chicken bouillon cubes for seasonings. These have all the salt and flavors you will need.
Use about 12 cups of water (or 8 cups and the V8 juice), cover and put heat on low. Let soup cook for a long time - two hours works well. Season to taste with salt and pepper.

Remember: This diet should only be followed for 7 days at a time, with at least two weeks in between.

7-Day Plan

Day One:
Fruit: Eat all of the fruit you want (except bananas). Eat only your soup and the fruit for the first day. For drinks- unsweetened teas, cranberry juice and water.
Day Two:
Vegetables: Eat until you are stuffed will all fresh, raw or cooked vegetables of your choice. Try to eat leafy green vegetables and stay away from dry beans, peas and corn. Eat all the vegetables you want along with your soup. At dinner, reward yourself with a big baked potato with butter. Do not eat fruit today.
Day Three:
Mix Days One and Two: Eat all the soup, fruits and vegetables you want. No Baked Potato.
Day Four:
Bananas and Skim Milk: Eat as many as eight bananas and drink as many glasses of skim milk as you would like on this day, along with your soup. This day is supposed to lessen your desire for sweets.
Day Five:
Beef And Tomatos: Ten to twenty ounces of beef and up to six fresh tomtoes. Drink at least 6 to 8 glasses of water this day to wash the uric acid from your body. Eat your soup at least once this day. You may eat broiled or baked chicken instead of beef (but absolutely no skin-on chicken). If you prefer, you can substitute broiled fish for the beef one one of the beef days (but not both).
Day Six:
Beef and Vegetables: Eat to your heart's content of beef and vegetables this day. You can even have 2 or 3 steaks if you like, with leafy green vegetables. No Baked Potato. Eat your soup at least once.
Day Seven:
Brown rice, unsweetened fruit juices and vegetables: Again stuff, stuff, stuff yourself. Be sure to eat your soup at least once this day.

Important Safety Information
The Cabbage Soup Diet is packed with nutritious vegetables and fruit, and is extremely low in fat. Many people say it's the best rapid weight-loss program around.
However, you should only go on this diet for one week at a time, then resume your normal eating for at least two weeks. The cabbage soup diet is too low in complex carbohydrates, protein, vitamins and minerals to continue for longer than this.
Furthermore, this diet is only recommended for adults. The Cabbage Soup Diet is definitely not suitable for children and adolescents.

k I found this at one of those website, I most probably wil try this out with jogging..
see hows it goes..

Fark Fool!!

2010-11-15T16:13:00.000+08:00

我没有骂粗话啦！！！是发福！！发福！！

本人hor最近没什么拍照，可是今天早上就和几个美到不行的美女们去吃早餐！！带赛的那个就有带相机，就让朋友帮我照了一张相片。。 天啊，为什么我的华语怪怪的。。。还是太久没有用华语blog了。。

拍了一张就没心情拍了，原因是我发福了！！直接点就是我肥了嘛！！！！！

就是这张拉！！话说回来，带赛的相机真的很不错，暗暗的地方，吸光能力强！！

你看啦你看啦，我的手臂！！我的肚腩！！！肥弊了！！

这还好，最近还常常听到别人的comment，

妈咪：lui 啊，你的手臂跟大腿可以跟妈的比了啦！！

angie：你的手臂好像变大了。。。。

xc：你看你看，你的肚腩！！

还有还有，听了让我差点晕倒的是
senior：从背影看，你真还像是个aunty，屁股大又下垂！你的手臂真好打！！

下垂下垂！！！！！

看来没办法了，是时候坦然认真地面对这个问题了！

我需要减肥！！

然后我就去google一下减肥方法，其中很受欢迎的有白菜汤、极端不吃不喝法，全蛋白质减肥法，还有就是那个运动了啦！！

接下来我会一个一个都把他们post上来！！

RM1 Shopping Spree

2010-11-14T23:27:00.001+08:00

As you guys know me, I'm the girl finds pleasure in shopping.. which girl doesnt? duh~~ But I only shop for CHEAP STUFF!!! Yeah!! Besides spending money at one go, I also like to spend money on cheap and sales items!!! Imagine I get to buy a MNG blouse at the price of RM35! Originally it was RM135! Well it satisfied my indulgence in shopping yet without creating a big hole in my purse.

Alright, so few weeks back when I came back to my hometown, which is Muar, I get to shop again at ridiculous price!! YES!! ITS RM1!! Every items its at the PRICE OF RM1! The shop, Mofa Collection, was located at 2nd floor, (opposite of Popular Bookstore), Plaza Legenda. They were closing down the shop and selling off every thing dirt cheap at the price of RM1. After being informed by my mom, there was this sales going on, immediately I jumped out from my bed and went there.

One word to describe the scene, it is

CRAZY!! FREAKINGLY CRAZY!!

Everybody were snatching items at the rate of tornado spinning across California! There is at least 30 people inside the small shop grabbing at things within their reach! So without wasting anytime at being stunned by the scene, I became one of them! OMG I felt so aunty and auntier and auntiest when I recalled back.

After one round of grabbing and snatching, I managed to informed my buddies. But only Irene appeared fast enough to accompany me for the second round. When we went back to the shop, they had already pulled down the gate. Anyhow we manage to sneak in again through the back door!! What a genius I am!

So we shop again. Irene was stunned by the scene too! You should look at her then. I bet I were as funny as hers too!!

So here are some pictures of them. I din managed to take picture of every item that I bought, for example small purses, stockings, masks and etc..

Amazing pretty hairband (one the hair assessory which I like most).
Black ribbon hair band is MIA cause i left it in hostel.
RM1 for each hairband

Hair clips!! I bought five of those flowery hair clips, gave one to Patty
Another one is also MIA cause I left it in hostel too!

Rubber hairbands. Gave Irene one which is similar to the left one.
RM1 each too.

Assessories for hand too! I picked up the metal one, but somehow the transparent glittery one was in my basket when I was paying. So I bought it too!
RM1 each

Blink blink crown shaped hair pin.
RM1 too. damn worth it for it!

Colourful hair bands. 5 for RM1

RM1 per pack! Its a big pack.

Bra strap. RM1

Cute keychain suitable for HP. RM1 for this pair.

Now comes the very very very worth it items!!! you sure doesnt believe that they are selling their clothes at RM1 too!! I only took clothes suitable for me for myself and a few more for my cousin. some who went earlier get to buy jeans and pants, even bags!

80's dress. RM1

Jacket with double-folded design at the front part with the zip. RM1

Short pants, a half vest, and a short singlet.
RM1 each

smae design different colour. RM1 each

5 different printed Tee's. RM1 each

stretchable belts. RM1 each

Knitted cotton scarf. Rm1

black shiny dress. RM1

But you know what my mom bought? She thinks that the clothes hanger in the shop was pretty and usable since its stainless steel, my mom bought about 60 clothes hanger back. *fainted...
k la thats all for my update this time

For You Only

2010-11-13T23:21:00.000+08:00

hey babe
remember what i said to you that day?
i told ya that i kinda need time
to take a good look at myself
see what kinda shit i'm in
i need time to clean myself
before the smell starts to stain me

you are just like calculus
differentiation and integration
everytime i try to intergrate you
i realised i did differentiation on you
it was a step to behind
well i still get to intergrate you at first
but things gets stuck
should i try out other methods?
intergration by parts???
start of with X then only Y?
but the question is What kind of equation you are?
maybe i need to do partial fraction first huh?
of you are just another problematic one, improper integration?
who need a break in between.......

you are just like a film
which caught my eyes in the begining
but seems you are the one that directed and was the script writer
i have no idea where am i going
i'm lost
so i need a pause
stopping the story
taking a step back
for you and for me

but one day
i will play the flim again
after i had shampoo and powdered
smelling great
there
i will see you once again

爱着你

2010-11-04T12:48:00.002+08:00

爱你

我不后悔

爱你

我幸福

爱你

我甘愿

爱你

我心满意足

爱你

需要勇气

爱你

需要耐心

爱你

需要体贴

爱你

需要恒心

爱你

我常伤心

爱你

我常哭

爱你

我常寂寞

爱你

我常无奈

爱你

可是你爱我吗？

my awesome coursemates!!

2010-11-02T18:10:00.000+08:00

literally as i had mentioned, my coursemates and frightfully awesome and amusing!! lol.. everyday lesson in lecture are always full of suprises!!

here is just pictures of what they had did during titas lecture.. as usually we start picnicking in class in the morning. and today yyy brought something that make all of our jaw drop wide!! its half boiled egg including soy sauce and bowl!!

there you see!! bowl and soy sauce!!

cracking the egg....

see other people are doing their presentation.. *tsk tsk tsk...

there happy chee yung.. egg with mee siam...

lol.. more updates on my coursemates soon...

Vacancy

2010-10-30T18:09:00.000+08:00

Alright folks.. i'm looking for a boyfriend.. and i need to find one before 2012 so that my useless-vain-pretty besties will allow me to go to taiwan with them... (what shit is this??!!! ask me to bring boyfriend just because you guys bringing yours!!! urgh!!!! STAB STAB STAB!!!)

since i'm looking for a boyfriend, then of course i need to let you guys know what i'm looking for k??

1. taller then me!! at least must be taller then me after i wear my heels!! i just love heels!!

>>cant you just wear flats for his sake??

>>no i dont!! i love my heels too much..

>>as if you wear alot of heels..SWEATS..

2. able to humour me when i'm bored...

>>huh eliza tan you practically get bored every 15mins! you think which guy who is so free that can humuor you always??

>> lol i will find one.. here i'm looking for one..

>>yeah count yourself lucky if you can get one.. suei for that fella..

3. kind and good temper..

>>i know that is to make up for your wickedness and hot-temper huh??!!

>>no no i'm kind and sweet too k??

>>bullshit! look into the mirror and tell yourself that!

>> well i did every morning~~ XP

4. do not get jealous easily..

>>yea.. right.. so that you still can flirt around..

>>huh since when did i flirt?? i'm just socializing k??

>>how about those sweet talks??

>>erhmmmm i'm just saying some pleasant words??!! lol.. XP

5. independent..

>>i think you are the one that need people to take care k??

>>who say? i still keep my fats well ever since i stayed at hostel!!

>>yeah get fatter now and for sure there is no bf available for you!!

6. man

>>man??

>>yup i need a manly man~~

>> i know why...

>>?? why??

>>cuz you are too boyish!!

7. same or higher level of education then me

>> what for??

>>erhemmmm....

>> spit it out girl.. crap i know why.. so that he can help you to do ur assignments and works right??

>> oooppppssss!! chill k~~

8. speak english and chinese well

>>shameless~~ you cant speak both well.. speak cina like speak english, speak english but broken..

>> aiyoh.. thats why i need somebody that can speak both lor.. when i run out of vocab or forget then ma can use another language!! if he can speak hokkien even better!! jin jia hou!!

9. love to eat..

>> now i know why you are so fat!!!

>> speechless.. (*sensitive to the word FAT)

10. love to look at pretty girls

>> aint you getting jealous after that??

>> nope! one of my hobby is go out and cuci mata by looking at pretty girls.. woohoo!!

>> i knew that!! you aint that straight huh!!

11. able to accept foul language

>> excuses!! i thought i heard that you are quitting that??

>> still cant resist it sometimes~~ wtf~~

>> alright alright what else you want????

>> cant think of anything else now....

>> i bet nobody will respond to this..

>>why??

>>who cares whether you have a boyfriend anot??

>> you cares right??

>> who say so??

>> i say so..

>> why you say so??

>>cause i think you are jealous when i'm writing this

>>how?? tell me...

>> you just opposed to everything that i said!! you dont want me to get a boyfriend right??

>> lol you are ridiculous!! i'm just helping you so that you wun be so sia suei!!

>> why sia suei?? it the plain truth that

I'm

SINGLE and DESPERATE

冷

2010-10-28T13:05:00.000+08:00

本人无聊的特质众所周知，时不时一语让旁人全都冷掉。。
但是最近我发现我的室友很配合我嘞！！就跟你们分享一下吧！

下午上完课在房间里，在等着西街小姐一起去冲凉。。
西街小姐慢慢的在干洗她的脸。。
本人：“喂！你快点啦。。我不想等你啦。。”
西街小姐：“快好了。。”
西街小姐又跑去窗口边，再看外面，又慢慢地洗她的脸。。
本人：“你又在干嘛？”
西街小姐：“没有啦。。看看。。”
本人：“无聊！快点啦。。你是在吸取阳光的精华吗？？！！”

西街小姐冷掉。。。

数分钟后，终于西街小姐出现在厕所里了。。

本人：“咦？酱快？”
西街小姐：“我吸到阳光的精华了。。。”

本人冷掉。。。。。

XOXOXO。。。冷！！

无奈！！

2010-10-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

我很无奈耶！！！讲了几百次也撇不清一些实事。。

对啦对啦我是很怕寂寞的一个人，可以说寂寞让我感到很没有安全感，寂寞会让我窒息，寂寞会让我抓慌，寂寞会让我去想一些吃饱没事做的事，寂寞会让我感到全身无力、、有了寂寞，我就会慢慢的枯萎死去！！

就是你们这些人啊！！不明白就不要在那边乱乱讲啦！！我知道我无聊的时候会很烦人，可是你们就应酬我一下嘛。。。一直一直一直叫我安静。。好啦我就用另外一办法去处理我的寂寞，就好好的安静，打开我的另一片天空，好好的去发呆。。可是你们就讲我依莫。。我不是依莫！！是你们要我安静嘛。。我安静的时候脸部表情一定会比较严肃，不是依莫啦！！然后憋了很久就会很累了。。。咳哟我会坐不定在栏杆上的原因是因为一直有人坐上坐下，它就会不停的镇一下晃一下，我没有安全感啦！！所以我宁愿站着。。很丢脸的嘞！现在讲出来的就不要再乱乱讲了啦。。还有那天bbq晚上，我坐了一下木凳子，就不坐了跑去亭子里坐的原因也是酱啦！！就有几个人一直在木凳上跳动着，我的心很不安嘛。。就在亭子里呆着到我感到很累了就想睡了，明明就没有依莫！！！

超想拿橡皮檫塞他们的嘴巴！！

（我真的疯了）

发表完毕。。我该回去读书了。。

偷懒！！

2010-10-07T10:40:00.000+08:00

嘿嘿嘿。。现在本来是有课的。。却留在房里上线，写部落格！！哇你以为自己很厉害了是吗？不用听课了是吗？？没有啦，诺丁的课真的很闷嘛，自己在那边多不懂在教些什么的。。可是又不好睡。。这是个人问题啦（不会在大庭广众的地方睡着，我有一个coursemate可神啦！每天不管那一课，都一定睡！！不好意思讲她的名字，但是大家zai zai diuok ho!!)。。 chem ind 又是presentation, 昨天如果没有ws的巧克力，我可挨不过那一组的presentation啦！！闷死了。。（哈哈。。是我的roommate的那一组，不好意思跟她讲嘛。。）

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昨天xc跟我讲她要去post office。。好笑到dong buey diao.. 明明sub就没那么大，可是她竟然会看不到post office。。看到cimb，看到书店。看不到post office。。哈哈。。（有点嚣张，因为我对那边很熟嘞！每天去那边吃，不熟才怪！）。。说道sub，我吃腻了那边的菜啦！！很显嘞。。可是颗粒小姐又不喜欢xc家前面那间，我家前面那间又酱贵！！现在晚餐也很难搞定，最近肚子常跟我闹别扭，晚上不想吃得太重，都是面包饼干加米卢！！也好啦。。省钱嘞！！ TMD阿公没给钱！！

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阿公hor。。真的很想放火烧他的家啦！竟然漏了我的名字！！我还超期待地去黑马拿表格,TMD 竟然没有我的名！！！吐血死了。。说会寄。。到今天还没寄到我家。。我可不想继续饿肚子嘞！！阿公阿！！别跟我开这种玩笑嘛。。我会心脏病的啦。。我可没跟鼻涕鼻涕安叔叔借钱嘞！！下个sem怎样活嘛。。

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好啦，西街小姐要看戏了，只好不写了。。（她很爱看超级星光大道，就每天我俩一起看！！看到考试也考不好！都是楼配先生不好啦！！）

a language that only i can understand

2010-10-03T15:11:00.000+08:00

when the weather start to turn cold, so does my heart too.. i have no idea was going through my heart now and i'm rushing through my typing.. i dont have enough courage to face it maybe thats why i had been avoiding it like mad.. days are getting weirder and weirder and i'm feeling more and more worry about myself.. i'm getting out of the place.. fml... i'm a lonely girl on this big world..
i'm a bitch.. as its had sounds.. i'm a bitch... i'm the one that hurts people and the one that doesn't know how to appreciate their goodness..i take thing for granted and i never think of the consequences of my action.. i'm tired.. you know what.. i wish to be alone but i'm afraid to be alone.. haiz dont know what is going wrong now... you shall not worry.. everyday when i wake up in the morning i will jz tell myself that its another bright day and i wil survived it because there is a lot of people that still love me and care about me.. seriously there is nothing in my life that i can complain of. but i guess i want more than that..

神经病

2010-09-23T21:35:00.000+08:00

又回来我的写写的地方了，又来emo emo一下，难道每只有伤心的事跟人分享的吗? 也不是酱讲的啦。。。可是在这里只有伤心，沮丧的事我不想开口讲出来，大家已经够烦的了，我又不能碎碎念。。。

但是也有很快乐的事情啦。。比如说，假期的时候我去了关丹玩，去了马六甲三次为了看电影，kelly和weeshern来麻坡拜访我，最令我开心的事是竟然我教会的所有的seniors都回来了，我们还一起搞音乐workshop, 教那一些juniors。。很开心嘞！joshua and edwin back from uk, kevin from sg, shirley and lydia from kl, and even get to meet joel and jonathan!! but surely of cuorse we miss him isn't it?? joash i miss you so much.. 不好意思，忘了我在用华语。。

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回来这里发现很多的assignment和功课没做，忙着赶deadline，要命啊！！又要quiz的啊，test啦，我头晕了。。inorganic有点kns，titas很TMD，chem ind 麻烦得要死，maths还好可是那些intergration我很乱嘛。。CNNND干吗没事去发明酱多sinh啊cosh的。。

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中秋节快乐！！！我竟然有收到月饼嘞！是weeshern送的。。有点意外，有点开心，还有点感动！！可是我竟然没送他！！哈哈没良心的家伙。。还讲到酱爽。。知道了啦，会对他好一点的啦。。
可是我却一个人赏月，原因呢？我没空啦！！人家在赶assignment嘛。。

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心又痛了。。以前有过心痛几次，可是都不管它，以为不睬它就没事了。。还天真地以为时间久了就会慢慢自己好起来。。TMD。。原来伤口没照顾好，被掀开时回丝北丝北的痛！！乌龟对自己的乌龟壳最有信心的了，天塌下来都不爬快点，马上就躲进自己的壳内。。我也想要有自己的壳，想躲就躲，不用等天塌下来。。我发觉到我是个女生，原来我还挺正常的。。。他跟我说过不可以玩火，会烧到手的，原来火烧手真的很痛。。皮痒的后果。。

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阿公没给家用，让我很心烦。。TMD是要我不用吃减肥是吗。。。

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Falling apart..

2010-08-31T10:31:00.000+08:00

Here I am siiting in front of my lil lappie pondering and wondering, threads of emotions flow through my inner yet I cant speak it out nor express it. I wish I can just cry and releashed it when I'm alone but I'm lonelier that lonely. Perhaps tears dried up two months ago and things cant be as bad as then. Again I lost her, my granny, expected yet it hurts and it hurts like mad. I wonders how life can be so easily beaten by death while this world have no regards toward humanity. What is life all about? After a battle and it ends just like this? but my granny she had put up a very good fight in her life. As old as 94 years old, most of you sure thought she must be senile and weak. Nope to me she is the best warrior in life. she went through hardship and unspeakable pain in those days that is now in the past. It left pretty much impact on her and I noticed it. Even on her dying bed, she graps money which we put in her pocket which always has been her habit. Proverty had sculptured a strong woman yet it left bitter memories in her. Her worries of not having enough rice, not having a penny in her pocket, surfaced when she was semi-unconscious. I was lucky and well taken care of in my life. no hardship yet sometimes I whined like a puppy. Ashamed. Now she is gone and I cant be back early for the wake. Stuck with upcoming test. Tell me how I should I handle this? While brooding over my lost, I'm lost. I'll be back on the forth day and able to make it for the funeral. Again dilemmia re-emerge. I attended a painful one 2 months ago and now the wave its hitting on me again. Can I don't show myself? Can't I be transparent for once?

Does it really matter now?

2010-08-26T15:48:00.000+08:00

最近都有一种闷闷的感觉，不知道是开始感觉到新环境的不同还是荷尔蒙在作怪。我也分不清楚。就有那种觉得身边的人有点烦，虽然明明不管他们的事，可是还是很想避开他们。又不能像平时我对小兰那样，可以叫她闭嘴，但是我们俩都一笑而过。他们都是新朋友，都不是我的死党，真的会得罪人的也。

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朋友。。也有分开的时候。。心情就是那么差。小兰离我是靠近了一点，可是她会很忙，回去麻坡不能天天见她了。唉。。我的阿欣啊，就很远了。虽然以前她也是不常回来，可是这次是三年后的事了，很想哭嘞，终于明白她那时心里复杂的心情了。那天请她吃饭送别，明明是很愉快的，可是不懂为什么我就哭得那么凄惨，说着说着，眼泪就嘀嗒嘀嗒的拼命掉。说着我那去世已经两个月的朋友，说着快离我而去的外婆，说着我那不曾跟别人说过的心情，终于垮了。。

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外婆，唯一我见过的祖父母，最近快不行了，心脏衰退，器官也慢慢不能操作了。这几天听妈说水肿得更加严重了，皮肤都快爆了，心痛极了，很想说外婆，您快安心地离去吧。可是酱子人家会说我不孝，可是外婆真的很痛苦，很痛苦啊！人已经酱老了，九十四岁，以前她还能和我谈天的时候，常常对我说人不要活到酱老，很累。。记得以前礼拜天去外婆家的时候，可以吃到面汤，面粉糕汤。我会酱喜欢面粉糕都是因为外婆的面粉糕特别好吃！还有以前外婆家后面有养鸡养鸭，可以去喂它们，去追它们，然后又被骂。。。。。。

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我在这里课里有拿havard business school case study. 竟让我不禁有点后悔当初放弃nottinham.不知道到底我是对还是错了。从中五到现在，每次申请奖学金一定会放business course.然后也让我拿到了，可是还去了中六读biology.现在我又申请nottingham的business，也给我拿到了，奖学金包到完也拿到了，最后我还是来到了这个地方读industrial chemistry. 到底我会不会后悔。。。。。我也不知道。。唉唉唉唉唉唉唉。。

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心情就是酱乱，连写部落格也写得没头没脑的。。写完心情也没变好。。不写了。。拜。。。

badminton session

2010-08-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

after 6 hours of badminton session cum dinner cum waititng for bus, I'm totally exhausted!! yet i jz finish another hour of washing my clothes and another 45min of writing my report!! i'm puking tired now but i still choose to hang on and have a brief update of my blog. love me isn't it??

well i got this idea of playing bad out of nowhere and immediately after our work, kelly, chiao jou, evan and i just went to krp for badminton session. definitely we met our seniors there and for sure they are one hell of crap!!! haha.. after the usual game.. we drag on til around 8pm plus cause we just cant get enough out of it!! i love the sweating!! btw i had totally lost all my well-kept image.......... haiz.. i did plenty of stupid and idiotic acts and haiz... its a long story..

i actually did those stupid act cute stuff in front of my seniors and i can bet for sure if its last time in f6 i'm getting slapping from my buddies already. yea thanks to kelly and chee yung for teaching me to act cute and that emo thing. well surely i cant leave out siufun for introducing that emo face with finger turning round and round.. OMG!!! and you know what? i did that for the whole night!! i feel like slapping myself now. *slap slap slap*. all my image gone!!

i was pretty crappy tonight.. keep on sap sap liam and i really good at sap sap liam. i keep on repeating that i'm hungry for at least 20 mins and i'm tired for at least another 15mins NON STOP!! i'm not only annoying my friends around me but me myself were annoyed too. WELL DONE eliza! you are always such a genius at destroying yourself!! btw i serious crapped so much that i came out with something nonsense.. haiz sorry dude.. i did it out of fun.. one day i will tell you the truth! weeeeeeeeee!!!

another serious matter.. about that ignition tube thing.. you guys just let me off k?? i was pretty corrupted and i will not deny that it is a fact of truth.. haiz

nanato...

2010-08-09T21:32:00.000+08:00

nanato nanato nanato nanato nanato nanato nanato..............................

nana!! you looks like ur mistress!!! oh no!!

IS your mistress looks like you!!

lol very out of topic!! why I get distracted all the time?? ish ish....

just came back from hometown and i seriously now appreciate the goodness of muar.. so peaceful and easy..... you know what i mean?? its easy for everything!! to eat, to sleep, to shop, to visit friends, like liwei and I hang out the whole day playing guitar till i forget to go back and have dinner. Till my dad called and urged me to go back. sorry.. for being late and the dinner is cold..

right back to muar.. i love this place seriously!! plus this time i brought some special snacks back from muar. Its Mee Siput!! alright i know you guys never heard of it but i think all muarians will say Hurray to it!!! yippie!! you wan then come my room to take it from me ok?? T&C- while stock last..

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today i got a bad news from my mom.. my granny is in hospital.. haiz.. weak heart.. haiz... terrible.. i don't know what to say about this but seriously wish she can get over it asap.. she is so old(94 years old), and so tired.. i really feel very pity for her... haiz...

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you know what?? i really hate you!!! your tone when you talk to us, your method of doing things that trouble all of us?? what are you trying to do??? omg!!! so you think we will learn more out of it??? i feel like smacking your face to wake you up!!! omg omg omg!!! ish!!! you are so annoying!!! yes i will learn 1 thing!! i will learn to how to bear with a bullshit fellow for half a year!!

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today i feel very sad when i see one of my best friend in distress. i wish all the best for her. i had tried my very best, done my part and reason out everything with her. i hope she wil get over it and stand on her feet again. i will support her no matter whats her decision, she will be happier than now.. ps.. i love you..

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how long could i hang on in this situatuion?? i'm afraid its coming to an end soon if there is no booster on the way..

ps... i love you too...

Weeeee....

2010-08-05T22:04:00.000+08:00

don ask me wat is weeeee... its jz an expression of being excited... hahahaha..

alright get back to my business. I'm not suppose to be blogging at this moment bcause there is a quiz due tomorro and I haven't get ready for it. But, WEEEEEE.... I feel like blogging anyway!!

So far so good in my uni life, things are getting easier. for example getting up early and bath in freezing cold water!! Started to appreciate the adrenaline rush I get everytime I bath in the early of morning. Cause i know that thing its gonna keep me awake for the rest of the day! Well sad to say I stil tend to doze off during some classes.. but who cares...

had been playing badminton with my friends and not to forget our seniors. if you were to ask me how to describe the session, i have no idea what to say.. entertaining when i see kelly playing beacause she is so damn cute and idiotic?? hilarious when wee shern did his silly lame moves? cunning when we were cheering for ah pek and s.p.? lol.. anyway they are so amusing that i serious enjoyed my time there at the court.

till now i haven't really bothered to feel home sick.. which i supposed to have that feeling.. keeping it off for the moment and concerntrate on my current business definitely a better suggestion that i will give it to myself.

WEEEEEE... k get back my to my slides for inorganic quiz..

1st blog being a uni student.

2010-07-20T22:18:00.000+08:00

Alright guys I know so many of you are so shocked of my decisions of changing my uni to UTM. even till now my mom still asking me whether will I regret giving up to pursue my dream course which is business. Well till now I can say that I had make the right decision for myself and I really looking forward to my 4 years course here in UTM.

Ok here I'm going to briefly describe how my life has been in UTM.

First and foremost, its my hostel. I'm staying KDSE which is about 45min walking distance from my main campus and faculty. Ain't you curious how I know the time taken so well?? Alright let me be frank with you, I walked back from my fac to my hostel!! lol since there is limited bus on saturday in campus, so my fren and I decided to walk as we wait for bus. and guess wat? none came as we walk but it arrived when we just sat down for a drink in the cafeteria. Urgh!! you wouldn't want to listen to what I'm going to say next.haha..

Next lets proceed to my course. I'm taking Industrial Chemistry, SSC-1. well I didn't get to cuci mata as i planned because there is only 5 chinese guys and well none fitted my taste. So sad huh!! i'm taking Inorganic, principle chemistry, maths method, industrial chemistry and last but not least is that stupid and annoying subject TITAS!! I dislike it so much!!! But I'm coping well with others. Oh ya there is this research project for first year student and I think I will be joining it since its so beneficial to myself. Anyway there is a talk about it tomorrow. After I find out soon I will update you guys.

Lepak at library became 1 of my habit since I cant go back to my hostel during short breaks (Its too far). Do assigment or just chillaxing. I started to jog today and I find it refreshing. The food here are seriously nice and seriously I need to exercise before you see a huge monster!! lol.. well I will give the highest rating cafeteria to SUB. Its cheap and Scrumptious! Others are ok too but maybe abit too pricey ya.

Alright here to introduce my roommate! her name is Chau Jou, from Pagoh and surprisingly a ex-SAB sixth former, same course with me. We hitted well since the first day we met and i really pray hard that we will live peacefully till then.

Next is this buddy which live a few doors away. She is Kelly from Melacca. We practically hang out together and she is that fellow who had walked with me back to hostel. she is great, loud, naughty, over-active.. but her work is neat! That reminds me of Angie.. lol...

Anyway we had our first outing to Jusco TU and had pizza!!

I had so much things else to share but i'm tired now and cant wait to get into my bed with such a nice cold weather!! Alright guys ciaoz..

p/s: its had been a month since that accident.. i still cant help crying.. i miss you..

Moments I Woudn't Forget

2010-06-24T21:47:00.000+08:00

i had posted this post in facebook. i wun want to type again. so below this is the link..

http://www.facebook.com/notes/eliza-tan/moments-i-would-not-forget/409631241601

我也要学你！

2010-05-17T22:51:00.000+08:00

我要学你什么呢点？？你现在应该看得出了吧？哈哈哈。。对了！就是用华语写部落格！感觉有点很爽，不！应该说是非常非常的爽！我的华语程度曾经让patty很自豪地说：“你啊！没药可救了拉，我的华语都比你好！”无奈。。我也是千百个不愿意嘛。。人生万万个无奈，其中华语是我的一个小遗憾。一直到中五预考时，还有人不相信我拿了华文这一科，进去考试了，他们才露出那惊人的表情。是我太对不起教育了我十一年的华语老师，还是我长得太像香蕉？？不过怎样我还是很光荣的告诉你我没有当掉我的华语这一科哦！还拿了个B3！真爽！

好了啦，念够了就该继续写我要写的东西。现在我的华语还是不是能很顺畅表达一切的感觉，表情等，但是就请你们多多忍耐，指点。。

在过几分钟，我即将踏入我的另一个十周年，是我妈妈最痛的一次，也是我第一次哇哇大哭的一次。回想自己真的好像长大了，尤其这几年，学会了人生一些些的道理，这个年龄也不该做出一些令人不满的事了吧？懂事好像跟年龄有点很大的关系，常有人说，“长大了，懂事了。”就是这个意思吧？我也不愿意当个不懂事的小孩（呃。。在我父母眼中还算小吧？），可是经常神经大条，精神恍惚，老人痴呆，搞不清状况，还是常常惹火周边的人，尤其是我的父母，辛苦他们了。。动不动就被骂，好像已成了每天必须经历的小冒险。啊！我也是千百个不愿意嘛！！！

二十岁了，要读大学了，是不是应该换一个心态来面对一切即将转变的事故？如何去面对呢？还是不能很好的去分析。。慢慢来吧！江宇禅师会说很多道理给我听。。以前的我很自大，自我，自以为是。。对不起！！让我好好去学习好嘛？

还有我现在真的很爱很爱我身边所有的朋友，包括了

patty,一想到她就要走了，眼泪就不听话的流下，跟她天天相处也快超过半年了吧，从考试已来到每天做工，我好珍惜你啊！

liwei啊，是我的好耳朵，天天第一个想要找人倾诉的时候一定想到她，她很成熟，很懂事。。

aheong是一个豪爽开朗的女生，她也要去美国了，有点不舍得。。

angie，好久没跟你聊天说地了，哈哈，路边的野草不要乱乱踏！！

chelchel，你还是一样的美丽，那么地吸引我，你的人真好，爱你永远。。

cheryl你的幽默常常让人开怀大笑，开到你就忍不住想笑，还是小笑小笑好，保持形象。。

liern你美美的样子有点动人，虽然平时你有点远，但时还好有msn，可以update update。。

leeching常常看不到你，你是我们当中最忙的啦。天天这边喝完茶又接摊，你啊，可说是那乐意助人的人，需要你帮忙时，你每次都能帮到。。

irene，最开朗的是你啦，最活泼，可是呀不要每天被男朋友欺负！有时要欺负回他！！

joyce哈哈你的神经最大条了，有时没头没脑的话让人难以释怀，不知该生你的气还是要一笑而过？

lihui你一想到她，你会想到什么呢？哈哈不用说你也懂。。就是那“伟大的胸怀”嘛。。她很好，常常被我欺负，还是对我很好，疼死她了！！！

好了我也写得很累了，好多汉语拼音不会，打得很慢。。累了。。

祝自己生日快乐，晚安。。。

Thoughts

2010-05-13T23:04:00.000+08:00

Strands of thoughts runs through my mine as though they are the trains in Twopenny Tube, juggling with all sorts events. I'm still stuck in my lil burrows where only contents my own world. Love life, studies, friends, relationships... all are still so uncertain yet I cant lift my finger upon anything but continue to persuit the blinking star ahead.

Glad that I took the first move to pick it up again, I mean my piano, enjoying classes and new techniques that i'm learning, practices that i need to get up early to do it since i'm working, tonnes and tonnes of anticipation and expectation from my own being. Mistakes that had been repeated till it had became my practice had to be totally removed. Its one of those efforts which i find it hard to complete it. Went back to my old piano teacher, dont ask me why, just an instinct told me to do so. Never remember why I really left her, i always thought that it was because that i'm too disappointed with my examination result, till my mom told me that she had said something that had hurt my feelings when i'm just 10 years old. Recollection of old stories went all the way back, still remember how i was scolded by her after failing my grade 2. I did hang on awhile but finally her aggressive temper had verbalize venom which totally crash a young heart. She said this, might as well you bang yourself on the wall... I stop lesson totally without even giving a though of changing teacher. Lil fire of passion had burn out entirely. Efforts of persuading my parents to give me a piano when i turn 7 just diminished at that moment. Eventhough years later I tried to learnt it again but things doesnt turn out as I wanted it to be. Plenty of courage and assurance within myself had made up the decision of facing my old anxiety and concerns. Anyway, i'm enjoying myself now without any burden as it might just last until another chapter of my biography starts.

As for you, a lil gossip for readers out there, I want to tell you that my heart is attached but no story had really begin. Flower had not bloom and the earth is still in the mist. Complications and hindrances almost make me give up. Love is so sweet yet it can cause u diabetes and obesity when things get out of hands. One lesson from the past had make me dim-witted to the problems of love. Man are not perfect neither me. I lose as i gain. Innocent parties had been implicated make things worse then ever. Eagerness is wash-out and left my rationality functioning but its not making it's way out. I rather be insensible then feeling empty for once.

Updates

2010-04-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

life is getting more and more boring now for me. In fact i'm looking forward to my Lang Tengah Island trip with my sweetie pie Rachel (lol.. with her parents too), bringing me some taste of excitement as i'm waititing for the that to come. Working everyday is the thing that i detest but i rather work then staying at home. Stay at home=bored=hot!!! OMG.. weather is really driving me crazy everyday!!And whenever i'm got the bits of sun shine on my face, my face *puff* turn into a apple! it turns really red and warm. At leaast if i'm working, i got to stay inside air-con and stay chill.

currently i'm still waiting for JPA to comfirm my scholarship and everyone seems settling down with thier choices already except those watitng for local university. Really very very happy for Liwei since she got her first choice in NTU..*cheers cheerss***. Patty also leaving real soon in one month time to her lil paradise, with that lil lake and her bicycle. lol. Heong is finishing her sem here and flying to US, pray she gets her first choice too. hmmmm.. left me alone....sob sob..

k la thats all for now.. going out to limteh with my babes.. gtg..

DONE

2010-04-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

Now finally every speck of dusk in mind had settled down

On the spot i saw my path

The future that God had laid for me two years ago

The prophecy that had been gaven

Is coming to me

Not anything else but that is it

Gone by it and back to the same starting point

Have i wasted my years??

Assured the answer is No

May god be my guide and my shepherd..

thinking of...

2010-03-26T00:53:00.000+08:00

My days had been on a Merry-Go-Round

Giving me differents scenery at different altitude and degrees

I'm not good at pen-ing tham all out but i just wish give a long long sigh

Hoping it can take away all my emo-ness

Giving me a clearer mind to make my decisions

Don't leave me in the marshland untaken care of

I need you

I'm in the mists of the dawn which had not clear

But i'm sure that definitely one of my leg is in it

Wait for me while i clear the mess

I will join the choirs of angels singing the beautiful songs of victory

Update

2010-03-08T22:30:00.000+08:00

here is just update on my life..

1. what you doing currently?

working, applying for university, and of course enjoying life..

2.what is the last best enjoyment u had?

facial and thai massage!!!! just a few hours ago. even though my facial now looks like just kena bomb, but i really enjoy the head massage. the thai massage was nice, i was laughing all the way when she massage my inner thigh, even rachel and reenu cant stand my laughter. haha i still cant help laughing whenever i thought of it. last but not least, first time i saw rachel being so flexible!!! hahahahahahaha........

well my face is getting from bad to worse, i have no idea how to describe it to you all. em i will just repeat what the beautician said..." your face is too sensitive, too thin. all your pores are clogged badly but your skin is too dry too squeeze, if i squeeze your face will be even redder, your pores are not only clogged but even infection all over the forehead. the clogged pores are too hard to squeeze and too deep, your condition is even worst then Reenu..her are just surface pimples but yours is bad. u are not advised to use any product, just use filtered water to wash your face and use some soothing and calming gel(then she start promoting her aloe vera gel).... blah blah blah........" haiz i dont know what should i do now...

3. how is your studies?

erhemm..don't ask me about my result please, all that i cant say is i'm very thankful to god that i manage to maintain my scholarship. i'm very happy with my maths result, kinda proud of it but very very dissapointed with my science subjects. now i will just wait which door will god open up for me.. i will pray.. he is just comfirming his path for me..

4. how is your work?

all i can say is i'm in love with my work, surely i cant bear to resign in this coming few month!! huhuhuhh...

i'm trying earn myself more commission.. haha.. its challenging..

5. have you been spending your money wisely?

again.. NOPE!!! haiz... sad huh!!!! i still love shopping!!!

6. how is your love life?

em...... for you guys who knows what is going on then shut up! don simply spread nonsense.. for you who doesn't know anything, just mind your own business.. hahaha.. i'm still single until the day Mr. He ask for my hand..

my next blog i will tell you about my MR.HE. too tired now to continue.. i want to sleep already.. nitez...

Working Days

2010-01-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

amazingly i'm one of them who found a job so early even before i finish my exam, thanks to my bro and mom who found this job for me. it got a good basic salary and incentives which is enough to cover all my expenses. actually this is not the first time i working part time so i really got nothing to prepare in the first place. i went to work quite relaxing and i realised that this job is really cool!! besides working by promoting my products in the shop, basically i just pass my time by playing with my colleagues including my manager. there is only four of us in the shop but all of them including me, are all crazy and nuts. we passed time by playing games and work out with all those equipments. losers need to do double which normally the winner has to do only 100rep. haha its really fun to see anybody gets so exhausted. our muscles were so painful and the next day its the best time to poke them. haha ok i know i sounds physcho but its really very fun.. now everyday i drag my tired and painful body back home, everyday all i wish is to get more sleep!!! but it seems impossible!! even my off days are all full of errands!! sweat.....

weeks had pass and i don't got time to meet other friends and worse!! i start missing my school days now!! wtf.. i actually miss exams......... i mean i miss those hectic days which i need to spend all my time on studying. working days are so meaningless. but at the same time i wan some really resting days!!!

oh ya by the way CNY is coming soon and i'm over spending!! damn.. haha but shopping is always so so fun!!!valentines is near too but i'm back to single again. i never spend valentines with anybody before also, so it makes no differences right??? haha..

Jingle Bells.. its CHRISTMAS again..

2009-12-29T16:21:00.000+08:00

wow wow wow!!! its christmas time!! fuiyo i love every every single minute i have ever since finish stpm!! as usual if you know me well, my holidays are definitely busier then my schooling days. from 10th of dec till now i haven got a day break, goodness i'm tired actually, but plans just came without much warnings. i went to melacca a dozen of times thanks to my fren to watch movie and eat of course. movies were great.. AVATAR 3D is really good. erhem.. please do not bet with anybody if you are as scatterbrain as me, and never agree to terms like "you do whatever i say"... damn.. no further comments on what happen next..

my bro kindly invited me to his house for a few days stay which was splendid, we went shopping non stop while he waited patiently, we went for crabs, and other delicious food.. haha.. i hope he enjoys his trip to taiwan(he is right there while i'm blogging this).

by the way, i'm so happy that i received christmas present this year!! yahooo... my mom is kinda funny if you want to put it that way, whatever she bought for me, she consider it as christmas presents *sweat*, but thats kind of her. my bro brought me to do facial which was his christmas present for mom and i. lihui and patty got me something too. i got another new bear!! i just named it PAPU.. ok here is the picture of everything..

those few accessories are from mom including the perfume *is she hinting me that i have BO?* necklace is from patty, the shirt is from lihui!!! thanks to you guys cause i really love it very much!! anyway i kept papu on my bed.. love you papu!!

STPM

2009-12-29T15:28:00.000+08:00

STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM STPM

i just cant believe it!!everything its over just like this!! OMG OMG OMG!!! one and a half year efforts, one year of preparations, half year of realisation, 4 months on acceleration, 3 months of full speed and 1 month of non-stop attempts.. phew... everything just crumpled down on the day i finish my first paper! "£$%^&*#@ biology paper 2!!!every subjects!!! i'm afraid i cant control myself later if i continue on the list!! DAMN!

haiz actually there is nothing i can do now but wait for my result. received JPA letter few days ago reminding me to maintain my result above 4B or CPGA3.00 or else i cant continue on with their scholarship.. haiz...anyway life still goes on and i'm really looking forward to my uni life!! haha..eliza jia you!!!

PAST.GONE.LET GO.

2009-12-29T15:18:00.000+08:00

it is now considered a past, a piece of memory or just an experience which i can't do anything more about it. its useless even for me to cry now, to scream at you now or spending efforts to bring everything back to perfect. cracks are visible no matter what unless i'm a piece of metal which can be melted by high temperature and reform. but are you hot enough for that?? i didn't even cried after that because i just lost my way on that path and had left that sadness some way behind me. is that better then keeping those grieves in my heart? i had learnt to accept the truth and told myself that its not the end of the world. trees and flowers still bloom every spring even i cry. i'm letting go......

hohoho

2009-10-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

i'm getting out of hand!!

cant believe it i went shopping again!!em there was this warehouse sales for L'Oreal, Mabelline and Garnier going on in hotel pelangi on saturday and sunday. how can i miss it???

well we were quite early but the crowd there showed us that we are not early enough.i went with angie, yen lee, yu zhen, and chui lian. huhuhuhu.. the things there were dirt cheap!!! everything they sold , from facial products to makeups, hair products, nail polish... all the prices were being slashed at least 50%!!! can you believe it?? how can i let it go without satisfying my desires??

but the only product i bought was the L'Oreal's mascara Volume Shocking Exact Brush at the price of RM25 only!!! haha.. unbelievable right?? normal retail price is RM49.90.

this was the last one on the table and i managed to grab it before anybody else did it. yeah!!then i went on another mission is to search for a dress to wear for an upcoming event. anyhow i didn't bought any dress but something else... so typical of me.. always getting out of focus!! and most ridiculously i actually went to search my clothes in a offer tong. and i found it!!!

i found a long shirt which can be a dress or shirt at the price of RM20

cheap right for this piece??

then this is only for RM9.00

don't know why they sell it for so cheap, not bad huh..

now the last piece, be ready for the price.........

...

ITS ONLY RM1.50!!!

yes this is the truth! you can drop your jaw!! drop it now!

i know it looks very plain and most probably i will only wear it for church because my mom always complain my skirts are too short for service.

k thats all.. i just cant control myself...

i'm tired

2009-10-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

i had regretted for the things that i had done.

i'm not that great and great great great great as i thought i were.

i'm just a human created by God.

who am i compare to god's awesomeness?

i had regretted for not staying in god's path,

i had regretted for trying to depend on my own,

i had regretted for pretending who i am now,

i had regretted jumping in decision to early and making my choice without think far ahead,

i had regretted for not prepared for what i'm facing.

i had regretted for letting you taking the initiative and i accepted it,

i had regretted for not showing my concern,

i had regretted for not being sensitive enough,

i had regretted for allowing myself to indulge,

i had regretted for not stopping myself before actions,

i had regretted for the word that i had spoke to you..

there is so many things that i had regretted yet

the only thing i can do now is getting back to god's arm,

finding rest and peace,

seeking for wisdom and strength to finish my race in perfection.

Again

2009-10-01T14:30:00.000+08:00

Finally!!!

i got my shoe!! i found it at CRISTRIS DIENA, one of the shops that i never take notice of and not to mention that i never heard of. but suprisingly it sells good quality shoes!! the varieties and the shoe's design are my cup of tea, and they have this service that help the customers to adjust the shoe's shape to fit the feets comfortably. i bet you sure gonna say HUH? WHATS THAT?? MAKING IT OUT OF SHAPE?? actually its like loosen the shoe and make it much more comfortable( something like you wear your shoe for some time and it gets comfortable). and the salesman there able to recommend you shoe that fits your feet better and make your feet looks better. there is something very embarrasing happen when i went to the shop last night. first i must say that the weather was super hot and there isn't any wind at all. so while i was looking for shoes, i perspired non stop and this guy passed me tissue. OMG its so embarrasing!! immediately my reaction to him is OH MY! ITS SO EMBARRASING, NEXT TIME I DON'T WANT TO SHOP AT YOUR SHOP DY LA!! HAHA.. he was so kind, he even asked me to sit down on the sofa and turn the aircon blowing at me!! sweat betul! later i still perspiring and this time he pass the whole pack of tissue to me!! and he asked me to just sit down and he will bring all the shoes for me to try on.. ***SWEAT LA***.

scale of 1 to 10

service: 10

types of shoe: 7

shoe quality: 7

display of shoe:5

shop condition:4(for no aircon all over the shop)

ok back to the shoe that i bought.
sometime ago i bought this pair of heels from one of the shops in wetex parade.
guess what?? after a walk of 1 km in that shoe i had SEVEN!!, read it carefully, its SEVEN blisters!!! on my feet!!! damn it! i had no choice but continue to wear the same shoe to shop in mid valley on my first date!! i really tbt then only i bought a flip flop to wear on that spot! CAN U IMAGINE HOW EMBARRASING WAS THAT IF THAT HAPPENS ON YOUR FIRST DATE??? the new shoe i bought was pretty similar to this.

this is the shoe that caused all those pain!!

this is the new shoe

well i guess this will stop my ranting for awhile for not being able to hav a new shoe..

wedding dinner

2009-09-28T20:42:00.000+08:00

thats four of us, the pretty girls..

em.. at this moment i'm kinda lazy to update every single details of the whole event. so i decided to copy and paste from li ern's blog!!
visit her blog at liern.blogspot.com. she got them very well detailed so please refer to her blog k..

outings with my babes

2009-09-28T20:10:00.000+08:00

kk here's the update for all the outing with mainly li ern and my babes..

on satuday afternoon after i was almost bored to death(yea practically whole afternoon i was waiting for somebody's reply and bugging people on msn), i managed to date my babes before cheryl go backs to JB and even mindy and her boyfriend. we met up around 7.30pm for yamcha session. haha i know you guys sure will laugh at our yamcha hour, even mindy's bf also tbt us, but what to do?? few of us have curfew and as pretty girl **erhemm** is not that safe to stay out late.. lol.. btw patty and angie were unable to join us.. haiz.. kinda dissappointed huh..

first we went shopping at a newly open boutique. i didn't bought anything but cheryl and liern got a belt and new blouse. oops i just remembered i bought something too.. its my first pair of black stocking. its the thicker type without seeing through and exposing flesh.. i think those looks to aunty for my taste! ewwks... then irene arrived and join our shopping!

next we went to this cafe named Xiao Xue. one really funny thing about this cafe is their menu is plainly chinese! OMG you think everybody understand and can read chinese ar?? at least get it translated as your marketing strategy! and i must say their standard went down after my first visit to it 2months ago.their drinks were so plain and tasteless.. but good thing is their serving is huge and quite cheap.

these are their huge serving of drinks. RM3.50 per mug. additional ingredients are RM 0.50.

cheryl and irene acting lesbian.. haha.. sweet sweet in front of li ern and i!

how can i lose out to them?? haha.. i started to camwhore with li ern making them pek cek cause i didn't jio them..

last but not least, thats four of the pretty girls. urghh!! li ern is the only one without eyebags!! jealous sial!

Holidays

2009-09-25T22:49:00.001+08:00

as the the malays celebrate their raya, the whole nation get a whole week off!! hurray!! as i'm still in secondary school(erhemm i'm still young huh), i get a total of 10 days off!! till now i still have about 2 days left.

actually nothing much going on for this whole holidays except that i had visit Melacca twice in a week. well its shopping time again!!! Muahahahaha... ok i just manage to buy two things, one is my skin product, my first and only one full set of skin product. as you guys know i didn't wash my face ever since last eight months ago ( i quit trying out all those products cause i always allergy to it).

this is it. i just trying out and unfortunately i still a little of allergy reaction on my face even though this product claimed that its allergy tested but i still experienced some redness. should i stop using it?? but my skin already much cleaner and looks brighter when the redness is gone. can anyone just give some advice on this?? should i continue using it or not? haiz i don't want to waste those few hunderd bucks i splurge on it!!

next i went to melacca again with my babes. as planned, we gathered at leeching house before we left. i drove her car all the way to Melacca fro and back. our ultimate aim of course are shopping and search for an evening gown for leeching. well i gotta say she is really a picker and chooser! we went round Melacca town looking for bridal shops and guess what choices are really very limited. haiz.. what to do.. i also don't know what she get to wear for that wedding dinner. talking about that wedding dinner, i was glad to find out that my babes are going especially liern and patty, and angie. at least i have some companions with me cause i knew leeching will be very busy that night. ok back to my Melacca trip, we decided to wear dress and even put on make up. yea call us vainpots!! haha.. anyway i still didn't get to buy my shoes. haiz..

these are my beautiful babes.. sorry liern and cheryl as you guys cant make it. haha.. next time k??

this is the light smokey eye makeup i did for irene. i was quite happy with it. haha..

after shopping around in Nichii, i found a nice suit. it makes me looks slim in it!

but there's abit of cutting problem and i don't have any appropriate occasion for this piece so i didn't bought it. i really like it very much!! anyway lee ching bought it. she looks great in it too!

ok thats all for the update.

Craziness

2009-09-15T18:32:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. do you know when a girl went under stress she will do crazy stuff which you will never expect it to happen?? well, to all the male creatures out there, just beware of any female.. hahaha.. especially when their hormones aren't stable...

k here's an example what happen when a girl, ET, goes out of control due to stress and hormones unbalanced..

it all started on a bright Saturday morning when the sun is shining brightly(which means very hot lah), suddenly ET had the urge to get out the house since nobody is at home leaving her home alone. after having breakfast with her mom and sending her mom off to work, she went to talk to her mom's supervisor and crap with him... yea practically crapping about whether she uses more of her left brain or right brain.. and found out she doesn't use any of her brain..

nonsense..

fine! later she make a call to her friend to find out whether she is around anot because the girl wanted to return something to her. to cut the story short, after all the chatting ET decided to drag her friend along to shop. when she went into her fren's room. she saw some really funny article pasted on the door of her wardrobe and on the mirror.. when eventhough its very motivating but its really funny.. her friend die die also doesn't allow her to take a picture out of it.. after few rounds of snatching and chasing game, ET finally gave up because her friend was screaming of her head and both of them were actually feeling not well.. but out of sudden. ET realise those articles were also pasted in her study room.

TADA!!!

here is it!! her aim is to get into NTU.

(actually ET admire her determination and concentration,she even printed out a fake result slip to motivate herself! great...)

well, ET did dragged her along to shop. and spend her sweet time, meanwhile her friend was very pale and sick. ET is such a bitch...crazy girl does crazy stuff.. poor thing friend..

finally ET's conscious started to realise that she was wrong and sent her poor friend back home.. that isn't the end of the story. ET went on shopping alone and got herself some nail paints. when she was back home, she was very sick till she had to lie on bed without moving.. told you guys, Crazy girl does crazy stuff...

here are the two bottles of nail paints.

The End

Moral of the story:

don't mix with crazy girl if you cant take her craziness
don't disturb a girl when her hormones aren't stable
learn how to reject crazy girl
slap the crazy girl if you thinks take she is getting crazy..
you who are reading till this point are also crazy, how can you read such a boring post for so long?? slap yourself too.. haha..

story update (1)

due to the initial i used before for the friend had caused much distress to the person who had the same initial (i apologies for the inconvenience), i decided to change it to anonymous. by the way not every time i mention about a girl, that girl must be a female.. it could be a male you know?? haha.. anyway stop asking me who is that person cause i wouldn't tell you.

I LOVE SHOPPING!

2009-09-11T14:55:00.000+08:00

i love shopping!! i love shopping!! may be due to stress of the exam year, i'm so obsesed with shopping now!! i just feel so wonderful when i get to shop! even now in the middle of trials exam i'm planning a trip to melaka to shop. may be during raya holidays i want to go with my babes.. any drivers volunteer?? actually even now i feel like shopping.. maybe tonight i will go with my parents.. hmmm... need to get something from sasa.. hmmm.. study?? later..

meanwhile durin this season of mega sales, i only get to shop some clothes and few accessories.. what makes me most unhappy was i cant get a pair new shoes!!! i need to wear my old sneaker for my school trip.. sob sob.. which was not very comfortable.. but i notice nice shoes are uncomfortable to wear but comfortable shoes are not nice.. haiz.. any recommentation of good shoes brands?? i seriously need a pair casual shoes and a new heels!!

actually for me the greatest satisfaction from shopping is getting something very nice but at a super low price..(you can see from the price).. haha.. yea call me aunty.. i admit that i got that aunty spirit.. but sometimes i still will buy the things that i want if i feel like too.. haha.. that's the moment of impulsivity..

ok following are some pictures of my new collections for my wardrobe>>>

these are my four new tee shirts, 2 from Hang Ten and the other 2 from Hush Puppies.

both of these i bought it together with Angie and Patty from Hang Ten, so you guys don be suprised when you saw us wearing the same shirts.

short pants from Hang Ten too..

a black dress from Nichii. this is what i wore for my bro's convocation ceremony. its only RM6+ after discount.

black beads and flower from Element. i got them at super low price.. RM7.90 for the beads and RM 2.30 for that flower..
(would you believe me if i tell you that this is the first time i get girlish assessories for myself??*sweat... laugh all you can i don't care..)

actually this bag come in a pair. the other 1 i gave it to my mom. same design but different shapes. i got them very cheap too.. RM29.90 for both from HOL.

My Luxurious Treat- Porridge

2009-08-31T12:24:00.000+08:00

i never post anything about food before in my blog. this time i gonna share my favourite food which was porridge!! yummy nice nice porridge.. not those watery rice in water but thick thick porridge..

i just ate this porridge a few minutes ago and a sudden thought of blogging a post about..(thats why it left only half a bowl when i took a picture of it). its already the third time this week i ate this porrigde from the same stall. now that stall owner, who was a ex-neighbour of mine, knows what i'm going order already when i come to her stall.

Pork porridge-plus egg-minced meat only-extra fried onions.

ok as you can see its pork porridge with minced meat only..

all this started when i was young, when i get sick i wouldn't eat a single thing unless my dad tapao porridge for me.. usually my mom will cook those watery watery porridge... urghh... imagine when you are sick then you need to eat to eat those tasteless watery rice...gosh bad memory.. but eating this nice yummy porridge its like a luxurious treat for me.. ok i'm exagerating but i really can eat this for breakfast, lunch, dinner and even supper.

i know some people don't like this type of porrige.. hmmm... it reminds me of my lao po who practically don't like eat porridge.. and my granny too!! she is really old (92 years old) and when she is sick she hates porridge the most! but then she cant chew any food now and forced to eat porridge.. haiz.. but guess what?? her luxurious treat is "Da Pao". the chinese meat bun. she still eat them 2 days once when she finds it hard to chew on food.. weird huh.. haha...

ok la.. thats all about my yummy porridge.. i will share my next luxurious treat again soon

Sedar Trip 21-23.08.09

2009-08-25T11:14:00.000+08:00

3 days trip jz went by so fast so unnoticed and so memorable. i think this will be the last trip that i go under the name of the school.haiz it reminds me that STPM left 3 more months to go.. its too freaking!!! damn i not yet even ready for trial! oh mama ah!!!

k get back to my trip. this trip was organised by Renjers Puteri and Bowling Club, and mainly the people are from 6AE, 6AS and 3 from 6AB and the rest were from lower 6. the main destinations that we had visited were Melacca, KL, Bukit Merah, and lastly Cameron Highlands.

Day 1

around 1130 we went back home from our class then got ready to gather back in school by 1330. we were very excited and really very happy because we don't hav to attend Mr Teh's extra class before we leave for our trip. wahahahahha.... as everyone had gathered andthere we left for our our first destination which was Melacca!! we visited two factories, FOMEC chicken essence factory and Crystal factory in Rembau. we drop by Seremban Jusco for our dinner but ending up we tapao our food to eat on the bus. you know why??? cause we spend that 1 whole hour shopping!! haha.. we headed for The Mines as our last destination for the day. there again we SHOP SHOP SHOP!!! i got to buy 2 shirts and a short pants from Hang Ten again. yea its Hang Ten again.. sweat!! kinda feel very weird.. this season of mega sales seems doesn't hav much choices (i mean overall for all the brand) and the stocks they hav for sales are really..... urghhhh....ok bac to mine trip.. at night we stop at Sungai Buloh overhead R&R to bath.

attention!!! please don't stop by that R&R if you can help it.

the water there were mud water and its relly very dirty. i actually had decided not to bath but the thought of not being able to bath until we reach Cameron the next day gave me the courage to bath under that muddy water. as the result, my face became rough and had pores clogged. as you guys know i don use any product on my face and mainly depending on clean water only to wash my face, its really maddening when i saw those redness on my face. i cant wait to get to Cameron to bath again. arghhhhh...

Day 2

we arrive in taiping. we had our breakfast at 1 of this pasar kinda foodcourt. the famous food there was dry curry mee and fried kueh. emm.. well.. its jz normal economical noodle added with curry and chicken meat, that fried kuah was plain.. we visited the charcoal factory and and the swamp area. its really a very huge factory. the whole place was filled with smoke and burned wood smell and i wondering will those worker die of cancer??? anyway i heard that the distilled water from the process of producing charcoal were sold to Japan and processed into make up products. next we went to Bukit Merah Resort. we visit orang utan santuary, eco park and tried on the skychair. cool!! we see orang utan we see ireetha family. muahahahaaa.. joking...

we had steamboat that night in cameron. i think our table was the rubbish bin and all the unwanted vege were sent to us and guess wat?? we finish them all.. vege is good anyway.. good for constipation..hahaaha.. we went gia gia at the pasar malam. it was raining and we were eating strawberry ice stick and walking under the rain. so romantic!!! four of us, patty, me, angie, and chai kee, walk and eat under the rain...

after we check in the apartment(it was the same apartment i stayed last year, what an coincidence!!) we bathed and next we were ready to have fun!! but we receive a phone call from our friends from 3rd floor asking us to close all of our doors and windows because there is this group of perverts from our opposite block video caming our apartments. gosh!! they even shifted the sofa to face us!!! all of us were freaked out and make a super big fuss out of it. lastly all of us went to the apartment in 3rd floor and stand outside the balcony facing those guys.. haiz freaks.. ithink we managed to show them that we are not afraid of them and we then closed all the doors and curtains, get down to our game.. what a night>> phew...

Day 3

we visited a few farms .. as usual...

we had our lunch at Bidor which they have this very very famous shop selling duck drumstick noodle. we had our dinner in midvalley. lastly back home.

p/s>>

as for the photos i will post them all in facebook